i am a good girl today.
=)
i even offered a person beside me in the bus biscuits.
hahahah!
i bought mini chipsmore and i planned to eat in the bus.
however while opening the packaging,
the person beside me was secretly looking at the chipsmore.
that was when i offered her.
"do you want some?"
i think she was embarrassed.
i doubt she have any psychotic people offering her biscuits in the bus.
she was lucky that my mood was super good today.
*grins*
as you can hear,
i changed my song.
this song brought me back to my sec 5 days.
happy, lively and that good feeling.
heard it from the japan's world cup.
the first time i saw the video clip on mtv,
i felt in love with it.
apart from being in a good mood and all,
i didn't really have a good night yesterday.
i fear whenever people have expectations on me.
it's just me.
if i failed to carry out that given role,
i feel like a failure.
if you are being molded to be a particular someone,
then you are not you.
of course you guys have heard of the maslow's hierarchy of needs (if not, go read about it).
at the most top is the self-actualization needs, "self-actualizing people are self-aware, concerned with personal growth, less concerned with the opinions of others, and interested fulfilling their potential"
(http://psychology.about.com/od/theoriesofpersonality/a/hierarchyneeds.htm)
you did that just to pleased people, to avoid much conflicts, at time you might benefit from it.
however if you're a criminal, please change, going around harming other people is a no-no.
i thank god that my family members let me have the freedom to be me.
the partner who was already asleep woke up just to console me on it.
and i understand that it's how you react to people reaction,
but at times,
it's just hard.
about 30 mins later,
i've received a message from him.
"honey, i will accept you for who you are and who you will be. nothing can bring us apart. i love you lots honey."
and that message is meaningful.
the subsequent message said that he will support and guide me.
and i really need that.
someone to believe in me and never gives up on me.
and he ended the messaging with,
"good night love"
and all those make me sleep peacefully.
honey,
thanks for attending to my needs.
you've been such a great partner that i wouldn't want to trade you with anyone else.
the connection we have complement one another.
and i know you need me like i need you.
indeed there's nothing that can brings us apart,
let's stay strong and keep the love alive.
if there is a word that is greater than love,
i'll use that to describe our love and my love for you.
thank you love.
i thank god for you,
all the time.
