call me silly.
instead of cracking my brain on the essay,
i'm thinking of the partner and blogging about him.
while i was out with him on sunday,
i had a chance to just look at the partner and stare at him while he was choosing the soccer boots,
and asked myself,
how do i developed feelings for him,
how do we come so far,
why do i love him,
those questions were racing in my mind.
but all of those questions were answered when i just stared at him.
when i looked at him,
happy feelings engulfed me.
i felt my heart smiling.
i took a long good look at him and i'm blessed.
how could i not love him?
right now,
while i was visualizing what i saw yesterday,
my eyes feels watery.
i really do love him.
what i feel is something indescribable but one thing for sure is that it's beautiful.
i really have to do this often,
because it made realised how much the partner has done, sacrifice and willing to go for me.
most importantly,
it made me realised how much the partner loves me.
i have to admit that i've been taking him for granted.
what's in my mind now is the thought of us when we were newly dating and he brought me together with his cousins to a circus.
where there was a clown and nice entertainment.
i think it was at the spot where the dhl balloon is now.
in the car,
his cousins and me was teasing him and telling one another jokes.
the partner and i were still shy back then.
when our eyes met one another,
we smiled.
it was funny and sweet recalling when we first started going out.
i like the way his eyes become small and the sound he made when he laughed.
i adore the way when he tried to make me smile when i'm down.
throughout the years i'm with him,
i learnt so much more about him.
sweetheart,
i have so many thanks to thank you.
but it is never enough.
because you make me experience something priceless in life.
and baby,
it's a joy loving you.