the birthday reflections.

i slept through my sunday,
i couldn't help it.
i was so tired.
even though the partner and i have a rough plan to visit an ice cream parlour together, we had to postpone it.
because it will be a rush date as he needs to be home by 7 to watch the man u's match.
sorry darl and thanks for your understanding.

i thought i wanted to hit the sack early today,
but i couldn't.
so here i am blogging away.

i was going through the pictures that were taken on sat and i can't help but to smile and laugh to myself.

at the moment,
no one complained about not being invited
but i have something to share it out
it's not that i wouldn't want to invite all of my friends,
i am a human and i wouldn't want unpleasant feelings to arouse in a happy occasion.
i want to celebrate with friends who knows the real me.
they don't judged me for being silly, idiotic, etc.
they accept me for the person i am.
i always make a point to make my friends smile and laugh.
i really like to see smiles on their faces accompanied by the sound of laughter.
it gives me a sense of happiness and achievement.

if i were to keep impressing people, i know i wouldn't enjoy myself.
who would?
it's as if you are putting a mask.
how fake.

even though i don't step in a club before, smoke, get drunk, am not rich, doesn't mean i don't have a life.
it's how people want their life to be.
how they want to run it.
i do not have a perfect life.
i have happy and troubled times,
the flow and ebb of life.
i have several arguments with the partner, it's not as if we are lovey dovey all the time.
but at the end of it,
we calm ourselves down and solve it together and making one another understand how we are feeling.

you may be unattractive,
but if you know how to capture people heart with your sincere moves,
you will have their support.

indeed friends are easy to make.
but sustaining a friendship takes a little effort.
i am lucky to have such friends who i can fall back on.
friends who believe in me.

same goes to family,
i have issues with my sister but by the end of the day,
we are still concern of one another.
i know i can count on my family.

i can never be more happier in my life.
without my friends and family,
i am nothing.
what is life without relationship with people?

and honey,
thank you for loving me.