have a wonderful new year guys! i must say 2004 is a year where we must not take our loved ones for granted.. we can always learnt something from our past, that is why there's history.. it's something that we can realize more about ourselves.. every year, we must be thankful to god that we manage to get the year pass.. every day is an experiment for us.. there some reactions which turns out to be bad and some which turns out to be a good.. it's just you cope with it.. i must say that 2004 has been a challenging year for me.. relationships failed but thankfully the grades that i get for my o's were deserving.. year 2004 is a year that i've been hurt badly.. i learnt to trust myself and have faith in myself.. not only in me, but in god too.. HE is always there watching me making my own move, making me to become more independent.. even though HE is not there literally to guide me through, somehow i can feel his presence, giving me signs.. i realized that every single one of us is not satisfied.. think about it.. it's always hard for us to accept other's flaws.. you always try your best to improve on others.. while doing that, stop for a moment and think.. are you being fair.. by changing others, you are not letting them to be themselves.. by trying to change others, do you know how they feel in the process? do they feel hurt? do they like it? why not have a robots instead, those without feelings which you can make it perfect? it's really not easy for you to change.. you should just be grateful to those you loved.. no use changing them as rebel would be their first reactions.. just think if you want to change, it should be true from your heart.. you shouldn't change for others.. god gives you a brain, an organ which you can use to think for yourself.. i just hope that 2005 will be year of less nagging... i just hope they trust in me and know that i can take care of myself.. i'm just sick of the nagging and to have stuffs your way.. i need my own space, sorry that i couldn't be the person that they want me to be.. please, the only thing i ask from you is please accept me for who i am.. not the person you want me to be.. i know what i want to be and i will give in my best to be that person.. i believe no one loves to be a nobody.. nobody loves to be nag at, nobody loves doing thing they are supposed to do.. year 2004 is a year which i learnt about love.. a four letter word which had a big impact on me.. a word that can almost drives me crazy.. having someone to love you is just a great feeling, a feeling that you want to freeze it.. something that you wouldn't lose it.. but feelings do change.. *sigh* this is life.. nothing is perfect.. god, i'm just thankful that i'm able to experience it.. thanks to those who loved me.. hope you are just doing fine in life.. wish you great success in the years to come! 2004 is when i worked.. it's ain't easy to earn money.. you have to cope with customers, colleagues.. i just hope that i'll find a job that i love doing it.. something that i wouldn't complain too much.. i hope i'll have more to learn from 2005.. a year which i am able to be proud of myself.. i'll make sure i achieve something..
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