you.

i figured out 1 thing.
i can't stop staring at you.

the rapturous love you're giving me helps me to grow sweetheart.
thanks love.
only you i adore.

yay!

great!
they won!
i'm refering to the amazing race.
good last finish.
catch it on fri, 10pm to find out.
they truly deserved it.

it's indeed a good morning to know that they won and that i saw him yesterday.

i've been sleeping early for the past few days.
all because i get tired easily.
even sitting in front of the com and typing it away, i'm short on breath.
and to add in, my mood swings is on the loose.
beware people.
*sighs*
argh! i hate it.

the camp to the underwater world was cool.
it was such a peaceful sight to see the fishes above you.
swimming freely.

you're the only one that makes me forget about my tiredness.
i love you darl.

keep on smiling.

i'm loving my life.

there are times when i get super stress as i have many things to settle within a short period of time.
things clashes with some other things.
a better time management will help.
but the problem is,
i never follow my own schedule.
there's that laziness that keep weighing me down.
maybe prioritizing will help.
but knowing myself, i can't decide.
nevermind, i'll make it through.
i know i can.
no, i must.

weeee!
i can't wait to sleep with the fishes.
i hope it will be fun and enjoyable.
fyi, i'll be back on sunday.

had another bonding session with his parents.
went to watch soccer at kallang.
afterwhich head to lau pau sat for an early mothers' day treat.
boy oh boy, i was full by the end of the day.
i'm starting to like those bonding sessions.
maybe because we are getting comfortable with each other.
haha.

watched mission impossible 3.
great show.
a show with a twist.
you may get lost if you weren't paying attention.
and of course, how can i forget,
mr tom cruise is hot!

it feels so so good to score during a game.
ok lah, kinda unfair as it were the seniors against the freshies.
but still, i scored 2 and assisted 2 or 3.
fantastic!
i love floorball.

when bad things surround you,
fight against it.
don't let the feeling act as an anchor.
realise that it's normal to be feeling that way.
keep thinking why you are lucky and start thinking about the good stuffs.
only then you will be happier and lighter.
i know it's hard as the negative vibes keep on poking you, harassing you.
be stronger than them.
don't let them win you over.
cause if they do, you will sink even deeper.
this is life.

thanks for that second chance.
without it, i don't think we are able to be experiencing what we are going through.
i'm still amaze why do i deserved that second chance.
indeed, i'm lucky to have your love darl.
really am.
i didn't know what i was thinking before we separated.
oh well, things happened for a reason right honey?

is this what you call love?
when i keep thinking of you?
when i close your eyes, there you are.
when i'll keep smiling to myself when i think of the joyous and silly moments we had?
when my bad mood changes to a very very good one when i'm about to see you?
when my inbox are filled with yours?
when your smses make me radiant?
when words are insufficient to describe how i feel for you?
when i keep talking about you?
when there's that trust to make me at ease?
when i 'feel' when love songs are being played?
when i get all weak in the knees when i heard your voice?
when i never fail to kiss our ring at the end of the day?
when i see our future together?

if it's true,
i'm in deep trouble as
i'm so in love.
i've found my prince charming.
the one that awoken me from my deep sleep.
and make me realised what i've missed.

how lucky can i get?

lovely loved ones.

i can sense that i'm going to be super busy this month.
a month lined up with programmes.
with all the camp, tranings, meetings, events, dinners.
and of course, school assignments.
aiyoyo.
nevermind, i'll make sure i'll have fun doing all those stuffs mentioned.

ok, i'm gaining weight.
i don't know by how much, but i am.
hmph.
how i wish fats can be dissolved.
but noooooo.. they are stubborn.
only after exercising,
i mean with super a lot of exercises and sweating yourself,
then you will lose shed some kilos.
so leceh.
oh well, there's no shortcuts to everything.

what can your sister plus your cousin plus your 2 bestfriends plus your boyfriend do to you?
*grins*
the answer: happiness.
again, i felt so loved.
went to seoul garden to have dinner with the 5 of them.
weeeee!
just great lah.
and someone is so lucky to have 5 female bodyguards ah.
haha.
all my loved ones and me.
and they had a great time laughing at me.
i'm so comfortable with you all thus that explains my silliness.

last week was my family members.
this week is my mixed ones.
next week?
my dearest clique in class?
oh no, cannot.
having a camp.

today, head to the zoo to recce the place for the upcoming trip.
a trip for kids organised by the nanyang's cc yec.
and i'm the planner.
heee..
there were like 9 of us.
they are nice to accomodate to me and shikin as the other 7 are chinese.
so today, we walked and walked and walked.
dearest shikin was complaining to me.
and by the end of the day, we are very very tired.
rewarded ourselves with ben and jerry's ice cream.
chocolate chip cookie dough.
went home and sleep.
overall, a nice outing.
if you have yet to know, i'm not into animals.
in fact, i have a phobia of them.
yes, i'm afraid of animals!
i know some are adorable.
but i just don't dare to touch it.
next task: to plan the route for the kiddies
next place to recce: the botanic gardens!
weee.
plants and flowers i like!
way better than the animals.

next week, i'm going to have a camp.
a np-ite eco camp.
the best thing is that, we are sleeping at underwater world!
see the fishes.
sleep with the fishes.
dream of the fishes.
think of you.
who says being in an environmental cca isn't rewarding?

floorball's been fun!
the freshies are one energetic bunch of people.
both the guys and girls are fun.
programmers thanks for that orientation.
they sure had great fun by the laughs and smiles they gave.

mothers' day is coming.
and i have yet to plan/come up with anything.
hmmm.

yesterday, we began our floristry module.
it may look easy, but it's not.
flower arrangement is kinda therapeutic if you're not in a rush and not graded.
it's fun working with leaves and flowers.
and i'm pleased with the results even though it's just b+ as it's my first!
haha.

oh yes,
my lovely sister is such a knowledgeable first aider.
thanks ah.
that stuffs you did to me and that bandaging does help.

weee!
my mom bought me 3 tops.
even though i didn't follow them as i was too tired.
what a surprise!
haha.
thanks mom. thanks dad.
i love you both.
great great.

the feeling of joy hits me when i saw you.
smiling to me.
with that cheeky yet charming look of yours.
i really miss you so much.
it was almost a week since we last saw each other.
that sight of you is just a relieve.
yes, a relieve from missing you.
i love your scent.
and you're adorable.
i can just see you eat corns all day long.
they know, you know, i know.
lovely you.
till when i see you again, you're in my mind.
i love you too.

so loved.

lately, i've been spending time with my loved ones.
and every single one of them made me feel so blessed and lucky.
thank you.
*grins widely*

of course, i have those moments when i'm on a bad term with them.
it's a norm.
cause they're not me.

but at the end of the day,
i know all of them want the best for me.
and they will keep on supporting me.

haha.
life is wonderful at times.

may day is such a great day!
*winks*

people, people,
do i look married?
cause someone thought i have a husband.
mature.
what can i say?
haha.

husband not yet lah,
boyfriend yes.

congrats suliza!
i'm so proud of you.
really am.
at times, you can be a pain in the a**.
i know you know that. hee.
but at the end of the day,
i realise, you can never leave my heart.
cause we have gone through so much.
and you mean a lot to me.
same goes to you shikin.
except, i don't have any arguments with you.
haha.
i love you both.
shikin, do me a favor, get well soon!
and suliza, work hard.

human,
thanks for that constant weekly checks.
appreciate it.
good people are rare.
evil people are everywhere.
you just have to watch out.
and at times, giving in is the solution.

for you my love,
i'm missing you with my every breath.
i think of you every minute.
1825 days seems long.
but i have faith in us that we can make it through.
pleasant things has to have patience.
you.
you are my end to my loneliness.
my end to my frustation.
my end to my sadness.
with you, i can see rainbows.
you're my joy and happiness.
only you complete me.
i love you.