re5+...

it's been 10 months and still counting since i've been single.
well, i can't deny the last break up was hard.
but hey, it's a blessing in disguise.
seriously, it is.
it's not like i'm not been moving on with life since the last relationship,
in fact, i am moving on with a great mindset.
people do asked me "why aren't you in a relationship?"
it's a question that keeps me thinking about it, a lot.
and i come to a conclusion.
to me, being in a relationship is when the couple is really serious about each other.
madly in love with each other is not enough cause you may never know it will fade away. (take for example jennifer aniston and brad pitt)
it's when both of you decide that you wanna spend the whole life with each other.
accepting each other's flaws and compromising.
now, in modern times, people are abusing it.
some are in a relationship due to peer pressure.
some just need someone to make out with.
some may just want to show off or perhaps boost their egos to their friends.
some need the extra attention.
and some think that, i love you, you love me and then we should get into a relationship.
there are endless reasons.
sometimes, i can't get it.
in the sense that when those people who are in a relationship said to each other.
"if you found a better guy/girl, i'll let you go."
on the first place, if you are indeed serious about your boyfriend/girlfriend, why should you look around for other people?
so does it mean like i'm holding on to you till you found the one?
if people get their mindset correct about relationship,
there wouldn't be break-ups, there wouldn't be divorce.
these occurs when couples are unfaithful to each other.
or maybe due to financial problems or etc.
but being together you are supposed to hang in there, go through together.
not divorce, not breaking up.
those are just lame excuses, to free themselves, to free from the partner's burden.
abusing won't happen if the fella loves you.
who will beat up a loved one?
unless the person is insane.
true love conquers everything.
having 2 failed relationship, it makes me realised more.
i wasn't thinking.
i was fooled by those 'love bugs'.
thinking about it, i realised how gullible i am.
but now, i'm more aware and know what i want from it.
looking long term now.
no more short term.
that's why i'm still single.
about the available part.
hmmm.
go figure.

i'm enjoying life now. *grinning widely*
well, i've always been enjoying life.
going through the ebbs and flows of living.
it's amazing to see how we mature through those experiences.

imagine your life is perfect, without any set backs.
i don't think you will see a need in life.
cause you have everything.
you don't have to earn it.
and on top of it, your life in earth doesn't do you good.
you will tend to go through every day mindless.
you having all the money in the world, having girls/guys going gaga over you, people look up upon you, flawless, etc.
and i bet you will still complain and whine.
human nature.

i love the fasting month,
it's a period of time when gaps are being mend.
able to spend time as a whole family, in spite the busy schedules.
a time when i learnt more about myself.
when i can improve on believing in myself.
and of course, alhamdulillah, the food has been great!
neighbours keep on bringing food over.

i love mama in. haha
oh btw, she's my aunt.
i'm gonna do the swiss roll cake again with her guide.
even though i did it last year with suliza,
i still have yet to pass the rolling procedure. haha.
and mama in's house was in a mess lar due to the two clumsy girls.
seriously, since the past two years, i'm addicted to that rainbow swiss roll cake.
as the name suggest; rainbow, the colours are really attracting and it just make me want more of it.
i've always been the one finishing it up.
i'm thinking about it now. yum yum. *drools*
*oops* i'm fasting.

yeah-ness, gonna get a new stick today!

had a good chat with my sis before dozing off.
i just love that moment.
those late night chit-chatting period.
when we just unwind ourselves in the dark.
recalling the shows we watched, cartoons we saw.
sang songs together, laughed our head off.
talked about families, our childhood and everything you can imagine.
but all topics are nc-16. haha.
i had a great time.

i found a reason to stay at home in the morning.
cause there is a comedy on channel 5.
every weekdays at 1100 hrs.
it's entitled, The Golden Girls.
trust me, you will have a good laugh.
i so am hooked on it.
try watching one episode, or maybe just a few minutes.

i miss hanging out with suliza.
we'll meet up one day to catch up.

i miss hanging out with shikin.
just take care pal.
i hope you're not stressing yourself.

i miss hanging out with sakeenah.
we will go out one day.
haha.

i miss hanging out with you.
i guess you know.

to you:
i go through every day with a smile. but only you, can make me smile smile.
keep on surprising me, boy. *cheeky smiles*
no words are able to describe how i feel about you.
only my heart knows.
loving you is an asset.