at last, i have a proper time for me to sit down without rushing to update my blog.. i will like to wish all muslims around the world, selamat hari raya aidilfitri.. to all people who knows me, please forgive me if i have hurt you in any way.. *recalling* on thursday, being infuenced by the 'kiasuness' of a typical singaporean, i waited up till 0130hrs cause my results will be out on 12th november.. i don't really know why but i think i was kind of excited to get my marks as it is my first poly results.. the 'kiasuness' doesn't pay off as the server was down.. woke up at around 0930hrs and received a message by zaid saying that we can check our results.. quickly got up and switch on the laptop.. it was just one click away to see my results but i dare not.. the excited feeling was still there but now it was combined with a "what if" feelings.. i asked my sister to see it first.. i was hoping that she would just kept quiet not saying any word, but *shakes head* no, she didn't.. she said out the results.. i was screaming when she said "a".. haha.. went over to look at the results and i screamed with happiness.. even though i was saturated with happiness, there was still a feeling of regret.. "if only" questions came to filled my mind.. i was quite disappointed with myself cause i know i didn't put all my effort into revising.. i know i can do better.. but what was done can't be undone.. overall, i was quite pleased with it.. 3 a's and 3 b's..
at about 1145hrs, my sister and i send off my maid, kak ti to the airport.. the taxi driver really made us worried as he was saying the luggage was really heavy and told his story of how his daughter had to almost pay nearly $2,000+ for excess luggage.. the three of us kept quiet through the journey as i was composing the last words to her.. while weighing the luggage, we overheard that the excess of 1 kg it would cost $8.. thank god that she had only to pay $100+ for the excess weights unlike the taxi driver described to us, that was $2000+.. said to her my last words, we hugged and we cried before she went in.. both me and my sister felt heartbroken.. we felt lost for a moment but, we still had to continue with life.. i bought girlfriend hoping to ease my mind.. it does help a bit.. went to the viewing mall, sat there and talked to my sister for about 30 mins then head home.. i really had fun with my sister on the way home..
reached home, slept till 1830hrs and got myself ready as i need to go to the cc to help out in the kidsread programme.. after breaking fast, met shikin and walked to the cc.. pathetically, only 4 kids came.. even though it was only 4, the class was difficult to control.. the 2 boys were really noisy and running around while 1 of the girl was wandering in her own world.. only 1 girl was obedient.. went home and watched singapore idol results show.. daphne was out.. i'm still proud of her.. i don't think she expected this far.. called him before heading to bed.. worried for him.. dear, just try to endure.. this is part and parcel of life, nothing is perfect.. just remember, i love you! *hugs*
on 13 novembver, saturday, it was the last day of fasting and the eve of hari raya aidilfitri.. helped out my grandma and my mom.. my aunt's family came over and we break fast together.. crap with in and my sister.. felt sorry for him after chatting over the phone.. *hugs* it will get better dear, trust me..
on the 14 november, sunday, it was hari raya.. did some last minute touch up.. i mean the house.. haha.. and my aunt's family came.. for all i can remember was that my mom's twin was the first family to come over every year.. all the girls from my aunt's family and mine wore the same baju kurung.. the guys all black but my bro was the exception.. haha.. seek forgiveness from the elderly.. stayed at home while both of my sisters went to follow my aunt.. people came and me and my bro helped out to bring out the food and etc.. the first day of hari raya is the same as the past few year hari raya.. except that dot dot dot.. there can be some interesting one.. while entertaining my paternal cousins, i heard the doorbell being rung.. went out to look at who but my dad had answered it.. and suddenly, i saw that cousin of mine.. i think he did saw me but i quickly went inside my room and entertain the kids.. i was really frustrated with that cousin of mine and his family, especially his *toot,toot* mom.. his family went inside the room where my grandma was.. and my mom asked me to call her twin sister to come..
*summary* few months back, my mom had an argument with my uncle and his wife.. actually my mom was just giving suggestions and knowing my mom, her tone can be firm and people may have the wrong impression.. that *toot,toot* found out her son relationship with me and doesn't approve of it.. and she was calling me names.. because of all this things that happened, we had a war with them..
the door was left ajar when i walked past that room and at that moment, i saw my cousin got slapped near his mouth by that *toot,toot*.. seriously, it was really a great feeling.. i mean i was experincing a huge sense of relief feeling seeing he being slapped.. it's really a tight slap, it was a nice one.. a few minutes later, my aunt came over.. then the drama began.. i can never forget that fateful incident.. my uncle and cousin was out of the room when, the *toot,toot* was being locked inside by my aunt.. my uncle was punching and kicking the door till portion of it broke.. i think it was childish of him to act this way.. there were 4 families in my house excluding his.. thank god, all of the other 2 families are closed to us and have some sort of idea.. there were really a lot of children.. most of them ran to the kitchen as they got scared by my uncle's action.. in started to cry.. i wanted to cry but i hold back my tears.. i went to take my youngest cousin, the chubby baby, to my room.. and locked the door.. while the situation outside was really scary.. i can hear my mom, her twin sister and my uncle were shouting.. i tried my best not to hear and talked to the baby, diverting all my attetion to the baby.. i will get all stressed up when i see people fighting.. i hate it.. spent 25mins in the room till the situation outside has calm down.. went out and past the baby to someone else.. that *toot,toot* and her children were nowhere to be found.. and saw some men crowding at the balcony area.. i think my uncle just left.. the funny part was that my mom shouted "f**king a**hole" to him.. i was taken aback as that was the phrase i always use when i got pissed off and angry.. my mom does got influnced by me.. haha.. then calmed my grandma down..
my brother wasn't there when the incident happened.. told him and we had a sibling talk.. haha.. well, i enjoy talking with my brother when only he is in a good mood.. after some talking, we get to know each other better.. in, haziq and hazirah slept over as it was really late.. their parents and iklil went home.. before heading to bed, called him and we talked about the day we went through.. dear, i'm really glad that you're fine and you did enjoy yourself.. i miss you!
yesterday, can't wait for him to come over.. and after hours of "agonising" waiting.. he came.. gosh, you look hot and smart! love you! ate lunch together.. the four of us (me, him and both of my sisters) played scrabble, uno and monopoly.. i can see that my sisters really enjoy being with him.. that's a good sign.. we had a lot of laugh yesterday.. he stayed till 2030hrs and head to his aunt's house nearby.. the weird thing was that people who are related to me, some sort has connections to him.. does god trying to show something? i have no idea.. even my best friend, suliza don't have connections to me.. it's really weird.. suliza called when i was talking to him.. she was scared as she heard some knocking on her window.. haha.. asked her to call someone else.. after talking to him, called suliza and we kind of plan for our hari raya outing.. haha.. she's like a lullaby.. i always felt very sleepy when chatting with her.. haha.. sorry pal, will continue some other day.. dear, sorry i felt asleep and thanks for today, had tons of fun.. and again, you look hot and fantastic! i love you so much!
i can't wait to go out cause i will be able to wear my shoes! haha.. to reflect the past few days, i think god was really showing me some stuffs.. for example, why the moment my cousin got slapped i walked past? god, i really appreciate all those hardships and happiness you given me.. without hardships, i wouldn't know how it feels to be happy.. god bless all of you!
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