lovely week.

ok.
i've been going out with him for the past 7 days straight.
we've been going to each other house to play game and of course to see each other.
and i want more.

i sound so sick.
well, i've been having this miss-mutalib sickness.
but i'm loving it.

been visiting his relatives houses, his friend house and my relatives houses.
it's fun
yesterday, my family that includes my aunt family went over his house.
i always feel a sense of happiness when i see them interacting actively.
and i get to realise that a friend of mine is his distance relative.
heh.
how cool is that?

and i love your mom lah.
she's so cute!

do i see you tonight sweetheart?
we'll see.
heh.

gonna have my primary and secondary school raya outing.
it will be fun recollecting those childish memories i had in those schools.

i'm starting to dread attachment.
i don't know why.
the first month seems fast.
but now, the days are like crawling.
urgh.
i shouldn't have such thoughts about attachment.
isn't it something that i can learnt from.
it's barely 3 months.
.........
but at times, i like it.
aiyah.
fickle-minded lah.

but i know i'm not fickle about the guy that i'm going to marry.
i'm certain about it.

4 more years huh honey?

surprise!

it was just a normal thursday.
doing my plans and elevations.
when suddenly at about 1645 hrs , i turned my head towards the door.

and i saw a white car driving in.
look familiar.
and i then saw the car plate.
eh, very familiar leh.
after a few seconds later,
i realised,
that is my boyfriend!
he was grinning from inside the car.

i was indeed surprised to see him.
and honey, i'm sure you did saw that shocked look.

i love the way you look yesterday.
your hair was extra stunning yesterday.

i love you.
i love disturbing you while you were busy concentrating on the game.
i love you if you are fat.
i love you if you are sick.
i will still love you when you are irritating.
i can't help it but to love you.
life with you seems right.

i'm counting down the minutes till i see you this evening,
to raya over at your grandfather's house and mama in's house.

may we last for eternity.
InsyaAllah.

happy birthday suliza

nur suliza bte suip
my bestfriend that i've endure for years.
been through lots of ups and downs with her.

today marks a special day.
26 october 2006.
she has turned 20 as of today.

happy 20th birthday sweetie pie!
may Allah bless you in everything you do (that doesn't include the sinful stuffs ah).
may you have a good health.

every year teaches you different experiences.
it may never be smooth.
but you'll learn.

20.
woah.
scary huh?
kinda old doesn't it?
and suliza, a little few more years you are mrs i-dont-know-who-is-your-husband-name
haha.

have a good birthday!

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hari raya's been good.
as per normal, my first day, we only go to one house to visit my paternal grandmother.
after that, go straight home.
why?
cause people are coming over my house.
busy busy.

but surprisingly, the first day wasn't that busy busy as expected.
more to relax busy.
heh.
business wasn't that good until sweetheart and his parents came over.
haha.

it was my first time hugging and kissing his mom.
it felt right.
she's my other mom that i love.
and of course i love his dad too.

at the end of the first day, i was really tired.

my second day was awoken by sweetheart as a morning call.
because his parents invited me to follow them to batu pahat to visit his dad's family.

the road was like neverending.
it took us few hours to get there.
and honey, why were people looking at us huh?
haha.

overall, it was a fun and enjoyable day.
i'm really am in my happiest period.
syukur alhamdullilah.

and today, back to work.
to finish up a proposal.

honey, i can never say enough 'thank you' to you
thank you.
i love you, you know i do.

selamat hari raya!

to my muslim couterpart,

selamat hari raya aidilfitri!

for others,
happy holiday!

dear readers,

i would like to apologise for my sins.
those hurtful stuffs that i said, typed, those things that makes you hurt.
please forgive me.

i wouldn't want to have any enemies.
it doesn't do good.
it makes me to have a heart full of hatred.

enjoy the day with your loved ones!

miss.

i'm really lagging at home.
everyone at home are addicted to watch korean dramas.
except me and my dad.
i only realised it yesterday.
they will change the channel right on time to watch it.
aiyooooo.
my mom even bought the dvd.
and my dad is hooked to it too.
ish.

just came back from training.
it was kinda messy but we pull through.
we did learnt something.
haha.

i can't wait for the weekend.
it's freedom!
cause i've been really busy.
i need a good rest.....
with you honey.

my cousin is just so adorable!
really.
i'm inside the room, blogging and she just came in and hug me.
and chatted with me.
can you believe it?
i'm talking to a 2 years old kid.
she sang for me.
iklil is just talented.

2 days apart is bad.
i miss you terribly.

since that fateful night,
it changed us.
it's forever with me.
it was just touching.
just like those in the movies.
but ours was real.

there's tones of stuffs that makes me elated honey.
thinking about you,
reading your messages,
looking and listening to my ipod,
looking at our ring,
looking through our pictures,
hearing your voice,
remembering that sweetest night and those other nights and days with you in it,
those silly stuffs we did,
thinking about us.

i love reading romantic novels.

it just touched my heart and my mind wander about.

how i wish he does that.

how i wish i'm like that.

how lucky they are.

awwww... that's so sweet.

you get what i mean when you cried watching or reading those lovey dovey movies/books.

eg. a walk to rememeber and you, me and dupree.

honey if only we have a book to write about us.

i bet it will be under the bestseller.

and we make lots and lots of money.

then we can go honeymoon over and over again.

haha.

sidetracked.

people are surprised of how we get to know of each other existance.

haha.

and they laughed too.

handsome eh?

someone was sooooo happy yesterday.

not 1, not 2 but many said something that makes him great.

i'm very proud of you.

and honey,

mom commented something huh?

heeee.

i overheard her voice even though you didn't pass the comments to me.

she happy. why ah?

haha.

you know i know.

i love having you handsome officer.

you make me feel wonderful.
you ignite that spark which is dying.
you're that guy that i will like to see as my husband.
you're the one that filled my heart.
the one that completes me.

i miss you.
so badly.

sweet yet again.

*warning*
not suitable to those who hates reading lovey-dovey stuffs.

looking at the calendar.
i realised that we almost see each other every single day.
breaking fast either with my family or his or only the two of us.
it can never get any better.

but now, there will be a few days of separation due to our schedule.
=(
but we may never know.
either of us may just pop up.
all because of the bug called love.
heh.

instead of you meeting up with your parents to break fast,
you met up with me instead.
i was speechless when you told me your plan about meeting me.
i was blushing, i was overwhelmed with happiness.
i was excited too.

after floorball meeting,
head to the place where we're meeting.
seeing you from afar, makes my heart skip a beat.
i was already smiling to myself.
it was just nice honey.
you make my day with your gestures.
=)

i can never love someone else more than you.
because i give my heart all to you.

let us play well later honey.
have fun soccering while i'll be floorballing.

till we meet again,
you will be popping up in my mind every few seconds.

as you can see,
most of my entries have him in it.
it's because he is a part of me.
and my mind is filled with him that i don't have mood to blog about other stuffs.
=P

have a nice day everyone!

sad, sweet, memorable

15th october 2006

a night to remember.
a silly action has great consequences.
time and time again, the mistakes appear.
is there anything that can warn me before it happens again?
or can i stop it myself?

yesterday was the worst and the best night ever.
from yesterday, i know my honeymoon period will last forever.
the incident kept replaying in my mind.
because i never ever expected you.....
no one ever did for me.

i'm not going to state what happened.
cause it's a private moment which the two of us treasured.

like what he said,
it was sad, yet sweet, yet memorable.

those words you whispered to me touched me deeply.
i never felt so much love before.
that feeling i had will stay with me for eternity.

i can't wait to greet you everytime when you get home.
you are the one that i want to spend my whole life with.

i love you with all my heart.

issues

hello readers!
i just want to make it clear.
this blog consist of my thoughts, my views and my perspectives.
definitely there will be disagreements.
no one ever look at things the same way.

i have some individuals who seems unhappy with my postings.
thinking about it, i don't think i've got enemies.
thus, the person must be a friend.
and i wonder.
will a friend be that harsh to their friends?

i don't know why don't you want to reveal your true identity.
is it because you prefer to wear a mask when becoming a bad guy?
once you take it out, people look at you as a good innocent person.
i appreciate it if you tell me who you are.
because i listen to my friend criticism better than a stranger.
because i know a friend cares.
and it will be easier to invite you to my wedding.

for those who knows me long enough,
all of them knew i had two failed relationship.
so i don't think you know me well nanananana.
you assume.
you think i have a perfect life.
which i don't at all.
everyone has to go through sufferings.

and this is not my first love and i'm not his first too.
we had our failures.
even now, 10 months being together we had some arguments.
but we managed to overcome it.
we know each other for 19 months.
and we are still not sick of each other.
and like what you said nanananana,
maybe it's still the honeymoon period.
and i hope the honeymoon will last forever.

i've been in love but this is the first time i ever experience true love.
i can truly say we need each other.

nanananana, i'm sorry if i hurt your feelings.
it was way out of my intention.
you have such anger against me.
i can feel that you really hate me.
maybe you are too concentrated on other people that you forget to think about yourself.
cheer up!
have more confidence of yourself.
i will like to help you out.
i don't know whether i know you but i'll pray for you.
that you will find your happiness.

and Ida, yes, you get what i mean.
i bet you know how wonderful love is.
it just fitted perfectly.

if you think my postings are not to your liking, you are kindly to exit.
cause i don't think it's a must to read if it hurt you more.
it's my life.
i can't help it if it goes that way.
i hope you are all mature enough that i don't have a need to set up password to access my blog.
god has His reasons.

i respect my readers and it's up to you to respect me.

why do you hate me so much?
do you know that some people admire you but they just don't say/show it?
i used to be like you.

i used to get jealous easily.
but then something strucked me,
why should i get jealous of them?
i have my own life to take care.
and i figured my life out.
rather than brooding, i did something.

other people blog about their love life.
and i find it's sweet.
i don't hate them.
instead i wish they will last.

clear your mind and make a decision in what you want in life.
slowly, work towards it.
then you can enjoy your fruits of labour.

haha.
told my grandma and mom about this taggy thingy.
and my grandma wants to say to you that
"it's true, i can't wait to see my granddaughter get married"

have a lovely saturday!
god bless all of you.

*ps. happiness comes from within.

happy birthday sweetheart!

11th october,


presenting the birthday boy who is too concentrated playing ps2.


celebrated his birthday over at my house.
my family, my aunt's family and his parents were there.
a very good get together session.
it was something i planned,
it felt so good to see my own plans run smoothly.
i know you know that family bonding is important.
hee.


celebrated my sister belated birthday together with his.

look at the background, there's my mom smiling to the camera.
haha.
extra lah you ma.

a simple card with a touch of love.

lovey-dovey messages. heee..



it's a bright future for us honey.

happy birthday.

touching mushy stuffs.

misunderstanding never fail to occur.
honey, i thank god for you.

when i think of you, i smile.

at times,

when i think of you, tears flow.
those tears of happiness.

this bond we have can never be broken.

how great,
you called while i'm typing this entry.
we really have telepathy don't we?

i'm truly amazed by our love.
i mean it when i speak those three words.

i love you.

perhaps it's not enough to explain how i'm feeling for you honey.

yesterday touched me deeply.
thanks for thinking it through.
it meant a lot to me honey.

i'm not making it up to make you at ease.
that is how i really feel.

you are the best gift that god has given me.
and i'm sure you're my soulmate that will bring me through.

abdul mutalib's advance birthday!

i had so much fun yesterday.
i can't even sleep since 7am due to my excitedness!

had a celebration for him on the 7th october 2006.
that is 4 days earlier than his actual birthday.
haha.
because on the 11th october,
we're gonna celebrate as one big family.
but yesterday was just for the two of us.
heeee.



started by giving him an invitation card on the 5th october.
actually i asked my 2 years old cousin to pass it to him when he came over.
so that it wouldn't be that obvious.
surprise number 1.
hehe.

yesterday afternoon, my sister and i went to vivocity to buy tickets for the midnight show.
oh man, singaporeans are really kiasu.
the place was filled with people.
and the queue for the tickets took us half an hour.
afterwhich, we took cupcakes.

fetch my policeman and head off to town to break fast.
and he kept asking me where are we eating?
i kept replying far east.
i made a reservation for us.
and it's only for 15 mins.
so we were in a rush.
well, we were late due to the congested traffic.

instead of parking at far east which i foresee it's gonna be 'full'.
i parked at grand hyatt hotel.
he was kinda pissed.
because we were already late but i made it later.
and the lift doesn't help lah.
very very very very slow.
and he was even pissed.
just like a small boy who doesn' get his toy.

at the lobby, i held his hand and guide him to the place.
well, well, well...the place where we are dining wasn't at far east.
it was at straits kitchen in grand hyatt hotel.
surprise number 2.

as we were late, we are not able to seat at our assigned seats.
instead we have to share our table.
the place where we were seated, had 3 empty seats beside us and no one occupied it. (more privacy)
while the place that was reserved for us, had people on the left and right.
thus, it was a blessing in disguise.

that was our first time dining there.
there was a spread of local dishes, chinese, indian, malay, etc.
the ambience was perfect.
i'm glad you like the place honey.

i tell you, we went to take our food like 6-7 times.
we had chinese fried rice, kebabs, popiah, rojak, chicken rice, tandoori chicken and so much more.
it was fun taking those food and having waiters clearing for us even though we didn' finish the food.
we spent there for 2 hours eating away.
we really eat to our heart content.
haha.

our unfinished desserts.


asked him to get a drink for me.
while he was doing that, i slipped his presents under his towel.
surprise number 3.



he looked so cute upon seeing his presents!
heee.
i'm glad you like the wallet honey.


i placed some love notes for him.


we were supposed to head to a park to see such nice scenery of town area afterwhich to watch a midnight show.
but but but it was cancelled to the bad haze.
mom advice us to head home.
i thought of passing him the cupcakes on the park.
suprise number 4.
he mentioned about wanting to watch 'you, me and dupree'
i thought of bringing him to the new theater at vivocity.
surprise number 5.
i'm sure he never been to both of the places.


thus the tickets bought was a waste.
haha.

while saying our goodbyes, pass him the lovely cupcakes.
oh man, he looked so elated by seeing the design or perhaps he read the wordings.
haha.
i'm glad you like the cupcakes honey.


you are indeed charming, policeman.


even though my plan was disrupted,
he did enjoyed it.
he enjoyed his day.

i'm glad you like my plan honey.
wednesday will be another fun day!
more plans to come in the future.

i love you, oh so much!
and yes, you being that special someone called my husband will make my dream come true.
it was a night to remember.
for you and for me.

random

having my lunch time and spilling my thoughts.

few more days till someone turns 23!
i just can't wait to see his reactions.

23 sounds nice.
twenty three
12, 13
my favourite number follows by his.
haha.
ok lame i know.

i'm getting tired easily.
why?
cause i think it's going to be that time of the month soon.
and my throat is getting drier.
symptoms of getting sick.
aiyo.
get well soon myself!

i want you!...
only you honey.
and dreaming of you is good!
very good.
till i see you again, i miss you.