future

since attachment, i realised the importance of weekends.
they are oh so nice and they gone oh so fast.
it's those time when you just waste time at home and wake up late.
and a time to spend with him.

i have about 11 more weekends till i say goodbye to where i am now.
and hello to where i'm heading to.
i know i'm gonna go overseas, take a break after i'm done with school, while waiting for graduation.
go somewhere to shop and enjoy the scenery.
to reward myself.
estya, you influenced me in these.

fatin did well in school and i'm treating her to the movies.
this evening.
the four of us.
me. him. her. and her.
yes, 3 hers and 1 him.
my sisters and i and him.
gonna have a blast celebrating her good job in getting first in class!

i never thought she would do well.
why?
because she didn't study much.
she was busy watching cartoons and drawing.
once she started studying, a few moment later, you will see her head on top of her open assessment books with her eyes closed.
i'm amazed at her.

at times, i wish my family is affluent.
where there are more than sufficient money.
i can spent and no one will ever nag.
i told my dad about it.
his views gave me more things to think about.
and i come to a conclusion.
i should be grateful with what i'm given.
which i am.
people are never satisfied.
they just want more, more and more.

when people asked what do i want to be.
i think twice before answering them.
i have this ambition to be a .................
but i don't dare saying it out.
cause i'm afraid i might not achieve it.
anyone wanna give a guess?
or what do you think i'm suitable for?

only time will tell.

counting down the minutes till i give you a wake up call,
counting down the minutes till i see you again.

i really miss you.