focus and a little something about love

i need to focus,
badly.
especially on my studies.
=(

man,
april come by so quickly.
2008 seems to fly by.
whyyyyy?

and i've been really hungry for the past few days!
blame it on the pre menstrual syndrome.

now now,
saturday is dressing up day!
my yec committee will be attending a function at meritus mandarin.
we will need to be in formal attire.
gentlemen in shirt and tie,
while ladies in dress or gown.
sounds like fun!
and shikin is coming too!
yay!
=)

and sweetheart,
i date you on sunday?
or perhaps friday night out?
*winks*

the last few days,
i felt as if i'm a schoolgirl who just had her first crush.
that exciting feeling whenever the partner sms me unexpectedly,
the thinking of the partner all day long,
the wanting of being with him, spending time with him, pampering him.
the feeling is so intense that it makes me feel like i'm in dreamland, makes me feel really, really happy.
it seems that we understand each other much, much better.

i believe when you love someone,
you always want to provide the best treatment for your partner.
but if you fail to do so at some occasions,
you would feel miserable or guilty.
and that may affect your self esteem and your belief in yourself.
which subconsciously,
it will affect the way you treat your partner.
which at times,
it may erupt to arguments.
my point is,
some things are beyond your control
even though you want to impress your partner,
unforeseen circumstances might occur.
the one thing that can help to solve the problem is
to be understanding.

arguments and disagreements are normal.
because your partner is not you and you are not your the partner.
maybe that's one of the reason that you migh choose someone who is similar with you.
at least you have lesser arguments.
for both parties, try to explain why certain things made you feel this way.
and work on it.
definitely changes can't happen overnight.
you need to give each other ample time, a lot of patience and support.

i was about to end the blog's entry when the partner called me.
he needed me to send him to the hq due to some work.
and i did.
it may be quite embarrassing to say it here,
because people have the impression that guys always send girls home.
but i do send the partner home (only when we went out using my dad's car or he came over)
most of the time, it was him who send me home.

i mean in a relationship you need to give and take.
there's a balance.
if you keeping on giving,
you may end up tired and perhaps when you didn't get anything in return, you don't feel motivated.
whereas if you keep on taking but didn't give,
you have to becareful as there is a limit.
that is why,
when you have time,
reflect and analyze on your relationship.
and have a talk with your significant other.

one advice:
never compare the relationships between you and your friends.
as every one of each is unique.
if you compare,
you will never be satisfied and happy.
because you keep on worrying till you forget to appreciate and cherish the moments.

honey,
i am dead serious about you.
and
i am looking forward to growing old with you.
you are the best thing that ever happen to me.
loving you is a joy.