i've found myself the next best place to be in.
it's the school library.
yes, it's kinda slow to discover it after almost two and a half years in it.
it is a very conducive place to chill, do my essay and to sleep!
except at times it gets a little cold.
cold.
my body does not generate enough body heat to keep me warm so i had to bring 2 sweaters with me whenever i go to school.
i was even thinking of bringing gloves to school since my fingers would get numb but that's a little too much i guess.
currently my mind does not have any interesting topics to discuss since my mind is filled with 'things-to-be-done' lists.
ok i just think of one thing,
reading.
somehow, it helps me to keep my cool and stabilize myself.
the more i read, the more i ponder about it and the more it makes sense.
by reading relevant books,
i find peace and at times becomes optimistic.
i need to be reminded i guess.
so anyway,
i went to see the partner ran his race yesterday.
i think that was the first time i saw him ran a race and surprisingly, i got all excited for him.
and it was funny how he tried to fool me when he called me.
haha.
as i look outside of the window at where i am seated,
i can see flashes of orange lights,
and that reminds me of the sea.
i've always wanted to have a house that overlook the sea or a house that i can have access to the rooftop to see the stars.
i have no idea why but it makes me feel thankful when i see the sea and the stars.
i can just go staring at it for hours, soaking in the atmosphere.
when i spot stars at night,
automatically,
i smiled to myself.
i ought to go back to writing my essay.
