i had a tiff with my grandma.. *shakes head* and i am the one who started it.. i was rude to her cause i wasn't in the mood to do stuffs.. yea, i think i've been pampered too much till i don't place myself in their position.. i lacked of emotional depth.. i must try to feel more.. i felt bad after i answer back to her.. did some reflection and yea, i apologized to her.. it seems that she wasn't willing to forgive me.. i did my thing, and finally, she laughed and talked to me.. but seriously, i really feel crummy about what happened.. i can just sealed my lips but, no i didn't do that.. i'm really sorry grandma, i was being insensitive.. it all started when she asked me to try out the kebaya she sewed and i said harsh stuffs back to her.. it's not that i mean it, it just that i just spit out words that was insensitive without thinking.. i messaged him saying that i had a quarrel with my grandma and his instant reply was "CALL ME NOW!!" gosh, i knew it that i'm going to have a lecture by him.. i was so right.. yea, he advised me and stuffs.. my grandma complained to him about me.. i'll try not to do that again dear and thanks for your advice.. i'm relieved that it's over and glad that me and my grandma is on good terms now..
my dearest cousin, in, came over in the afternoon to send my sister home with her parents.. my mom and dad were asking us whether we wanna go out.. both of them were ready.. i said no as i was freaking hungry and can't be bothered.. my sister, brother and in agreed with me, they weren't in the mood to go out.. but there was like 2 more hours before breaking fast.. i thought why not wasting my time outside and have things to do rather than staying at home and it's been a long time since i went out with my parents, a long time since we went shopping together.. so yea, i made a decision to follow them and in, my sister and brother came along too.. haha.. it only take a spark to get a fire glowing.. one of the phrases in the hymn.. those were the times in secondary school where every monday we would have devotion and there's hymn to be sung..
i was worn out while watching tv with my sis and took a nap for 30 mins.. chatted with my him.. i really adored chatting with him, it just makes me comfortable and secured.. well, that's a tiny weenie portion of why i love you dear!
while having sahur, i felt refreshed and i will be baking cookies later in a while.. to think back about saturday, 30 oct, i felt it was meant to be, it was like i was fated to meet his cousin cause the chances of meeting her was very, very slim.. i don't have an idea which class is she from, don't really know exactly how she looks like and etc.. there were like >1,000 schoolgirls and out of a sudden, she was just right in front of me.. hopefully, this is another sign that god wanna point out to me.. a sign showing that he's the one.. i really wish that our relationship will last for eternity and he's the one i want to grow old with.. i know it's kinda early for me to say that cause i may never know what god has in store for us but nevertheless, i really treasure the moments when i'm with him.. it's feels great to be with him! i'm really in love with you dear! *hugs*
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