i am supposed to be stressed out,
but i am not feeling it yet.
perhaps soon.
things to do.
workshop to attend tomorrow in the east (an hour travelling time) from 9am to 5.30pm
readings to do, notes to revise for 3 back to back mid term exams.
a children's day event to coordinate.
emails to reply.
a pets carnival to plan.
raya outings.
project discussion.
oh god.
a day at each time.
maybe what stress me is the mid terms.
i haven't been revising much since my concentration hasn't been productive.
after a meet up last night,
i felt relieved.
i hope the other party felt it too.
and the meet up has been helping me to pick up,
to make me feel better.
i woke up composing a long email regarding the summary to help us out.
insyaAllah.
right now,
i have to swallow my pride and fight for what i want,
for i truly deserve it.
god,
help me out.
right at this moment,
my lower left back hurts.
and i can't walk and sit properly.
what did i do now?
lately,
my appetite has been good.
alhamdulillah.
i feel hungry most of the time.
and let's hope,
i can have my round cheeks back.
so that grandma won't nag about my weight!
let's move to a serious topic right now.
how about being afraid?
i'm sure everyone has something that they are afraid of in life.
like giving birth, going for an interview, getting hurt, growing old, etc.
honestly,
i am too comfortable being a student for 18 years that i am afraid to go to work.
i am afraid of going for job interviews, i am afraid of stepping into the working world.
cause it means that i'll be an adult and welcome in responsibilities.
i am afraid.
but i have no choice.
this is life,
the reality.
sometimes we have to overcome our fears in order to move forward.
we can't afford to stay too comfortable in a stage of our lives.
we have to constantly take up challenges and have faith that you can make it through.
we are never prepared of life's obstacles.
but i believe with the right approach,
eventually you will make it through.
insyaAllah.
the main point is that we can never grow younger,
grow up and do what you need to do.
