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been a few days since i've blog.. been tired these last few days, no idea why.. been sleeping early.. and tomorrow's school! haiz.. two weeks past so fast, at the blink of the eye and all you know it's already 2 weeks.. and haven't not yet finish my projects.. most projects are due next week and they are like half hanging.. haha.. let me see what i can recall.. oh yar, singapore idol, benjamin eio is cute! haha.. got that boyish look.. today went out with my dearest best friend.. went to ikea to buy my sis teachers' day prezzies.. am still wondering should i go back to sec and pri sch.. but see how.. then off to town, went to eat sushi.. then walked around heeren.. went to raffles city to look at the watch exhibition because a friend of mine recommend it.. kinda got lost, both of us were wondering how to get up there.. haha.. but at last, we managed to find our way.. we had to fill in a form in order to get in.. was blur, called a friend of mine, no answer.. *shakes head* haha.. but we are smart enough to get in.. haha.. the watches there are damn gorgeous! and ex too! my friend said the most expensive is 2 million plus.. took 1 hour plus to walk ard to look at watches.. it's nice and it's cool to see the artist carve the watches.. kinda interesting.. walk through raffles link, all the way to suntec.. and was freaking full in suntec... had some comex thingy going on.. can't really walk much, had to squeeze.. had some other exhibitons.. suntec, walk around, looked at shoes.. then went to marina square, reminded both of us of our working days.. haha.. went to esplanade after that.. sit and enjoy the scenery and both of us saw a cute chinese guy with his parents.. haha.. so guai.. it's kinda relaxing to see the river and have the breeze.. stayed there for about 30 mins.. before going home, went to look for roses for my dearest grandma.. cause these few days, she's been feeling down and stressed.. i have no idea how to make her blithe.. try talking to her, making a fool of myself (acting, singing).. she smiled and laughed but later, still there's a upset face.. i just hope she will cheer up.. bought her two roses, orangey pink.. she just loves roses so much! haha.. i'm thinking to make her a surprise, but have no idea.. haha.. maybe only.. i don't really know what am i suppose to do without her.. she's been there for me, through thick and thin.. i never lost someone dear to me before.. it's scary to think about that.. so just hope she will have the courage to pick herself up again.. god please help her.. yea, gosh, reminding myself.. tomorrow's there school! and there's floorbal.. dreaded it.. haha.. off to pack my bags!

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haiz, i can't be bothered lar.. think too much can be crazy.. so i decided just to let it float and see how far it gets.. i mean, surely god has a plan for us.. so why worry? have faith in god.. haha.. i think i know what's the problem with me : i always can't wait.. i need to have more patience.. yea, anyway what's the rush? take things slow and steady.. haha.. trying to cheer myself up, feeling kinda melancholic due to worries.. kinda tired now, went to cck stadium to accompany suliza jog.. we both ran 4 rounds.. both were hungry and were thinking about food while running.. was deciding either to eat sushi or long john.. haha.. then went to lot 1, treat her sushi.. yummy! haha.. slept at 0600 in the morning, chatted with rizal from 0200.. haha.. catch up with times.. was laughing when talked about primary school days.. haha.. ya lar, i changed a lot since primary school.. but nevertheless, i'm still the same me.. just more mature.. kinda sleepy now.. had only like 4 hours of sleep, still insufficient... haha..

9uy5, 9uy5, 9uy5

as it says, guys, guys, guys... they're everywhere... i dunno what's happening to me! *shakes head* it ain't good to have lots of guy friends.. well, maybe.. i dunno.. all i think now is about guys.. not one, but lots of them.. and the troubles are that i'm falling for them.. that's what i hate about having close friendship with a guy.. i'm really a fickle minded girl who can't really make decisions.. i hate making decisions! cause i may never know what i'll be missing.. oh god, please show me a way to overcome this obstacle.. really need your help right now, even though i'm not worthy.. i ponder to myself: do every girl has to go through this and how on earth they did it? why am i having crush so easily? it's not my fault to have a crush on someone.. i think it just happens in a split moment.. *waves hands to call for help* few days ago, i thought about relationship and i firmly said that i can't be bothered.. but now, i dunno.. why am i talking about relationship? i mean they're just friends.. i think it's still early to talk about that.. but i really dunno.. *shakes head* shall not brat more.. but, but you may never know what happens next..

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can't sleep last night due to my throat... very painful to sallow my saliva... ouch! having a fever.. was so sick in the morning.. thank god it was getting better in the afternoon... keep napping.. met shikin at 1725 to apply for some volunteer thingy in the cc.. we asked this lady for the form to filled up.. and she kinda took advantage of us.. haha... she asked whether we're good with computer and can we make flyer and stuffs... the smart us said yes... and we helped her... i called people reminding them that their child, blah blah blah... while shikin has to do stuffs on the com.. but ok lar... we don't mind.. we're helpful people... haha.. the lady treat us fried rice.. we finish ard 2015... then went to kfc, accompany shikin... before entering, saw this guy that look familar.. he's kinda cute! haha... while i was checking out this guy, shikin was just looking around and saw our primary school mates, norizal.. after shikin bought her stuffs... went out and approach norizal.. and called him out.. he was like "who is it?" and give the blur look.. helped him out a bit.. remember primary school?.. he was still blur.. haha... then tell him... he was like "you change a lot" haha.. yea, people do change.. and was so elated as his friend is the guy i've been checking out! he so so cute! saw him before he was playing badminton at another court and i was playing badminton at another... he's so good at it! really though he's a chinese, those tan chinese.. but no, he's a malay.. kinda cute for a malay.. haha... that's all about today..

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term break, no school... when to clementi to pay my fees then headed to school... it took me 1 hr to travel to clementi, that's what i hate about public transport... very slow.. was like a loner in school, sat at the atrium alone, ate some stuffs and read foxtrot comic... no friends cause we are supposed to come at 1745 but i came at 1630.. went to the library, finished up the return of the lone iguana.. and borrowed 2 more foxtrot comics.. had to run 4 rounds today, ok lar.. training was tiring, as usual... and it was selection for the ivp, 25 are chosen.. and i'm on the list.. can't believed that.. me.. hahha.... that's why i'm caught in the middle... don't really know how to feel.. elated yes, lazy yes... in the list means more effort, more determination... it will so tiring.. *shakes head* nevermind it, i'll try to endure... yea!

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haha... me and my sister teams up against my dad.. and we won! mom, dad, two sisters and i went out.. yay! cause i miss the times we went out shopping together.. it been 3 months since the last time we went out... last time, every saturday without fail we would go out and shop... haha.. went to forum's toys r us, walked around and looked at the lovely toys.. how i wish i can go back time where no worries in studies and happily playing with toys all day long.. but too bad, i have to cope with reality.. looked at the walt's disney princess monopoly *shakes head* expensive... $99.90.. then looked at the kids clothes.. damn small and cute! bought a dress and a hat for my newly born cousin.. walked all the way to borders and my dad asked about the monoply set.. showed him, he approaches the staff and ask for the price.. it's $73.95, i was like, forget it.. he won't buy... but to my surprise he said 'i'll take it'.. was damn shocked and joyful at the same time.. haha.. yay! got the thing that i want... haha... thanks dad! love ya lots! *muacks* saw a book about voodoo and the doll, titled 'don't just keep quiet, take revenge!' haha... how evil.. went home and played the monopoly.. my sister and i lose and the winner is fatin, my youngest sister.. shit.. haha.. tomorrom is chem test! hate tests.. i realised that iqah, my third siblings, is quite close to me.. we can connent well, but depends on each other moods.. haha.. we studied together and joked as well... now she's stressed due to pimples on her face... haha.. timeout, need some rest..

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saturday, 14 august 2004... had my PAM test... *shakes head* dun wanna talk about it.. let god decide.. haha.. then went to lido had lunch with sakeenah and estya.. went to borders with estya.. browse some mags and bought one.. teen vouge, has alexis and adam on the cover but that was partially the reason.. the main reason is that i saw an article about 'can sleeping in gives straight A's?' haha.. maybe because i felt guilty of sleeping/napping too much.. while paying at the counter, there's a gift section and i saw Simpson's monopoly... damn cute and the package is neat! i was tempted to buy it, but restrain myself.. how i wish i can owe one.. * shakes head* one more thing, my legs are still sore, can't squat! *ouch!!* felt frustrated with my dad.. ever since my brother joined the soccer team, my dad is always busy watching him and not spending enough time with me and my sisters.. was fumed with anger cause it was like 3 months we never go out together as a family.. thank god my bestie called me and we chatted.. it makes me feel better.. then off to dreaming land...

mon, 16 aug : chem test

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time check is 11:34 and still on the phone with suliza, my bestie.. am sleepy and shag.. tomorrow's starting school at 0800.. hopefully i can have a peaceful sleep.. got back my TXP test 1 back, which i thought i'm going to flunk.. and thank god, i passed! had the foliage plants quiz today, write a wrong name for the plant.. instead of codiaeum varigatum euphorbiaceae, i wrote down dracaena marginata 'tricolor' dracaenaceae.. nevermind, everyone makes mistakes.. floorball training was tiring today, me and yy was asking each other whether we are serious in it.. haha.. must have faith in ourselves.. gonna have PAM test on saturday at botanic gardens and Chemistry test on monday.. *shakes head* study again.. can't afford to slack!

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today had PAM practical test.. it was the most troublesome test i ever took.. why? there are 9 stations, and we are only given 6 mins on each station.. it was troublesome as we have to rotate for every 6 mins.. and Ms. Sim (lecturer) was saying that in the University, it's something like that.. instead of 9, there will be around 50 stations and only given 3 hours.. can't imagine it... rotate and rotate, reminds me of the friendship dance.. haha.. tomorrow getting back TXP test.. gonna flunk it, all got mixed up! *sigh* failure comes before success.. tomorrow there's a quiz on foliage plants.. must memorize 33 of them *shakes head*

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before anything, i will like to wish Singapore a *HAPPY 39th BIRTHDAY!* am really proud of you!

now, back to me.. i am just so frustrated with myself! i was fiddling with the template and *boom* it deleted by itself... all my hardwork went down the drain.. feeling so melancholic rite now due to my itchy fingers.. so guys, just hang on with me till i make a nice blog page.. but it will takes weeks, or even months.. cause it all depends on my mood

tomorrow
-- PAM practical test

wednesday
-- TXP test on foliage plants

saturday
-- PAM short answer test

test, test and more test!
*ps, this doesn't include projects..

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here's a brief introduction..
-- my aim to do this blog is to experiment with the html code.. that was like few months ago, can't be bothered now..
-- am stress due to school, remembering stuffs, test, deadlines to meet for projects..
-- misses gossiping with my bestie, Suliza..
-- National Day is tomorrow..
-- there's lots of stuffs i wanna do but just can't be bothered..
-- am still disappointed with my ex.. (no idea why)
-- got a new cousin on the 06-08-2004 @ 0123 hrs, damn cute!..