i must say that i didn't have a peaceful sleep,
i kept waking up to adjust the pillow and my sleeping positions.
as much as i tried to sleep without waking up,
i can't.
maybe i slept way tooooooo much in the day.
i remember i had a dream,
but right now i've forgetten about it.
all i know i was awoken by birds.
yes,
crow sounding birds.
i was frozen in my bed when i heard them.
i was frightened by the loud noises they made.
i hope it was birds that i heard not some other unknown species.
my mind was filled with ghostly story, etc, etc.
when my phone alarm went off,
i was frantic thinking that the birds will heard it too and divert their attention to me.
that was how paranoid and scared i was.
luckily,
i had fatin beside me who was sleeping peacefully.
even though i am 21, it's countable on how many occasion that i slept alone.
most of the time that i slept alone would be in the day.
i called the partner who was already up to ensure that he is really up,
me: honey, i'm scared.
him: why honey?
me: because there are birds that are making loud noises which sound like crows and i hope they are really birds.
him: oh honey, why are you like me?
me: huh honey? what do you mean?
him: earlier when i woke up, i was scared also. i heard of the birds too and i was thinking of ghostly stuffs. alah honey, nothing lah. just don't think so much.
me: haha. alright honey.
so it was funny how the both of us experienced the same things when we woke up.
coincident or telepathy?
apart from this,
we too share the same fear.
oh wait,
i think it's phobia already.
the both of us have phobia of animals,
that includes cats.
whenever we are at a coffeeshop,
we would check our surroundings and warn the other if there's a cat approaching.
and the partner will stomp his leg to scare off the cat while i would sit cross legged on the chair.
the both of us just don't dare to touch anything furry.
it's like eeeeeeeeeeeee.....
we can just tremble.
i brought up a topic.
me: honey, what if our children loves animals?
him: i will make sure that they won't have any pets except fishes.
me: what if they are married and there are cats at their house?
him: just ask them to come over our house instead of us going to theirs.
haha!
we've planned.
recalling yesterday,
i just remember there was a phone call and i picked it up.
it was the partner's mom who asked for mom.
so they were on the phone chatting about grandma and the topic about the partner and i came up.
nothing important though.
just those catching up stuffs.
they would call one another up once a while and update one another.
i am grateful that they have a healthy relationship.
because i believe our families will make an impact on our marriage,
either in a good or bad way.
looking at it now,
it seems to be a good influence.
nothing beats the feeling to know that both parties love the both of us like their own.
syukur alhamdullilah.
his mom: nurul, so ada orang ikut you when you go for the surgery? (nurul, is there anyone who is accompanying you for the surgery?)
me: agaknya lah cik. (i think so cik)
his mom: kalau takde, pakcik boleh temankan. tak salah apa, bapa temankan anak. (if don't have, pakcik (refering to the partner dad) can accompany you. nothing's wrong if a father accompany the child)
me: haha. ye cik, nanti saya beritahu. (haha. yes cik, i'll let you know again.)
when the partner heard the conversation between me and his mom,
he was already giving me faces indicating 'you're lucky'.
yes,
it seems like my luck has changed eversince i met the partner.
like a star shining upon me.
and i am always grateful for that.
i am a happy and lucky girl.
and i am always thankful to the Almighty for that.
for giving me a chance to experience it.
honey,
it is always hard to be apart because you bring excitement to my life.
like it's extra fun and enjoyable to have you around.
i love you!
