independent

it's almost a month since i started school.
and things are a getting a little panicky now.
i just realised that i'm having a test/quiz this friday.
and there are plenty of deadlines to keep note of.
a sense of overwhelming fear strikes me.
i have need to be strong.

i woke up today hungry.
and now which three quarter of a day has pass, i'm still hungry.

what i look forward while having the monthly leakage, apart from the swollen eyes which are tired from the silly tears and the painful menstrual cramps is pampering myself.
i eat as much as i want, be a little lazy, and dress up without having to pray.
it only happens for a week though.

now now now,
i had a terrible cramp yesterday.
and when it comes,
the toilet seems to be like the best place to be in.
it just so soothing.
once i'm out from the toilet,
the pain is back.

then it strucks me,
how about child birth?
with hours of contractions.
i'm not too sure whether i can bear the pain.

so is it easier to be a man?
earn money for the family?
and to go along with their wives unpredictable mood swings?

i really sympathize with the ladies in this modern society.
not only we have to suffer monthly pains, most of us have to work, be it housework or jobs.
should we say we are more hardworking and more capable than the men?

no offence guys, but i think so.