today i began reading,
and i came across something beautiful that got me thinking.
it made feel peaceful and made me filled with aims.
finally, i realised what is my purpose on earth,
being on earth is just preparing me for life after death.
now i know why life is full of challenges.
i'll just have to take on it and improve on myself.
even though i can't be the perfect person i wanted myself to be,
all i know i will give of my best.
i know i can't be free from negative, unpleasant thought.
i'll still be experiencing jealousy, perhaps gossiping, still judge people, etc.
but being on earth makes us have total control over our emotions and actions.
i really wish that i would reach the stage where i don't need to control myself,
it has become automatic.
what do i mean by that?
by going through numerous controlling,
perhaps one day,
the controlling would become automatic,
which i don't need to refrain myself.
i'll just have to accept that everyone is different and keep in mind that everything comes from the almighty.
in short,
i want to cleanse my heart and soul.
heaven,
that's my ultimate aim.
it's only stories that i heard of,
but i'm sure it's beyond words to describe how magnificant it is.
then i was thinking,
of course in heaven you don't want bad people hanging around destroying people's life.
so one must be good, have control and submit to the almighty.
no wonder they say heaven is a paradise.
trust in the almighty.
now i see the light.
syukur alhamdullilah.
honey,
you're in my thoughts.
