feelings.

meeting up with joanne and suliza was really fun!
laughed and joked the whole evening.
secondary school days were indeed memorable.

and joanne asked me.
"nurul, are you sure he's the one?"
"the one that you are going to marry?"

haha.
what a question.
as a close friend,
i know she was concerned and wanted to make sure that i'll make a right decision.

it is a life changing experience once you get married.
you will be staying with your spouse for the rest of your life,
and have more responsibilities.

and seeing the trend now,
when married couples can't solve a problem,
most couples opt for divorce.
so what?
they got married because of lust?
not because of love?

love should be a beautiful thing shared between two souls.
that chemistry between the two of you.
staying devoted to one another, not looking elsewhere for other guys/girls.
both having that invisble contract to take the effort to keep the love alive, to rekindle the spark.
the light must forever be there.

when there is love, both parties will not have the intention to hurt the other.
be it,
abusing, cheating, lying or etc.
one thing that i can't stand is,
to know that you're significant other is cheating on you.
and they will come back to you saying,
"baby, i love you. that girl/boy was a mistake. i'm sorry"
i won't accept that or perhaps,
i won't forgive him.

i know to love is to forgive.
maybe i'm not that generous enough.
in the first place,
why do you do such stuffs if you know it will hurt your bf/gf?
you know what is right, and what's wrong.

once love is not fulfilled by one party,
the other party suffers,
until there's no more love to love.

i believe when there is love,
there is happiness.

both must give and receive equally.
if not,
it defeats the purpose of love.

so what is the answer i gave joanne?

it's yes!
he's the one i'm marrying.

honey,
you know i know that we both love each other so much.
i'm so grateful to have you in my life.
it's hard to explain what i'm feeling for you,
because whenever i tried,
my tears just flowed.
just like now.

i love you,
with every beat of my heart.