right after updating my blog, i went off to bake crispies cookies.. i hate to bake while fasting cause i can't be able to taste the mixture.. i really love those cookies mixtures, it will determine whether the cookies you bake will turn out to be nice.. even though i didn't get the chance to taste it, i'm smart enough to keep only a tiny portion of the mixture for me to taste during breaking fast.. haha.. i'm really addicted to it.. while breaking fast, the first thing i ate was the cookies i made.. it was nice and once you start eating it, you can't stop.. but it tasted a bit saltish.. haha.. it looked like i'm bragging about my cookies and promoting it.. haha.. i think i'm going to bake it again next week as i don't think it will be enough.. cause last year i baked it with a cousin of mine, haziq and my sister and within the fourth day, it was all gone.. haha.. it was so delicious *cough,cough* that one of my cousin asked for the recipe.. well, different people has different taste.. it was fun baking with them and the three of us were crapping around as it was late at night and only the three of us were awake.. both of them were a great help and thanks, i really appreaciate your help.. *smiles*
i was updating my blog half way when my grandma asked me to try the baju and after that, i'm feeling stressed out because of stuffs.. that was why i was unable to finish updating.. my mind was all confused and can't seem to think for itself.. i wrote down stuffs that i need to do but it was futile.. the feeling would not just go away.. hate that shitty feeling.. i can't really describe that feeling, only god knows.. in the midst of the morose feeling, he smsed.. *grins* a little part of me glow.. he smsed saying he's feeling weak out of a sudden.. so it's like both of us were feeling down.. i find it weird because while surfing the net, i came across his personality type.. he's a cancer.. this was what i found out, [Being the first of the water signs you have psychic powers, and are able to sense feelings and thoughts in others - you feel rather than think. When you love someone, you love truly and deeply, and have the desire to connect on a profound level.] so i think he felt that i was down or something.. i felt much better after chatting with him even though it was for a few minutes.. maybe because i felt blessed that someone loves me.. the feeling is not the same as the love from my parents, siblings, grandma, etc.. it's much more that kind of sparkling feeling, where you feel special and great about yourself even though you're feeling inferior and worthless.. i think this is something what you call love..
i think being in love is much more tougher than earning income.. both need commitments.. i dare say that love is not selfish.. as being in love, the basic ground rule is to think and feel for that someone, it wouldn't work out if you're only thinking about yourself.. and you will need to be flexible in order to react to your partner's mood.. he/she can't be feeling sprightly for 24 hours.. i bet there's time when your partner is feeling sullen.. your sweetheart is inconsistent and you must be creative enough to react to it.. when he/she is feeling down, you can't be joking with them too much, you shouldn't converse with them using harsh tone.. being in love is interesting as you may receive suprises and you may just never know what will happen next.. as for working, the work that you will be doing is pretty much the same old thing, the same old boring routine.. if you never work to your standard then you are excepted to be fired.. it's some sort predictable.. working is about a one man work whereas being in a relationship, it a two man thing.. hopefully, you are able to understand what i'm trying to convey..
back to what happened next.. i need to return books and i thought my sister could accompany me, but she was really tired, she felt asleep.. i was quite frustrated, cooled myself down by watching tv, it does help in some way.. my maid passed me the phone as i had a phonecall and it's him! he saw someone and he thought of sharing it with me.. asked about his whereabout and he asked whether i'm feeling better.. i told him about my sister falling asleep and stuffs.. and *smiles* he said i'll accompany you.. gosh, i was smilling cause i'm able to see him.. i really miss him so much! met him, return books, buy cereals and break fast outside.. that's about love, it never fails to make you smile and grateful.. he was concerned about me and as he is a year older, he knows a bit more stuffs than me and gave me some advice and stuffs to thing about.. thanks dear!
it was my dearest grandma's birthday on the 2nd nov.. i really have no idea what to buy for her so i just gave her money for her medicine.. i was kinda lame in folding a few of plain papers, only one contain the money and placed them in an envelope.. when she teared out the envelope and saw the pieces of folded paper, she was like it's surely a prank.. she can't be bothered and almost threw it away till my sister showed her what she supposed to do.. haha.. she looked cute while opening those folded paper.. and at last she saw a note and she was like thank you.. there was joy on her face.. she was surprised that it was me who gave that present as i'm not that generous compared to all of my three siblings.. haha.. because whenever she asked whether i've got money, i always without fail say no.. haha.. see how *ehem* i am.. actually i'm not that *ehem*, it will depend on situation.. dear, don't worry, i'm not *ehem* to you.. haha.. chatted with him when he's settled down at home.. i'm really lucky to have you dear cause i know you will always be there for me.. and rememeber, i'll be there for you too.. i love you! *hugs*
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