super lemon gelato vs lime sherbet!
the winner is : well there's really no winner.
i like them both individually,
but it is better especially when it's a mixture of both.
i ate 4 scoops of sticky chewy chocolate,
and not forgetting the waffles!
the partner and i together with his parents had ice cream buffet.
the partner's parents did enjoyed the different choice of ice creams.
=)
and so did we.
happy moments for 11 september was when i've managed to study and read up the textbook on a module.
happy moments for 12 september was when i spent my whole day since noon till midnight with the partner.
to the library to search on materials for his essay, to get his stuff, fetch his parents, marina square, ice cream buffet and lastly, they went over my house.
how can i forget the exciting good news the partner shared with me.
he was smiling bashfully while bringing the piece of news across.
hahah!
he has a mission to do now.
happy moments for 13 september,
was when my not-so-little cousin, atiqah aka debob came over,
maybe because i miss her presence and her noisiness.
life hasn't been easy for me.
out of sudden, i realised how tough life really is.
and it's pretty nasty.
it's making me lose everything that i've got.
the way i'm looking at life now is so much different.
i think way too much,
too deep i should say.
till it's affecting my dreams.
i've been having nightmares,
not those ghostly kind but those which brings harm to me.
i am sure there's a subtle message in those dreams.
but what is the right interpretation?
i never stop pondering what's life is about.
why do god create me the way i am?
there must be a reason.
how can i help others out?
i've been down lately.
it's either because of pms or really there is something wrong with me.
or i need to restructure the way i look, perceive, think about things.
let me share something that i firmly believe in,
when making a decision,
you have 2 choices.
either to go with your heart or your mind.
no offence to anyone who disagree with me,
this is just my personal view.
at first glance,
normally most of us would follow our heart.
sometimes,
it's too hard to resist.
but if you place in more effort and use your brain (cognitive effort),
you would realise that it's not really worth it.
you have a brain to reason and knowing what is right and what is wrong,
you would make a decision that won't harm you.
you have your heart to feel for people, not to hurt people.
let me just tell you,
following your heart,
you get only short term benefits/rewards,
afterwhich it will fade away since you don't feel the same for a long period of time.
what is your explaination for follwing your heart?
is it a sound explaination?
following your heart is useful if you need to feel for another person.
how about going with your mind?
insyaAllah,
you won't regret your decision.
well,
i can't guarantee you 100% error free from mistakes but it's a lesser chance.
you reason out the pros and cons and you will think about how it's going to affect other factors.
when you have think about it,
i should say,
you have made a wise decision.
even when falling in love,
i was persuaded by my mind.
of course by following your heart,
there's passion between both of you.
but how long can it last?
yes,
they do say,
you need to have a 'feel' for the person too.
personally,
i have to agree to a very little extend.
i mean if the person wants to be with you,
wouldn't he go all out to win your heart?
so next time,
try using brain effort pertaining to major decisions.
like minor decisions like choosing what to wear,
maybe you can have a leeway to follow your heart,
mostly depends on your mood at that period of time.
you be your own judge to decide what is minor and major decisions.
to be honest,
years back,
i had a guy who i was 'madly in love with' because i followed my heart,
we never get into a relationship but we know we had the passion for one another. (i even wrote about how i feel for him in this blog.)
perhaps that makes me not to fancy the partner,
i don't see myself attracted to him.
however, i gave him chances to win my heart.
and eventually he did.
so i was at a crossroad.
the guy or the partner,
and as expected,
i chose the partner by my mind,
and i've learnt to love him.
because i believe he is someone who can take good care of me, who i can hold a conversation with when i'm old and who can guide me to the right path.
insyaAllah.
of course there are also many other factors included why i chose the partner,
87% of which is the reasoning from my mind.
something about the partner and i,
somehow we're like invisble opposite poles magnets that attracts.
there's that invisble bond which is hard to explain.
insyaAllah,
time will tell.