unsatisfied.

as we all know after watching a movie,
most of it have a happy ending.
and some maybe gruesome and all died in the end.

movies are good at stirring one's emotions.
i feel angry when the bad guy keeps on torturing the innocent.
i cried if there's a touching story like a walk to remember.
at times, i wish i'm one of the character in the movie.
cause it seems that she has everything.
happiness, laughter, money, the guy, etc.
also when the guy did something so romantic to the girl.
i so wish i'm the lucky girl!
we awed at romantic shows.

same goes for music.
it can lift or dampen our feelings.
whenever your sad, i think most probably you will listen to melancholic song and become more sober.
and tears starts gushing out.
songs that are fast beat makes you wanna move.

that's why they say the songs you listen to may reveal your true identity.

the topic of today's blogging is: imagine yourself being filmed since young.
how is our movie like.

that was why,
whenever i'm feeling low or unsatisfied with life or whatever.
i tried imagine placing myself in my movie.
and reflecting back all those precious moment.
i tell you, our brain is one great memory card.
seeing myself from another point of view.
cause at times you maybe selfish without your own conscience.

after those replaying back, i feel good.
if only people are able to see how my movie is.
if only people can see how my boyfriend treats me.
if only people know how i have to struggle through hardships.
if only....

all of us are actress and actors.
the world is our stage.
it's just how you want to run your show.
we have our freedom.

i'm lucky.
you're lucky.
everyone's lucky.

hearing your voice late at night end my day happily,
everytime.

thanks honey.
i can never be happier in my life.

you make an end to my normal mundane routine life.
to make it to an interesting one.
and i never regret choosing you.

i love you.
all the time.