him

here i am at work blogging away.
from day to day i wanted to update my blog but i've been too tired when i reached home.

but i've been pleased being able to see him many many times.
=)

oh honey, your mom has a new daughter huh?
haha.
don't worry, you're still the one and only son.

i miss you honey.

even though we've been together for 9 months plus plus,
it seems that i still can't get enough of you.
i'm still so into you.
you should ask shikin, suliza or my sisters when i'm about to see you.
they will say i'm crazy.
my energy levels just shoot way up high!

when i was younger,
my friends used to say that if a girl eats an apple in front of the mirror at midnight, a witch will appear in the mirror.
and you're able to ask the witch who is your future husband.
anyone tried it before?
haha.

most of the girls i know want to know who is their future husband.
i'm included.
cause you may never know how your husband looks like, dress like, etc.
kinda curious lah.

i know and found mine.

while we are still friends, i have a feeling.
a feeling that me and you will end up together.
getting married to one another.
but i ignored that due to some reasons.
i didn't want to believe in that.
and now i want that fairy tale to come true.

that pictures of you when you're younger really makes me smile.
you make me proud.
how i wish i'm able to see you grow up.
i'm sure i'll have butterflies in my stomach when i see you.

remember the first time i accompany you to your collegues houses for raya?
and also to your friends' weddings?
haha.
thinking about it, it was funny, sweet, adorable.
we're not even a couple but looked and acted like one.
both were awkward with each other.
we didn't even touch each other.
was is because we're afraid that history will repeats itself?
for the record, i never went out with a gentleman for visiting and weddings.
you're the first.
honey, i didn't tell you this; during those times, i feel attached to you but i didn't dare to show it.
i'm hooked to you.
in short, i'm falling for you all over again.
all those time, i feel like a couple.
even asked myself, wouldn't it be marvellous if he's my boyfriend?
i can feel the love we have for one another.
yet, both are scared to take the risk.

those memories with you will never fade because it keeps rewinding in my mind.

our love will never fade.
i truly love you.

*ps, i do find you attractive.
in your own special way.
you're one dashing young man that i'll never stop loving.