i think i should put in more effort when getting ready,
all because of a comment.
i saw a long lost friend 4 days ago,
and she commented that i looked like her future sister-in-law and i looked so mature.
she added that my voice has break.
honestly,
that pierced my heart.
i was hurt yet angry but i didn't retaliate.
i have no idea how to react.
it has been about 6 years that we last seen each other.
but to get that kind of comments was quite offensive.
i mean if you have nothing nice to say about the physical, you can always say about something else.
her comments got me thinking and i shared it with the partner.
and even think to myself,
what did the partner sees in me?
for the mature comment,
i get that a lot.
maybe it's my face shape that makes me look serious and that leads to mature-ness?
i know i am not those good looking girls who would turn heads with their outlook.
i have to say they really have so much time making themselves to look good.
i salute them.
maybe i am brought up in a way that character speaks more than the person's outlook,
and that might be a reason that i don't see a need to look pretty all the time,
also i don't feel comfortable getting looks from people.
i do not want to be noticed for my looks but for my character.
i don't want to be a model,
but a role model.
i constantly challenge myself to improve my character.
i am grateful with what the almighty has given to me.
but that comments i've got still lingers in my mind.
is it because that the world has emphasized on how beauty is important?
looking good is the way to go?
a cycle perhaps?
look good --> feel good?
i kept watching a video of me that was secretly recorded by the partner over and over again.
and i'm laughing to myself.
why?
it's because i was silly.
and i fall in love with myself.
maybe because i love someone who can make me laugh.
i want to live my life filled with laughter.
i love making people laugh,
especially my love ones,
because their laughter is priceless.
i shall head to bed laughing at my silliness rather than the comments that pull me down.
good night readers!
honey,
thank you for accepting me as a real person.
i can promise you laughter for the rest of your life.
i love you!
