m00dy @nD 5+ufF5..

i apologize to those that had been victims of my mood swings these few days especially suliza, joanna, sakeenah, my sister and lots more.. i'm sorry. i seriously don't understand what i'm going through, give me time to search myself.. thanks for your understanding.. i've been irritated by everyone, by their actions and etc.. every little things seems to irk me.. it's like my head is full of stuffs that i can't think of.. i've been writing down things to be done, over and over again, hoping that i will ease my mind a little, but i was wrong.. some stuffs are still stuck on my mind.. it's like it's been etched, can't get rid of those stuffs..

school has been fine.. a routine where there are homeworks which are expected to be done.. had my ita (information technology applications) test today, well, can pass but can't get a distinction.. damn.
there's landscape design test next week and a presentation on our garden.. it's general questions about gardens *crossing my fingers* hopefully it's doable..
tomorrow there's oral communication, *smiles* time to talk, being able to talk in front of the class, having their attention and etc.. haha.. *grins evilly* it's a little different tomorrow, we're gonna have a debate.. cool! then there's sports and wellness followed ny floorball.. hope that i can play better.. trying my best to improve on it..
friday, there's hlm module prize presentation.. i heard it's only for 20 mins or something like that.. haha.. such a pity.. then will be heading off to suntec to choose storybooks for the kids in kidsREAD.. *grins* can't wait to see their faces! what a cheerful bunch of 4-5 year old kids.. at night, going to meet shikin for kidsREAD programme.. must start searching for new stickers to give them..
saturday, going to pasir ris with dearest suliza for mangrove transplanting/replanting organised by the green volunteers network.. time to get dirty and sweaty! haha.. before that going to bukit batok driving centre to register.. yay! i can't wait.. haha..

i was really stunned by what sakeenah and joanna had to say.. we were just hanging out, eating junk food when sakeenah speak her mind.. she said that ever since i'm alone, broke up with him, my dressing been slacky.. woah.. it's like i never put in time to choose the outfit for the next day.. maybe that's partially true.. geez.. need to update myself with the latest trend or something.. haha.. they said i've been moody.. yes, that's true.. thanks guys! thanks for speaking your mind.. *smiles* i never realize that i've changed.. haha..

i'm trying to make myself as busy as possible.. i'm trying my best to forget him.. i'm trying very hard to change the way i look at things, the way i think, the way i feel about stuffs.. i'm trying to feel more for others, placing myself in others positions..
god, help me to help myself.. here is my thought. this is my plead. god let your holy light shine on me. i wonder would you hear my prayers. i know i'm not worthy but i need your help. god shine your light, shine it this way, shining so i can see which way to take. my faith is in you to bring me through.