unsure.

my mood hasn't been a good one.
it's one of those days that i failed to see the bright side of life, no matter how hard i tried.
it's just pulling me down into a dark tunnel and there's things for you to grabbed on but you can't.
you just can't.
trust me, i did my best in assuring myself, but there's that tiny weenie part that spoils it.
like the saying goes: "one rotten apple spoils the whole barrel"


after 2 stressful days,
i decided to make today, a day that won't stop me from making myself smile.
i even laughed to myself when i tripped at the staircase.
it was a good laugh.
a laugh that makes me feel good.
being silly for oneself by oneself is fun.


my blog consists of feelings, thoughts and views.
while typing this out,
it stirs up feelings.
my eyes is just filled with tears, not long after, the tears flow.
at times, i just smile to myself.
this blog indeed helped me to express myself.


my colleagues at work treated me lunch at the restaurant, just 200m from the office.
it's vanilla pod.
it was my first time there.
and it was good.
had good food, had good company.



the breaded chicken i had.


a fish dish.


a cake for them.


them

i had to go down to national library as i need to do as-built drawings.
was given a pass that opens the door to the different gardens so that i could double check it.
cool.
nice place, nice scenery.

had breakfast with him before i head for work.
i knew you tried.
i could see.
thanks honey.
it was nice to see you.
yes, more breakfast to come with your wife.
i can't forget that last look on your face.

i'm frustrated with myself.
why couldn't i control my emotions?
why can't i be strong as i used to?
why?
just what's wrong with me?

my aim for tomorrow is to have a happy and fun day!
and i'll make sure i'll achieve it.

honey,
thank you.
you still make my day with those little things.
i love you.