this entry is going to be ambiguous.
if only i knew,
things wouldn't be this way.
there's no one to be blamed,
but me.
i brought it upon myself.
and i have to learn to deal with it.
every actions will eventually lead to consequences.
and this is the consequences.
a facade maybe?
i am uncertain.
if only i knew,
i might/might not be happier.
a little too late to regret,
because time can't be rewind.
i just have to take in what is happening and pray for the best.
being human,
i can't foresee which path is a better choice.
all i can do is to make a decision and trust in the Almighty to guide me through.
and this is the path i choose to take.
can i even come close to my life which i imagined it to be?
it's not something ambitious.
it is just to have a life filled with wonderful memories,
to know that my life was worth living while i'm lying on my death bed.
to know that i've impacted people lives in a good, beneficial way.
to know and feel that i am loved for.
all i can do is to work hard and pray.
then see if it is my destiny.
