of dreams to pizza to avatar to floorball!

on monday,
while i was having my afternoon nap,
i remembered waking up having tears flowing profusely and having a phone call from the partner.
i had the saddest dream,
a nightmare perhaps.
thank goodness that it's just a dream however eventually it will come true,
it is just in a matter of time and how i accept it.
i dreamt of death.
not only one,
but two.
the partner's and my dad's.
i can't really recall how both of them died.
it was too overwhelming for me to take it that when i woke up i found myself sobbing.
2 of my best men,
the most important men in my life.
the dream makes me realised how much i have to cherish them.
it was a relief that it was just a dream.
but what happens when the day comes?
i doubt i'll have any regrets about not treating them better but it's the memories i had with them that make me weak,
because i know i can't make new memories with them.

back to reality,
i remembered the partner's phone call.
the partner was asking me whether i am interested to have pizza for dinner and ask my sisters along.
=)
without much hesistant,
of course i said yes.

my mom has been wanting to watch avatar even before the movie was shown.
and i know dad can't watch with her because he will definitely fall asleep as it is more than 2 hours.
he has the tendency to sleep even before the show is finished.
thus he rather watch dvds because he is able to control and continue the show to the part he dozed off.
even though i've watched avatar before,
i don't mind watching it again so i asked my mom.
she agrees.
initially it was just my mom and i.
after the partner knew that i will be watching avatar again,
he joined us.

and later that evening,
i was able to hold my floorball stick again.
it felt good even though it's been a long, long time!
since my mom and mama in wanted to exercise and the partner wanted to practice,
i held a floorball session for them.
of course there wouldn't be any fun with only the 4 of us,
we had my cousins and papa 2 to join us and it turned out to be a fun family bonding activity.
all of us including 5 year old atiqah had a good time laughing and sweating it out.
i had an enjoyable time playing floorball with the partner.

i'm grateful for how i am feeling.