patience

i can't wait to grow up.

i'm starting to understand myself much better.
suddenly, i have this determination in me.
and i know this determination will be of a very good help.

the module i had today makes me think.
and i can sort of see myself in the future.
in 15 years time what do you see me as?
come on guys, tag.
thank you.
hee
i will be 20+15 =35.
by then, i hope to be married to a loving husband, have 3 kids and 1 more in the womb.
haha.
occupation?
i have a lot in mind.
a lot lot.

nurul atirah bte mahmuddin.
thou shalt never forget this name.
remember.

i enjoy watching ballroom dancing.
that elegance and poise is just magical.
right shikin?
haha.
watched take the lead.
storyline as expected.
the moves are nice.
it just want to make you get up and dance.
a good show.
it remind me of shall we dance.
recommended.

firewall was not bad.
kinda nice.
it's never easy if you're smart.

two great movies in may!
mission impossible III
and
the da vinci code
weeeeee!
sweetheart, keep it noted.
haha.

your charming face,
your smiles,
your voice,
your scent,
are all stuck in my mind.
it's you i'm thinking about.
every single time.
it's just you.

i'm so looking forward to the day when i'm able to see you every single day.
i love you.

time for bed, if not i'm not able to wake up at 0800hrs to watch amazing race.
hee.

i can't wait to grow up.

i miss you

happy earth day everyone!
first thing to help the nature: do not litter!
there's plenty more ways you can help.
like aisah mentioned, recycling.
it's not only for ourseleves to benefit.
it's for the future generations too.
would you want your great great grandchildren not being able to see the plants and animals that you have seen?
will there be anymore papers for them?

there's a number of activities happening today regarding to earth day.
the zoo is having a plant sale.
potted plants, air plants, orchids, gardening tools and materials at the singapore zoo entrance.
prices ranges from $2 - $15.
that is cheap.

for science center, there is various different activities.
it was in the papers.
and there's apollo 13 in the omni theatre.

to everyone, have a great weekend.

there's always fear.
fear is grown attached to us that never fail to make us worry.

we worry about lots of things.
the future.
the present.
examinations.
friends.
family.
relationships.
life.
school.
can we make it or not?
and the list is endless.

why do we worry?
why do we have to fear?

maybe it's due to expectation.
we wants things to go the way we wanted, once there's a hiccup, we will always remember that hiccup.
the hiccup that makes us fear.

i do have lots of fears.
overall, i'm a human.
what you fear is what i fear too.

the more informations you heard, you've seen.
made you fear even more.

how can we get over that fear within us?
can we ever do that?

i wonder as i wonder.

the point i'm getting is,
i fear of losing you.

even as i'm typing my thoughts down,
i'm missing you.

and class 95 doesn't help lah.
all the songs so lovely dovely.
like duh! nurul it's love songs.
making me missing you even more.
i wish you were by my side.

what i have for you is true.
i never feel so attached with anyone before.
i can see us in the future together raising a one big happy family.
without you, everything comes tumbling down.
cause you're my support darl.

see, there's already an expectation.
as the saying goes; we plan but god decide.

i'll keep telling myself that if we are fated with each other, we will.
only time will tell.

i love you.
i've said it a lot of time and i still mean it.

btw, the songs are really nice.
class 95 rocks.
right darl?
haha.

*grins*
what a way to end my day.
i always love when you called.
the sound of your voice makes my heart skip a beat.

i'll see you on sunday!
weeee.
*tick tock, tick tock*

andddd weeeeee!
it's raining.
i can have a good sleep.

great.

happy 19th birthday aishah!

i wish you all the success.
and take things at a time.
things always happened for a reason.
be it good or bad, you will learnt something.
congrats on having your licence once again!
weeee...
and i'll try be there when you need me.

it's been hectic.
everything seems to be pilling up.

i can't wait for school to start.
to finish up the upcoming semester as quickly as possible.
so attachment could start.
meaning after 6 months of it, it will be over for me!
*snap back to reality*
have patience.

the reason i'm able to be with you makes the past few days great.

especially on thursday night.
i felt super pampered having your mom to send me all the way up.
that's really sweet of her.
haha.
and of course the bowling was fun.
yeah we should have one big happy family bowling together.
yours and mine.

i'm proud of you darl.
and i'm proud to be yours.

happy birthday sis. happy birthday bro.

april 9th.
april 12th.

both dates dated the birthday of my lovely sister and brother.


happy 14th birthday syafiqah!
i know you had fun on your day.
cause you were smiling widely.
i'm glad to know you're happy.
i miss those late night chats, perhaps gossip.
hee.
work hard in achieving what you want.
i hope you like the treat.


happy 17th birthday afiq!
time really flies.
those memories we had when we were young were really fun and enjoyable.
i've always treasured them.
thanks for contributing.
those scoldings from mama in, those stupid lame games we played with in.
and remember the 'christmas' we had?
the one when we had powder as snow? it's pouring powder! haha.
and the whole room is filled with powder. every inch of the room.
hee.
balanced out study and play.
you're capable but you just don't know it.
those disagreements we had, it's just part and parcel of life.
we never failed to have miscommunication.
whatever it is, you're my brother.
just be nicer to me.
it won't harm.
haha.


i love you both.
do they look like me?
haha.

i'm not really that well well yet.
there's still signs of sickness.
throat is dry.
body aching.
tired easily.
aiyoyo.
i miss my healthy me.
please give it back to me.
it's never fun if you're not healthy.

i missed a lot of floorball trainings.
feel bad.
i'm looking forward to meet my lovely floorballers.
they are just super nice.

i realised that i'm always quiet in meetings.
be it floorball meetings, environmental rangers meetings, youth executive meetings.
i'm just quiet.
hmmm..
i'm a listener.
haha.

the trip to the old folks home on sunday was enjoyable.
haha.
they are just so cute and adorable.
so kids and old folks do have something in common.
if only i can pinch them.
haha.

school's starting in 2 weeks time.
i'm looking forward for the new exciting modules!
and furthermore, it's going to be my last year.
yay!

darl, i'll make sure it's worth your money.
haha.
maybe you should do a checklist for me.
and within that 5 years, i hope to accomplish those stuffs.
value for money.
it's never easy getting married huh?
wait, wrong.
it's easy to get married.
but it's hard to be a good wife.
nevertheless, i want to be that super good wife of yours.
you'll be surprise.

silence never means i'm bored.
cause i'm never bored being with you.
silence means that i'm lost for words on how i feel for you.
i just want to sit and stare at you.

thanks for making my dull boring day to a day filled with colours.
thank you mr policeman.
i love you oh so much.

knowing oneself.

life is always unpredictable isn't it?
but if it's meant to be, it will be meant to be.

everyone goes through different phases of life.
one life can never be the same as the other.
no one will ever go through the same route.
similar yes.
but same.
nah, i don't think so.

those challenges that each of us faced are lessons for us to learn from.
lessons about ourself.
we can know what we lacked of, what are our weaknesses and the strong points.
most people overlooked this and take challenges as bad luck.

if you really know about yourself,
you will come to a point when you want to know even more.
and that is when you want more challenges to see how well you can cope.
what a better person you have become.

i know this entry sounds nonsense and illogical.
it's as if i have nothing to blog about.
only those wise ones will be able to understand.
and it doesn't mean you're not wise if you don't understand the entry.
it's just mean that you need to take time off and think about yourself.
you need to be selfish so that you can help others.

the purpose of life never fail to amaze me.

don't blame it on luck.
instead, ask why more often.

i think i have a rough idea where to head after poly.
just hope i'm able to achieve that.

darl, it was good to hear your voice even though it was only 6 hours ago when we last met.
of course, there might be guys that catches my eyes.
blame it on human nature.
heh.
keep in mind that they only have my sight.
but only you, have my love.
the utmost love is only for you.

you and me.

*grins widely*
like finally! i'm able to see him.
my maid was shoo-ing me to go out early as i was hyper.
and due to that, i've been irritating her cause i'm so super excited to meet him.
ok, childish i know.
like kids who were rewarded with happy meal/ice cream because they have been well behaved. but i can't help it.
you always make me feel that way.
every single time.

watched v for vendetta.
the storyline was okay.
the show was okay.
it's about government and people.
torturing, blah, blah, blah.
overall, v for vendetta is okay.
i enjoyed it though.
unlike someone who tagged and said it's boring. =p

honey, what a way to indulge ourselves.
it made me sick of ice cream lah.
and finally!
i'm able to snap some pics of yours. =p
haha.
it seems that you're more comfortable with my family huh?
good good.

being with you is just so magical.

beneath those hand is the one i love.

how adorable honey.

mr policeman.

the ring suited you perfectly.



my heart is meant for you.
only you.