happy one year friendship!

exactly a year ago, i was kinda surprised to receive a message in my friendster account.
dated 30 march 2005, it was from you.
viewed your account and realised there's no harm becoming friends. thus i replied to your message.
become a 'pen-pal' via the net for a while. haha.
i have no idea why but i'm always excited to read and reply your next message.
maybe you can say that's the flirting period.
and i got a minor crush on you. *oops* i bet you didn't know that.

there's several times when i'm chatting with you through msn, my mom happened to be beside me and she gave me tips on how to chat 'effectively'.
it was funny on how my mom and i had to compromise with each other on how to ask you questions.

when you suggested to meet up, it scared me.
cause i don't know what you may think of me.
and i can never forget 050505, the day when we watch kingdom of heaven.
i was so embarrassed.
not because that i did something silly.
it was because we wore similar navy jacket.
as if we're a couple.
people were looking and giving us weird stares.
and you needed help choosing a brooch for your mothers' day gift. haha.
and i happened to notice something about *ehem*
i'll skip that.
truly, i enjoyed myself.

after several dates.
i was kinda messed up.
was confused with what i was feeling, how i was feeling and why i felt that way.
and i really appreciate with you being supportive.
especially 2 am in the morning, when you held me closed.
the first time ever i cried in front of a guy.
you understood and gave me time.

i did hinted.
i need help.
to go with my heart or my mind.
my family members and close friends did advised me.
but i was still lost.
i can't be unfair to either of them.

like what you said,
let the best man win.

260805, i've sort of made a decision and we decided to say goodbye to each other.
*ehem* in a harsh way.

within the 5 weeks of separation,
i missed you.
i thought i won't but i did.
weird but true.

and the way we got in touch back was way cute.
who would ever thought changing nickname in msn and kept changing the status from appear offline to online will bring us together again?
smart you. and smart me.

it's kinda freak me out to have a lot of things in common.
i mean both our grandma are chinese.
my grandma's surname is kim and his late grandma's was sim.
our family has a twin.
we are the first grandson/daughter from our maternal side.
and the list goes on and on.

i had to redo my decision due to some factors.
and yes,
you're the best man.
and you've won.

and i want you to stay as the best man forever.
i'm excited for us.
really.

the ring made me smile when i looked at it.
especially today,
i miss you so much!
i don't know why but i've been thinking about you.
i feel connected.

i was moved to tears when you asked me to listen to the song.
yes, indeed tonight i celebrate my love.
you have the power to make me feel special inside.
i love you.

happy 1 year of friendship sweetheart!

cheers.
sound familiar?