i asked atiqah, the 3 year old cousin,
"do you want to take pictures?"
she grinned and nodded her head.
gosh,
looking through her old pictures,
i've realised
she has grown so much.
and she is a year older compared to our relationship.
so when she's 50 years old,
and if i'm still with the partner,
the both of us in our seventies,
our relationship will have gone through 49 years of joy and sadness.
she will be our gauge in our relationship.
presenting iklil nur atiqah!
she was chubby and cute!
lovable little girl!
this is her with her toothless grin!
when she is a little older.
she still does this when she is angry.
and now!
she initiated her own poses.
i just say "one, two, three"
and automatically she smiled and show her peace sign.
like what the partner said,
she is starting to lose her cuteness.
and i agree.
the partner too saw her growing up and even attended her 1st birthday party.
kids are just adorable!
i woke up crying this morning.
all because of a nightmare.
in the dream,
i cried.
and when i woke up,
i knew i was crying when there were tears in my eyes and i having irregular breathing.
i only cry in my dreams concerning my loved ones.
and in the dream,
i cried because i was afraid of losing the partner.
i cried until i have no energy to speak.
you understand those kind of cry that required you to take a lot of effort in breathing as it is irregular.
i had that cry in the nightmare.
i told him about the dream.
he replied: "oh no, don't be silly and don't worry honey"
haha.
sweetheart,
i can't control the dreams that i had and the ones that i'm having.
if i can,
i wouldn't have nightmares, instead pleasant dreams of you and me.
yesterday was fun!
in the end,
i ended up watching warlords with the partner.
and had pizza for supper.
i've never been a fan of pizza.
i always shun at the sight of pizza.
but lately,
i'm starting to like it.
and sweeheart,
you're the best lah!
i love you so so much!