5h!++y...

*sighs* i'm seriously disappointed with myself. shit lar. not even one goal went in the net. what's up with me. i never felt this shitty before. it was really horrendous, worst than a newbie. i thought i was going to be okay (getting back to my usual standard) after some lousy, hopeless shots. but boy, i was so so wrong. scolding cum motivating myself, still didn't work.

maybe the equation will help me a little.
sick + floorball = pathetic.
sorry guys, it was meant and refering to me.

man, it was totally destructing to see me play this way. i can't afford to let this go on.

first up, i need to get well. i mean well, well. not as in ok well. i just hope i'll get back to my tip top condition by next week.
my blocked nose is bothering me. i can't be able to breathe through the nose while running. and i'm afraid by breathing through my mouth, the throat infection will somehow appear back.
aiyoyo. how lar?
i didn't know i can be this sick. this is what i call a *ehem* weakling.

and i didn't have a peaceful sleep last night due to my blocked nose. stay awaked most of the time and kept pushing my sister away from me.
i rubbed vicks on my nose. and oh mine, my nose was on 'fire' but still it didn't help to 'burn'. i still can't breathe.

i wish tonight will be much better than yesterday's. i hope i can sleep well and have a good night rest.

looking at how my health status stands right now, i think my sore throat is coming on it's way to terrorize me. terrible, terrible. i think i'm going to be sick all over again. i want to get well!

i miss being healthy.
i miss my good night sleep.

but i miss you the most. the whole day today, your face kept popping up in my mind. and seeing that, i never failed to smile.
.dnuora uoy ees ot epoh i*

+eRr!F!c...

i'm getting better every single day. for now, i'm having blocked nose and some coughing. throat ain't that pain anymore.

my weekends was bored. didn't have plans, basically, just slack at home. watched tv, played games.

friday, i was kinda frustrated with my phone. no idea what's with the reception. *sighs* we would have met. and to think about it again, things happened for a reason. so yeah, i mean dwelling doesn't gonna help as it's over. i mean i can't replay the scene. all i can do now is to make the best out of today and look forward to tomorrow.
but i was really hoping to see you. well, i can't turn back time.

today was an awesome day! i really never expected it to be this way. even though it's only like 2 hours spent with you. cherished every minute of it. *smiles* thanks for today. and i'm sorry that you're late. this is one of those memories that i can't possibly erase. do add in more. haha.

.niaga revo lla uoy revo yzarc m'i*
.uoy ssim i*

5!ck...

was on leave from blogging for a week due to test and futhermore i wasn't feeling that good, in short, i'm sick.

had 2 days mc starting from today. but am still heading back to school today for a test at 4. i hope i'm prepared for the paper. haha.

had plant biochemistry and physiology test on photosynthesis yesterday. it was ok, can pass. if i didn't pass, i really don't know what to say as i really did my revision. search online for stuffs regarding photosynthesis, taking down notes. basically, i put in effort. just hope to get a reasonable mark.

*winks* tuesday was a fun day. i enjoyed myself and i can't stop blushing. thank you. *smiles widely*

as usual, had kidsread last saturday and man, the kids are getting out of hand. they aren't scared of us anymore, they were playing while we were trying to explain something. what can i expect? kids are a bunch of mischievous people. thank god there's 3 weeks break from them. haha.

the week before, on friday watched fantastic 4 with suliza. and the show was worth it. really cool. and chris evans as johnny storm, the human torch, is really hot! he reminded me of tom cruise. was drooling over him. haha

i just want to go out. those on my list, get ready for a date. haha.

thanks for your concern, am really touched. don't worry too much, am getting better now. all i know is that i miss you.

+!reD...

a day with the kids at the botanic garden is really tiring. well, i'm not that energetic enough to go around entertaining those kids. too tired cause i don't think i had a good night sleep.
4 of my classmates are in this event managements module and they decided to take the kids from the childcare center to the botanic gardens. and they asked us to help out.
we willingly volunteered as we can't resist it when we heard children aging 3-6. and our tasks were quite simple. just bring the children around the botanic garden. 3 of my classmates and i took the playgroup category. those toddlers were so adorable. man, i think i were like them once. adorable. haha. if only i were able to see me then, now.


this is me. i think i was 20 months, around there.

overall, it was ok. children are just getting smarter. we need to watch out on how we answer them.

afterwhich headed for floorball meeting. my eyes were kinda closing. and in order to keep myself awake, i took out a paper and wrote down stuffs that are being said.

went home and watch tv. mom asked me to drive her as she wants to refill the household needs. so yeah. i drove her.

i'm just been delaying my assignments, projects and stuffs. aiyoyo. wake up nurul! there's no time left.

weeee....

*smiles* i just can't get enough of driving. i want more! haha. it's just so fun driving and taking control of the car. i love it!

having to drive a manual car for 4 months, it's a chore. having to clutch in, change gear, etc. but it was fun, switching gear, listening to the different engine sounds and blah, blah, blah.
to drive an automatic car is just simple and mostly you're able to concentrate on the road rather than to worry about the gears.
i don't regret learning the hard way, (taking up the manual car) as i know i'm killing two birds with one stone. knowledge is something that can't be replaced.

if only i have a car right now, i won't be here typing out away my thoughts, i would be somewhere driving.

drove both of my sisters to imm yesterday, without an adult. unless, you consider 18 is an adult. the main reason we head there because i just want to drive. haha. i had fun, singing-a-long and shouting with excitement to westlife songs. yes, i was crazy.
fetched my dad home.

everything is possible and achievable if you have faith in yourself and be optimistic. and not forgetting god who guides you along.

fReed0m...

*weeeeeee* *grinning widely* only god knows how happy i am! to attain that driving license within 6 months and to pass my btt, ftt and practical test on first try. finally, i'm able to drive on my own, i'm free from having people correcting my mistakes. man, i can't wait to drive around my dad's car legally. all thanks to god. syukur alhamdullilah.

so suliza, saturday our shopping spree? i'll drive. haha.
shikin, find a free day and we go somewhere.
you, one fine day, i'll drive you home. haha and perhaps a meal on me?

to the others that are not mention, don't be disappointed, i'll drive you all too. *winks*

thanks to those who remembered and wishes me good luck. i really appreciate your support, it really nice to know you all care. thanks again.

pR@yeR5 neeDed...

all this while, i've been giving my best. but today was just sucky and terrible. tomorrow is the judgement day. anything can happen tomorrow, it can be good or bad. all i need now is luck. god help me out, i hope my luck is pretty good tomorrow. i'm kinda excited yet frighten about it. *chants* i can do it. i can do it. i can do it.

scReWed...

*shakes head* i'm worried for my grades. this semester it seems like i'm not putting in my efforts. i don't know what i've been doing for the past 7 weeks in school. oh man, i seriously need to buck up. i'll be dead if this continues. i can't afford to disappoint myself. i told my parents about the 2 papers that i'm going to flung badly. and surprisingly, they don't nag at me. instead they are always there encouraging me, believing in me that i'm able to think for myself, having that trust in me. thanks mom, thanks dad. i hope my self-discipline will help me out here.

the test yesterday was doable but i wasn't able to score. well then, a pass will do.
during lecture, there was like a mini ceremony for those who did well for the modules last semester. i was stunned when my name was called out for the 3rd most outstanding performance in level 1 of the hlm course in the december semester. cause i seriously didn't expect that. i thought i'm getting for my oral communication, but no, got something 'bigger' instead. syukur alhamdulliah.

i got a treat from you. thanks for lunch. it should be me treating you.
to you: try to take things slowly at a time. stressing yourself too much won't bring any good will it?

i'm unable to attend training as i'm sick. i am sick. my throat is really sore and my nose is not functioning that well. if i were to attend for training, i won't be able to run as my breathing will be affected.
i went to the mss anuual general meeting. it was my first time attending such stuffs. it was ok, not bad. it was kinda sad to hear the president making his closing speech. i can see that he really meant it and it come sincerely. that touched me and almost brought me to tears.
it was funny when your friend thought that both of us are cousins. haha.

everything that happened, happened because every day is a learning process for us. experiences that we went through helps us to understand life much more better, makes us mature and wise. even though at times, when we felt that no one understands us, just remember god is always there. and when we're elated, we celebrate with our close ones, don't place god at one corner.

pL@5+eR5 needEd...

today paper was an uncommentable paper. *shrugs* i'm just hoping for a pass. what's done can't be undone.
hopefully tomorrow paper is much more 'nicer'. haha. hope i don't need to leave that much blanks as today.

had floorball training and it resulted me with 2 blisters on my two index fingers on both hands and blisters on my legs. what's up with the blisters? it's like my first time getting blisters on the fingers while playing floorball. i wonder whether my heart will get a blister too. perhaps if that were to happen, it wouldn't be ouch anymore, i'll just be numb and feelingless. [you're thinking too far nurul] maybe the slogan 'be prepared' is just being inculcate into me. then again, i may be wrong.

i think i should have like a tag hanged over my neck which says : on a highly sensitive mood.
joanna won't you agree? haha. by the way, thanks joanna. had fun with you and talked quite a couple of things huh? haha. more still to come.
but then again, maybe i'm just being too pessimistic. *sighs* it's typical human nature.

c@n'+ be b0+heRed...

argghhh! what's wrong with me? am i thinking too much? i think i never take a time to reflect about my life. just been too lost in a fantasy land that i didn't even know what i'm getting into. all i got to do now is to take everyday as a gift and try to ignore those unwanted troubles. i just can't be bothered.

suliza, i agree with what we chatted that day. what can i say? great minds think alike. we're feeling the same thing. just be strong and remember you can always count on me. thanks for hearing me whine. and yes, i can help with your morning call with a charge of 50 cents per call. haha. we'll have a date one day. i miss you.

shikin, i'm glad that you were thinking about me and i were thinking about you. that explains why we met up to eat. haha. i really had fun laughing and making a fool of myself. i felt so carefree. thanks for going along with my uncontrollable mood. i can't imagine if i were to be alone yesterday, i really need someone to lighten my mood. i knew i can count on you. thanks for hearing me over and over again.

swee+ne55

1st july was a friday and that date is something that i can hardly forget cause you made an impression on that day. *nods head* and i was really impressed. i didn't expect it to be that way. i was so wrong when i thought my friday was going to be a normal one. in fact, i felt special. it was a day when i was touched and moved by your actions that you almost brought me to tears; tears of joy. you were super duper nice and i was just speechless. the day kept rewinding in my mind. it started with the morning when the air molecules around you smell good with your cologne. and your fresh look woke me up from my sleepy mode. i like the way you dressed, it was really smart and you never fail to look good. your smiles and the way you look at me makes me feel so blessed.

thanks for lunch, it was great! *winks* robinson crusoe table was good. and yes, it has less distraction. hmm, maybe we should have a staring competition one day. are you up to it? *sticks out tongue* thanks for the initiative. throughout lunch, my heartbeat was pumping blood at a rapid speed and my fingers are icy cold. maybe i was just stunned by your actions. still can't get over it. it was just so sweet of you. *ehem* did you went to the library and borrow the book? cause if you did, the book is really a good guide. haha. you're a gentleman indeed.

departing is always hard. but am glad that you did call. it's just hard to keep still while talking on the phone with you.

didn't attend floorball training due to environment rangers camp. the objective of the camp is basically to know the other committee members much better. the camp was a 2 day, 1 night and it was ok. it was a more relax camp compared to other camps that i've attended. thank you organisers.

today, thought of going out and spending time with my family members but i got too tired and felt asleep instead.

to you: i just feel bad and i'm sorry if i ever make you feel uncomfortable. maybe i'm too tired and tend to think too much. thanks again for yesterday. *hugs* do take care and i miss you.

to shikin: cheer up pal, i understand how you felt. i'll be beside you all the way.

to suliza: i know i've been neglecting you. sorry, it's just that i've been busy with school and stuffs. we'll find a day to hang out together.