quote of my own

the longer we are together, the clearer it gets that we're meant for each other. - nurul atirah

and yes,
i've changed my song.
it gave me a serenity whenever i listen to it.
i doubt most of you like it.

don't ask how was my sleep.
i'm still trying to get over it that i didn't have a good quality sleep.
i kept tossing and turning, eyes closed but my mind didn't switch off.
there were so many random things that was going through my mind.
especially about life and love.

have i live my life the way that god has planned out for me?
how long more will it takes till i become the person i am meant to be?
will i be a good wife?
will i even be a good role model to my kids?
am i a person worthy of god's love?
what can i do to be a better sister?
what is a soul?
why am i the person i am?

of course, these are questions with ambiguous answer.

like anyone else,
i need assurance, encouragement and support.
as much as you believe in yourself,
but there isn't anyone to be there for you,
you are nothing.

i shouldn't be worrying about all this question,
instead focus on the upcoming papers.
but no,
my mind is filled with unnecessary stuffs.

a friend has commented that i look thinner.
she thought that she was seeing an illusion
haha.
in fact,
i've lose weight for no whatever reason.
i've reached my targeted weight and now, the partner owe me a hundred bucks.
heh.

being beautiful is not only by the outlook.
one should have an inner glow that sees everyone as the person they are to be, not what they ought to be.
i believe if you have a beautiful soul,
it will show throughout your lifetime.
compare to a beautiful face/figure,
it will change.
nothing is permanent, except your soul.

excuse me for so many thoughts.
i am just in my philosophical mood.

in the thoughts,
why do you always appear?
is it because in my lifetime,
i never love someone as much as you?
or is it that i can never ever express how i really feel for you because no words can describe it?
or it's both?

when i'm with you,
it's blissful.