appeared.

happy halfacentury birthday dad!
may you always be happy with your family!

if you happened to watch berita at suria yesterday,
you might recognize a face.
well, 2 faces actually.

the partner and i attended a dialogue session on hota (human organ transplant act).
honestly,
it was of a help to clear some clarification about the organ transplant.






we had some turkey people over at our school for a 'performance'
it wasn't actually a perfomance,
it was a ritual called the sema.
there were people twirling around with music to accompany them.
i felt at ease watching the elegant sema.


i like their 'skirt' as it brought nice effect upon twirling.


all i want to do so badly now is to sleep.
=(
i'm having a 4 hour break.

a harsh day in school

i never felt really tired after school before until today.
it was those kind of tired that you just want to sleep once you get home!
it was not about having lots and lots of reading cum thinking to catch up on nor the stairs i have to climb every day.
it was all because of the stupid uncontrollable lecture theatre.
it was freezing in the class, everyone had their sweaters on and they kept rubbing their hands together.

i used up a huge amount of energy on keeping myself alive.
it can't get any worst because i didn't consume food.
no food = no energy.
i had my jacket on but it seems futile.
this was my first time having all my fingertip numb!
i can't feel what i'm touching.
then all the negative thoughts streaming through my mind.
will it be permament?
can i no longer feel anymore?
because i heard once the temperature hit certain degrees, your fingers drop off literally because the blood flow is clot.
i even had a silly idea to bring in gloves for class next time.
i was frighten that i kept looking at my fingers whether it's turning black.
i kept pinching each fingertip but of no help.
i wouldn't want to lose my sense of feel.
that was how cold it was.
normally if i get cold, only my pinky would get numb but today,
all.
how can i not be worried?

once i get home,
which took me an hour plus due to the congested traffic,
i ate!
that was how bad my energy was used up in keeping myself warm.

i washed up a little and head to bed.

and was awoken by a call from the partner.

that's how i am here blogging away.

once i'm done, i'll head back to sleep.

we are all programmed to stay alive.

the body systems would do anything to keep us breathing.
why is there a sense of fear if you see someone who is attacking you with a parang?
because you don't want to die.
anorexic don't die suddenly,
their body systems slowly stop working completely,
eg. their mensus would not come after months of starving, their hair is lifeless, etc.

i was touched by the partner.
he knows that i always look forward to hearing his voice at the end of the day to ease my mind.
he fell asleep yesterday,
but he still remembered to call me even though he was half conscious.
oh, how i love him!

sweetheart,
we're a couple who is not even 2, but the events we went through together shows a lot.
especially those bittersweet ones.
i'm sure you know which ones darl.
now, both of us are woking hard to mould a good future ahead.
i know how serious we are about each other.
let us stay in this honeymoon period forever.

good week

my sincere apologies to the loyal readers who keep coming to this page.
and there was no updates done.
everytime i wanted to update,
there seems to be something that hinders me.
be it school, dates, sleepiness, the main factor: laziness!
sorry!

whenever i wanted to do an entry,
i'll need at least an hour to sort out my thoughts.
i can't blog fast, i have no idea why.

my weekend was spent splendidly with the partner.
i mean it.
i truly enjoyed myself even though i'm going through cranky mood.
i told the partner beforehand as i'm afraid that i might hurt him unintentionally.

on saturday i already expected to stay at home the whole day because the partner had work to do.
i slacked till i was bored.
until a sms came from the partner.
he initiated a date about going to lido and have kfc and watch bourne.
wooo weeeee!
bourne ultimatum was good, real good.
even though i didn't watch the earlier 2 sequels,
i still can understand what was happening.
it was nice on how jason bourne carried out his plans.
espcially the one when he told instructions to a jounalist.
but seriously,
is there a quick thinker like jason bourne?
the character's brain is fantastic.
he was able to anticipate other people movements.
how cool is that?

for today,
we went to the library!
not to hang out but find books!
it wasn't me but it was the partner who wanted to visit the library to find books for his assignments.

he drove all the way to the national library instead of the normal community libraries.
he learnt something because i taught him.
he declared something and i'm glad it was with me.
head back to his house, fetched his parents and had a detour.
afterwhich sent his parents back and off we went for soccer.
we decided to explore the ben & jerry's outlet in dempsey road.
how did i know?
i read it from ida's blog.
and she was right about the ambiance!
it was soothing and relaxing.
i love it!
a good place to chill.
the partner and i snuggled on the sofa while having our ice cream.
such a lovely way to have ice cream.

got an updated timetable for school due to the tutorials.
tuesdays is gonna be long!
i'll be having class from 0800hrs (which the 96 bus queue would be super long every morning) and i'll end at 1800hrs!
10 hrs in school with 4 hours break.
i'll bring a vcd to watch in school.
seriously,
i don't mind a long day either on tuesday or monday.
because i know i won't be meeting the partner.
he will be having a long day in work then school.
while planning for my timetable, i kept in mind the days that i won't be seeing the partner, what time should i end so that perhaps i might have a date after school, etc.
i'm pleased with the results expect for the long breaks.

thursday,
finally i had my long awaited mushroom soup prepared by the partner!
i like the feel of our togetherness when we helped each other out in the kitchen.
i can't wait when we are married, i know he will help me out in our kitchen.
the 15 minutes drive was worth it!


the friday,
i had a date with shikin and nazierah.
we went to watch license to wed!
i was touched by the guy's action that tears were flowing off my eyes.
haha!
it was a loving movie.
those who love romantic comedies,
go watch it!
notice that mandy moore always do the face that she does.
her acting is still naive.
i can't imagine her acting in an action packed movies.
it just doesn't go with her.
no offence,
i like mandy moore ok?
especially the movie, a walk to remember.
her songs, crush, seventeen, etc.
did i mention i love hanging out with the girls?
i laugh till i can't laugh anymore.
we really understand each other sentiments.

i love the feeling of being in your arms,
all the time.
sweetheart,
thanks for making me happyhappy.
=)
looking forward to see you on wed!

weekend is here!

let us welcome the weekend!
weee....

=]

boring yet interesting talks.

beginning of the week,
the trio that consisted of estya, jeslyn and atirah attented a talk on the new body language psychology.
the moment i saw jeslyn,
i can't stop smiling!
a sense of happiness filled me.
then estya came.
i realised how much i miss them!
how can i ever forget those silly moments!
especially the one that we always did when it was 9 in the morning and we kept asking one another what should we have for lunch.
and those snacking in class especially, the fish snack.
and those exciting talks we had at bukit timah's kfc.
i miss my poly mates.
sakeenah. estya. jeslyn. nisrin. joanna. jolyn.
they are the ones who let me burp in front of them.
they are the ones who made my poly life enriching and fun.
i like our hlm design studio.
the only place where we can chit chat while doing our drawings.
my clan are not those who keep up with the lastest fashion nor bimbotic.
they are people who are blessed with different characteristics.
they have a heart full of love.
they are genuine.
i want us to last till eternity.
=)



jeslyn and estya too concentrated in the talk.
they didn't know i took this.

desserts soon girls!

the talk concentrated on body languages.
how speech and gestures are intertwined.

looking at the picture above,
what was the girls trying to convey?
haha.

the partner sent me home.
something went extremely wrong,
but he made it alright.
and i love him.

after school today,
met up with shikin to go for a dialogue session on the national's day rally.
it was in malay.
whenever i don't understand a word,
i asked my walking kamus beside me.
it might be boring at certain parts but then it gave me a deeper understanding on issues like cpf, aging population, etc.

shikin made a good point: "criticism makes wonders!"
yes it does.



we weren't bored or being vain,
we took it at the end,
to show that we are having a good time even in dialogue session.

the partner made me smile at the last point he was listing.
the sweetest!
happy molecules increases whenever i see you/hear your voice/talk to you.
i love you darl!
*hugs&tickles&kisses*

ice creamy sunday

i found a new hobby which i foresee it wouldn't last long.
that is :

picture editing!



*ps. the title were given by the partner

i find pleasure in experimenting with the tools, brushes, fonts, etc.
but it seems that my fickleness is a bother.
it was tough for me to choose which colour, which design and many, many more.

partner,
we should take more pictures so i can do photo compilation!

it has been such a cool and wet morning for the past few days.
due to that i've been waking up a little later than the usual.
i can't deny that i like the smell of rain.
that misty smell which helps me to relax.

so my first week in school has pass.
it was good.
after years of studying,
finally i realised what i really want to learn.
those modules that i'm taking up seems to fit perfectly.

1. government and politics of singapore
2. living with chemistry
3. the modernisation of the malays
4. reason and persuasion
5. introduction to psychology

with that,
i really hope it's a motivation for me to do well.
i'm sure that there are intellectuals in the class who always got distinctions for their modules.
i do get the pressure and at times,
it would make me feel miserable for not being smarter.
but then again,
i have to accept with the level of smartness that the almighty has given me.
as long, i give off my best,
i shall not worry.

for friends,
i do have some.
maybe about 10.
in time to come,
i'm sure the number will increase.

my sunday was spent with the partner.
we went to ikea to check out some measurements.
and we went to have desserts at vivocity.

it was a short date but it was filled with teasing and laughing!
i realised the partner and i love to make fun of one another.
that's something i look forward to.
i wouldn't want to envisage being serious with the partner all the time.
it would just help to create depress lines to my face.

being a loyal supporter of man united,
the partner was frustrated when they lost.
he decided to play online pool to lighten himself up.
i took the chance to play with him.
it doesn't matter that my ratings kept decreasing as long i enjoyed myself.



sweetheart,
don't ever stop teasing even though i say stop.
because at times, i still say things that i didn't mean.
i've known you for almost 3 years,
but it feels like a lifetime.
and i never want it to stop.

i know we have challenges to face,
but with our love, trust, sincerity and commitment to one another,
we will be rewarded.

i love you.

no late nights.

the partner and i had planned to watch a late night movie on friday.
we had confirmed the time and location, who's driving, whose car, etc.
i was at the verge to press ok to booking the tickets online but he stopped me.
i already knew that he had an online assigment to do together with his classmates.
he thought he could be done within an hour or so afterwhich he could spend it with his partner.
unfortunately,
what both of us didn't except was that the assignments took him a very, very, very long time.

so basically,
i was a little low.
as i was looking forward to spend time with the partner and suddenly *boom* no more.
it wasn't because i didn't get to watch the movie.
i was down because i didn't have the chance to see the partner.
i gave up hoping that i'm able to see him that night.
with that thought, it just pulled me down.

the partner called with something in mind.
well,
i sounded differently.
knowing that something was amiss,
the partner explained to me what he thought of doing.
i was simply moved but my tone remained uninterested.
the partner knew that i was still monotonous thus he would have to cancel the plans so i can go to sleep.
after putting down the phone,
of course i regretted!
argh!!

calmed myself and reflected what i should have had reply to his every sentences.

my phone rang again.
the partner said a sentence.

minutes later,
the partner arrived in front of door.
it was almost 2 in the morning.
he ate and we talked and i made myself clear.
*phew*
everything was back to normal.

initially, he had wanted to surprise me with his results in front of my face.
but i blew it with that uninterested tone.

i was glad that he still come over and meet his partner.
=)

he had attained a very good results.
and i'm simply proud of him again.

for saturday,
the partner was disappointed that his team didn't go far in a soccer tournament.
about 4pm,
the partner just remembered that he had a wedding to attend and he needs me to accompany him.
attended the function and he decided to laze around over at my house.
we played pool,
online that is.
i purposely asked him to bring his laptop along so that we could compete with each other.
ok, my ratings kept decreasing.
nevertheless, we had fun playing.

i shall be seeing him today!
wooooweeee...
and i know that we're gonna enjoy ourselves.

sweetheart,
thanks for the things you did.

tagged

woot.
i had them.

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:

#01 – unlimited amount of shopping vouchers!
#02 – air ticket to any part of europe.
#03 – a car.
#04 – to have a successful 21st birthday!
#05 – a house of my own.

Answer the following questions :

1. The person who tag you is?
dearest syahirah!

2. Your relationship with him/her is?
a childhood friend.

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
outgoing. pretty. sweet. amicable. very nice!

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
i can't remember but i'm sure she has done something nice and memorable.

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
i can't remember.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
in the first place, both of us are straight. unless i'm a guy, i will love her unconditionally.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
control her spendings! haha!

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
go bonkers!

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
misunderstanding.

10.The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
to wish her all the best in whatever thing she's doing!

11.Your overall impression of him/her is?
a friend who i can depend on.

12.How you think people around you will feel about you?
they feel that i'm too matured for my age.

13.The character you love of yourself are?
my determination.

14.On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
i'm fickle minded.

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
oprah winfrey.

16.Pass this quiz to 5 person.
it's alright, i'll skip it.
heh.


i love the guy who is beside me!

gymming.

the belo met up with her best friend and they went to the gym.



they workout and they chat.
both had fun and they complain too.







even we don't share the same interest,
we have a deep understanding between one another.
i treasure our moments together.
thanks bestfriend!

i hope to see soon!

weakness.

yesterday,
after an interesting lecture about the government,
had a simple date with the partner.

yes,
the partner and i had ice cream.
this time, at another different location.



the partner and his team received a trophy as they were champion for sepak takraw organised by his division.
and he was awarded with a special award for the best striker for the event.

congratulations sweetheart,
i knew you can do it.



i'm serious about you.

late dinner.

the partner and i had dinner at jb together with his parents.
good food and good company and good time and good night.

when the four of us are out together,
others might mistaken me and the partner as siblings.
and i can see girls trying to flirt with him.
or guys trying to flirt with me.

one thing they are missing out is that we are happily attached.

well,
that happens to everyone.
they already have a boyfriend or girlfriend,
but the way they see you,
you just know it,
their eyes are trying to tell you something.

i know it's natural for guys to scan around,
can't they just control them?
a glance is ok.
but keep looking at the girl is a big no-no!

for girls too,
they are happily in the arm of their boyfriend,
but the way they look at other guys,
ladies, i'm sure you understand what i mean.

maybe we all should go around wearing sunglasses to avoid any eye contact.
haha!

i have no problems at them looking.
just try to acknowledge his/her significant other.
after looking at the unavailable eye candy,
turn your head towards the significant other and give a polite smile.
perhaps for a sign of respect.
i tell you,
if someone were to smile at me after looking at my partner,
i will feel much better.
i won't feel invisible.
honestly,
i feel angry when they don't acknowledge me.

are you guys trying to get the message?

i can't stand it especially when their body language suggested that they are flirting with the partner.
when i see that happening,
i would look and smile at the partner who looked back at me alarmed,
not knowing that the girl is flirting with him.
it's already proven scienifically that females are much better at understanding people's actions.
if he notices,
he knows i'm looking at him.

"Women are said to be better at distinguishing between the fleeting expressions that cross our faces every day. According to Professor Simon Baron-Cohen at the Autism Research Centre, Cambridge University, this is because empathy comes naturally to women while men are wired to understand how things work.
On average women are empathisers. They are better at accurately guessing other people's emotions and responding appropriately.
Men are typically systemisers. That is they're better at investigating how a system works. They like to get deeply involved in activities such as car repair, computing or building up an extensive music collection."

adapted from http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/humanbody/

it's already 3 and i'm getting sleepy.

honey,
it's been extravagantly fanciful!
i know there is no one in this world who could love me like you do.
i love you forever.

tired.

i was in the middle of the lecture when i checked my phone.
a missed call from his mom.
send her a sms informing her that i was unable to pick up the phone.
she replied that the partner wanted to go jb and wanted me to find out why.
"........... Please ask him Y"
haha!
so automatically during break,
i called him.

me: you're going jb tonight huh?
him: how you know?
me: i got spy.
him: ohhhh... inside info lah ni.
me: you're going with who?
him: you lah.
me: huh? what? really?

ok.
i was surprised because
it was an unexpected date.
really is.

i am waiting for his call and see whether it's still on after his class.

i enjoyed listening to the lecturer regarding the psychology module.
by the time i had my chemistry lecture,
i was already yawning.
the lecture theatre was cold even though i was wearing a long sleeve blouse and a jacket.

i was really tired when i get home.

sweetheart,
i can't wait to tickle you!

first day of school.

and so the first day of school went on alright.
luckily, i didn't fall down or whatsoever.
but i received a stare by a guy.
from afar, he was already looking at me.
feeling uncomfortable, i looked at my watch hoping he would look somewhere else.
nooo...
when we walked nearer and almost pass each other,
he still looked at me and his expression started to change.
he sort of smiled and it seems like he wanted to utter something.
but i gave him a stony expression.
*phew*

the stairs i had to climb seems neverending.
by the time i reached the class,
i was prespiring profusely.
the class was lively and talking away.
it doesn't bother me that i was alone.
i shall have friends in time to come.

i slept once i got home.
and was interrupted because i have house visit at night.

yes, house visit.
it was my first time.
it wasn't that bad.
just go around the units, gave out pamphlet and explained to them about fire hazards things as i am inside the civil defence volunteer scheme.
i didn't volunteer, i was assigned.
haha.

an indian uncle who i know him from the grassroots organisation, treated me to dinner!
ahaha!
he's an uncle who i normally see whenever we have cc events.
an amiable guy.
thanks!

tomorrow is psychology lecture!
i am looking forward to that.
and i have a friend in that.
=)

i miss the partner.
he's in school and having discussion about his group assignment.
the call before we turn in to talk about our day's event is tranquilizing.
i am always looking forward to that.
i love you sweetheart.

simple sunday

i had a pretty simple sunday.

i had mcdonald's hotcakes and sausage mcmuffin with egg for breakfast.
and did the necessary stuffs over the net.
in the afternoon,
i got ready to go over the partner's house.
his place is 15 minutes drive,
but taking the public transport,
it took me 50 mins.

i love how he greeted me.
laughters and smiles were exchanged.
seconds later, the both of us were tickling one another,
and i am always the one who tried by all means to break free.
we continued with some silly teasing.
i love his giggle.
he sounded just like a child's.

visited his grandpa.
i'm glad he's doing alrite.
we seldom meet and whenever we meet,
his grandpa would questioned me to know me better.
the ever first time i drove his grandpa home,
he said a malay idiom,
something like he hope our relationship will be long.
=)
i hope so too grandpa.

we had the waffles and chocolate dip again.
yummy lah.
my card was promoted to the vip card.
wooo!

it was raining heavily when he send me home.
but that doesn't stop him to go out and take out an umbrella from the car's boot,
making sure that i wasn't wet.
thanks partner!

lectures begin on monday!
that is today.
yikes!
i'm kinda nervous yet excited to attend it.
let hope it goes well.

i don't really have a morning class.
most of my classes are in the afternoon.
and that's bad.
because normally, it is my napping time.
i'll think of something to keep me awake.

oh yes,
the fass' canteen has been renovated.
it has 2 levels.
the first level has 13 food stalls (only 2 edible stalls for me)
while the 2nd level,
there is burger king and 2 other restaurants.
burger king makes me a happy girl.
why?
i can have my sundae hershey's pie!
haha.

it's different with the partner.

i can't deny that i always love those talks regarding the future for us.
and we both of us have common goals about us.

the more time i spend with you.
the certain i am that you're mine.

post national day.

friday, a whole 5 hours was spent in the community club.
i helped out to put a letter inside the envelope, paste the stamp, peel off the envelope's seal.
it was a no brainer job.
had to finish 1500 of them.
i managed 600.
i was so relief once we're done.
because i know i can meet up with the partner!
it's an invitation letter to a biannual general meeting.
after much considerations,
i'm continuing my term in the upcoming nanyang's youth executive committee.
looking forward to work with the new committee.
=)


the partner sms me the plan for friday's night.
and i loved it!
ben & jerry's ice cream made me smile,
chocolate chip cookie dough.
and the partner surprised me with lemonade sherbet.
=)
then we had supper.
it was great that we had a very good time together
that the waiters kept looking at us.
maybe the both of us appeared like fools.
or perhaps they envied him
i was feeding the partner and attending to his needs.

rush hour 3 was hilarious!
not really worth though.

reached home at 2 and head straight to bed.
cause i'm meeting him again in a few hours.

we spent saturday morning at the theme park with the partner, his parents, my grandma, sister and cousins.
finally,
the partner dared to take some of the rides.
it was about to rain when we decided to leave and go to changi's beach.
sadly,
he had to go off for soccer.
it wasn't long until i see him again over at his house as
grandma accepted his parents' offered to stay a little while at their house.
seeing him again made me energize!

and now i'm missing the partner.

sweetheart,
yesterday's date was sweet!
i can see that you were trying to make me a happy lady.
well baby,
i'm one ecstatic lady with you around.

for today's,
thanks honey for overcoming some of your fears to accompany me on the rides.
seriously,
i had so much fun,
laughing and screaming with you.
i'm sure you felt what i felt.
it was unbelievable.

oh darling!
i love those things you do.
i know you love the way i love you.
i too, love the love you love me.

i wanna see you soon!

singapore's day.

happy 42nd national day, SINGAPORE!

"Singapore, our homeland
it's here that we belong
all of us united
one people marching on..."

i miss those polka dots school days singing at the top of my lungs to those patriotic songs with my close friends by my side.
that kind of moment made me realised that i love Singapore.

i have a few of my favourites.
where i belong.
home.
Singapore town.
and the classics like :
count on me Singapore,
one people, one nation, one Singapore
stand up for Singapore.

since primary school, we are to made to sing those songs every single year.
how can we not be familiar to them?
what i like about national day was that we get to watch a concert and get to go home earlier.
annnd ohhhhh how can i forget the souvenirs!
the school will always think of something useful for their students.
for eg, a file, highlighters, pens, etc.

now that i'm not singing the national anthem,
i miss it.
not forget the pledge taking.
oh yes,
there were 2 years when i lead the school in the pledge as i was the parade commander.
those were the days when i love giving commands to the juniors.

i am proud to have a pink identification card.
Singaporean.
i realised we as a Singaporeans, are taking our country for granted.
i'll list 2 examples.

firstly,
we have our public transport.
ok lah, maybe we had some bad experience waiting for the bus or maybe being stuck like sardines and what's worst, you can smell other's BodyOdour.
but think about it,
try taking other country's transportation.
the bus stop is not like a bus stop,
the waiting time is super long, (once you missed it, you must have a lot of patience to wait for the another)
the transportation is badly littered.

our buses have tvmobile.
how cool is that?
we tap our ezlink when boarding and alighting.

MRT: Most Reliable Transport (i got this term from perfect 10)
it will only be reliable when no one commit suicide.
if not, you will be stuck in the train and you just have to stay calm and get stared uncomfortably by the person sitting across you.

then BMW,
we all have BMW.
that is Bus Mrt Walk (i got it from my previous director)
haha.

i think our public transport are doing a fine job.
there are still some areas to be improve.
one eg,
the mrt and bus interchange's toilets.
i always get disgusted whenever i visit them.

and and and, please knock some sense to some reckless taxi drivers that safety first!

secondly,
Singapore is a green city.
please refrain from littering!
it would add an ugly sight to the environment.
be responsible and walk to the next nearest rubbish bin to throw your unused stuffs.
we are investing so much in rubbish bins so why litter?
i am not sorry for those who got caught from littering and had to do corrective work order.
if we are not taking care of Singapore's cleanliness,
the doctors will be very happy as business will be good for them.
people will prone to diseases.

think long term.
be grateful, please.

the things that Singaporeans love to do most:
- complaints
- queue
- being a 'k-po' (busybody)

everything doesn't go your way,
you complaint.

you see a line of people,
you join them because you just don't want to lose out.
free mah, line up lor.

we just can't help it being 'k-po'.
when there's an accident on the road,
drivers would just slow down just to see it.
don't deny it, you wouldn't want a glimpse of it?
a-ha! i caught you.
i admit, i'm also one of the 'k-po' driver.
like i said, i can't help it lah.

we are still a young nation.
we have more to look forward to.
just wait and see.
=)

i love Singapore!

i'm gonna celebrate the national day with my family members by watching the parade on tv and having belgium chocolate ice cream.
i won't be seeing the partner as he is working.

we ate the ice cream again!
this time we tried the different flavours.
dino milo, belgium chocolate, horlicks and cookies & cream.
we brought along my sisters.
they seemed to enjoy the ice cream and waffles.
*ps. horlicks is not nice.
haha.

the partner came over and i can't stop smiling
as i've been missing him terribly.
i even dream of him.
about something silly, nothing of erotic sort.
even though today,
he doesn't look that charming because he was tired and sweaty,
i still love to look at him.
he gives me a sense of peacefulness.
and the way he looked at me,
makes me feel blessed.

i came across a quiz.
which of these are most important to you?
1. career
2. education
3. marriage
4. sleep
5. friends
6. music

in fact all are important,
career = $
education = knowledge
marriage = commitment
sleep = rest
friends = enjoy
music = relax

but i had to choose 1.

i chose marriage.
why?
i see happiness in marriage.
the way people stay in love amazed me.
the feeling is overwhelming that it automatically makes me smile.
of course,
marriage couples are bound to have disagreements that will occur to arguments that may end up in fights.
it's how both of you settle and resolve it.
those unpleasant stuffs will make you realised how much you really love your partner.
i have faith in you.
i have faith in us.

thanks for loving me with all your heart.
i love you sweetheart,
with all of mine.

inaugural.

happy 3rd birthday iklil nur atiqah!
please remain the way you are.
you're one lucky kid.
i love you.
we love you.

atiqah and syafiqah. (compiled by syafiqah)


her.


a mini birthday celebration by my family before saturday's celebrations.


there was an inaugural ceremony for the freshman today.
they introduced the different deans and those high ranked people.
the topic that the nus president brought up was 'unknown unknowns'.
a very interesting speech that got my attention.
something motivational.

yes, grades do matter,
getting as many distinctions
but most importantly, it's life skills.
the ones that will help you in the future
and also bring you far.

passion.
do something that you like, you enjoy, you love.
you will then see the difference between working for money and working with passion.

it might not hit you instantly on what your passions are.
just one fine day, you will find it.
good luck!

i tell you,
honestly,
it was a shame to tell people that i'm a normal academic student.
the stigma people had against non express student.
yes,
people looked down on me.
during the process,
i doubt myself,
i don't think i could make it with people criticizing me.
syukur alhamdulillah,
i managed to get through those difficulties.

words have different impacts on us,
and tone does plays a part.
it can brings us happiness or anger.
all people need is support.
support them in doing the right thing.
not saying harsh words that would cause an ugly scar.

since then,
i learnt so much.
am still learning.

away from those bad memories,

i had an awful night.
my throat was sore.
my tummy was in pain.
i was cold and shivering.
i had to move about in finding the most comfortable position to sleep.
if only the partner was beside me taking care of me.
well, i shall wait in few more years.
who can resist pamperedness?

upon receiving a sweet sms from the partner,
it gave me a that push to attend the inaugural ceremony.
the partner made me realise so many wonderful things.
the partner gives me a sense of security with a relationship that i can trust.
both individuals giving their all in the relationship.

i love mr whopiggybackmefourstoriesup!
i love you all the time.
mushroom soup please.

icekimo-ing.

saturday.
a nice day to wake up late and laze around.
how i wish i can have a longer sleep.
but nooooo...
my saturday was a loooonnnnnggggg one.
had a national day's observance over at a neighbourhood hardcourt.
i had trouble waking up because i have to be there at 0730hrs.

the ceremony went on well.
the kids were the ones who waved their flags enthusiastically.



and i was the one who was so on singing the previous national day songs.
haha.

afterwhich, attended the partner's colleague wedding,
ok,
i sort of have a vision of how my wedding,
i think.
i can't confirm it yet due to my fickle minded-ness.

after that, attended atiqah's birthday celebration.
the little girl will be three come 6th august.
it was a joyful event with everyone enjoying themselves.
the partner's family was invited.
and it was fun lah.
pictures to be upload when i've gotten them.

they wished to stay longer but
his parents had to attend a dinner while the two of us left the birthday celebration to have dessert!
a new place that we checked out.
all the ice cream are hand made.

the nutella and wild strawberry.


he loves to pose.
oh no wait, i asked him to pose.
did i?


the other was vanilla and cookies & chocolate




wooooo...
it's nice!
they sell their ice cream in a tub too.

sunday morning,
i was awoken by a sms.
i was to get ready as they were fetching me.
the partner, his parents and i went to the cemetery.

the cemetery is a good place to reflect about anything.
the world, people, you.
it too may make you realised something.

there might be people who are enjoying their life too much that they tend to forget about death.
well, it's their life anyway.

went banquet-ing for lunch.
had shower over at his house
and the four of us continue ikea-ing, queensway-ing and dinner-ing at adam road-y.
i reached home before 9 tonight.
and i'm too tired and sleepy.
but i can't turn in yet,
had to fetch grandma from clementi.

now that all is settled,
i'll be going to sleep soon.

saturday, sunday
was a long day with the partner.
i like.

sweetheart,
why is it that it seems right to be with you?

sucess!

being a kiasu student,
i kept signing in and out from the bidding sessions and even kept a hourly record of what's the amount of people bidding for it, the maximun and minimum points.

after taking calculative risks at the last minute,
i managed to get the modules that i bid for.
psychology, philosophy and malay studies.
woo hoo!

ok, i don't really want to take malay studies,
initially, i wanted southeast asian studies.
looking at the number of bidders,
i doubt i can get it.
so that explains why malay studies.

i am really excited on what they will be offering me.
=)
especially psychology.
it is just my interest to observe and study people.
how they think and why they reacted that way.

if you ask me to take up business,
i don't think i can survive there.
i'll drowned with marketing, finance, etc.
all i know,
no profit = fail business.
idiot-proof.

it's amazing how god created billions of people who are packaged with an individual unique taste.
it gives us choices.
if not, everyone will be doing the same thing.

something random below.
the only person you can control is yourself.
you can't control his, hers, theirs.
only yours.
maybe you can control your children's life perhaps when they are young
because when they get older, i'm sure they will argue that they want their own life.
all we can do is to give them umpteen advices.
but the decision they is theirs.
so i learnt something.
let them be.
i believe the kids growing up process is the most crucial time.
how you portray as a role model to them,
instilling them with good ethical values.

at times,
i do sympathize those kids who were brought up by some irresponsible parents.
it saddens me when i think of their future.
i really hope and wish,
some way or another,
the parents change their attitudes towards life and
the kids will then be able to realise the importance of their existence.

it's already known that parents not spending time with the kids will affect the children's behaviour.
but yet again,
they are not doing anything much until the kid is beyond control,
sadly, that is already too late.

be responsible.

ok, away from it.

tattoo represents something permanent that is inked on one's body surface.
i heard it's painful like a burning sensation.
i have a tattoo.
it marked the partner's name.
where is it?
on my heart.

your love is magical.

bidding is tough!

i have to bid for my modules.
and it doesn't look good.

we have 600 points to bid for 3 modules.
mathematically, it's 200 per module.
but some kids bidded 596 points for the psychology module, leaving 4 points for his/her other 2 modules.

just wait and see.
i'll take my actions tomorrow.

i'm hungry for knowledge now.
too long of processing nothing new.
but when i have too much,
i'll get stress.

so miss shikin is sick now,
due to a viral infection.
i can imagine how weak she is feeling now.
with her body aching and she's been having a bad headache.
please get well soon sweetie!

i've passed the qet(qualifying english test) that i had to take.
the ones about human organ donations.
didn't do that well to get exempted for a module.
ok lah, i wasn't that bothered by it.
because i didn't take general paper, no experience in writing proper english since sec 5.
i'm happy with the pass though if not, i have to take 2 modules to meet the university's standard.
now i just need to take 1.
now i have a pocket dictionary in my bag.

i think i must change my lifestyle somehow or another to be more productive.
3 years will soon pass.
and i hope i'm able to do honours which will take up another year.
and i'm excited after i'm done with school,
to know the plans for us.

i watched my recorded gilmore girls just now.
oh man, it's getting interesting when jess came back to see rory.
i love the new jess.
he look really good with such hair.

the partner is still in his office now.
i'm sure he's tuning in to class 95.
sweetheart,
thanks for an enjoyable simple meet yesterday.
it was a fun feeling to see you again!
you're my remedy.

strict-y

i woke up and saw fatin doing wordsearch.
it was already 8.05am.
puzzled, i asked her why she didn't attend school.

she didn't want to answer.
after numerous questioning,
she replied that she had lost a page of her maths' worksheet
and she is afraid that her teacher might punish her.

poor fatin.
i went ballistic and started nagging at her.
i think i yelled at her.
i did helped her search for the paper but it was futile.
it was nowhere to be found.

i asked her to get changed to her school uniform and go to school.
she hesistant.
by then it was 8.35am.
she already miss one period of mathematics.
i wrote a letter to explain why she was late.

after calming myself down,
i realised i was tough on her.
but then again,
as an elder sister i need to discipline her.
i can't afford her to just skip school just for a piece of paper,
as it will become a habit next time.
just for the paper,
her whole day of knowledge is wasted.

when i got back,
i asked her how it went.
she got away with punishment and teacher said "silly girl"
maybe she saw how red and watery my sister's eyes were.

i felt so tired after attending a day of orientation talks.
i don't want to know how is it when school starts.

i woke up receiving a lovely sms from the partner.
the ones that i kept reading it over and over again.
thank you sweetheart.
i know i'm in for a good future with you.