away from him

come next week,
i will have my sisters to sleep beside me because my husband will be away for a camp that lasts for 5 days.
this is our first time being apart from each other after being married,
something that i am not looking forward to.
i am going to miss him.
let's see how do i cope without him.

i remembered in 2008,
when i had a cultural trip to japan for ten days,
i cried.
and he told me that his eyes were watery when he sent me off.
he had prepared for me an a3 notebook filled with activities to accompany me throughout my 10 days there.
every day,
i look forward to reading it and see what activities was in store for me.
some were lyrics from songs.
i find the gesture sweet.


i took a long look at the photo above.
how i wish to be this thin again after giving birth.


every morning, reading the book prepared by him.




some of the activites he had for me.

now,
what will happen next week?

to add on,
he won't be able to have any communication device with him.
*sighs*
my phone will be quiet.
this is worse than the japan's cultural trip because at least back then i can still send text, email to him.
i still remembered how excited i was when there was an email from him.
my whole body was shaking while reading it.
i was really very happy to received an email from him.
next week,
total silence, no news from him for 5 days.
perhaps our telepathy can still work though we are far apart.
=)

it is scary thinking about it.
will i be okay?
will he miss me like how i miss him?
can baby M distract me from thinking about him?
or will baby M make me think and miss him more?
please let time pass by extra quickly next week.

honey,
i look forward to your hugs, stories and laughing with you at the end of 5 days.
at the end of the day,
i will express my misses for you to baby M.
she will miss you too.
stay safe while you are there.
i love you.