windy!

brrrrgggghhh....

it is such a cooling and windy day.

the temperature is from 21 degrees till 26 degrees

it's such a nice cooling temperature.

i'm sure i'm gonna have a good night sleep.

and the wind is strong.

i can hear the 'wooooooooooo....' sound in the office.

the sound that i was scared of when i was a little girl.

thought it made by a ghost.

wwwooooooooooooooooooo...

until i realised it only happened when the window is closed.

haha.

it reminded me of china.

the first time i step out of their airport, it was so cold!

you can imagine how many layers of clothes i had to put on.

there were once when the temperature hits 3 degrees, late at night.

it was terrible.

the hotel doesn't have an aircon instead it had a heater.

was it why people don't shower?

because it's cold and you don't sweat?

haha.

no offence please.

just wondering.

didn't managed to fly a kite last saturday.

now will be a perfect weather to fly it.

but it will be hard to control it due to the strong wind.

on sat, it was drizzling/raining, futhermore we need to be heading to the national stadium.

came there an hour and a half earlier.

still, the traffic was slow.

and we regretted parking at the national stadium.

it took us an hour to get out from it!

simply frustrating!

it was an exciting game!

you can feel your heart skipped a beat.

and poor butt of mine, enduring 4 hours plus plus of sitting.

the not so filled stadium.

but afterwhich, it was packed with red shirts.

singapore lions doing their warm up

he enjoying his keropok away.

3/4 faced me.

his parents didn't want to take any pictures that day.

haha.

we're not going for the game this wednesday.

i've got an invitation!

to go over his house to watch it on tv and have it with kentucty fried chicken!

haha.

sure on lah honey!

and there's you to disturb when you are concentrating on the game.

haha.

i was really tired after work today and that short nap keep me energize.

i love those quality naps,

when you wake up feeling fresh and energize!

head to vivo on sunday with his parents.

someone purposely walked and walked to get that shirt.

the sentence above doesnt make sense but it does to him.

you know i know sweetheart.

such a meanie but it was worth it.

8 more days and counting down.

tick tock, tick tock...

after much considerations,

i am not going to continue to help out till i graduate.

basically gonna 'slack' at home.

i have other things to settle.

my personal goals.

important goals.

haha.

and i realised you're turning 24 this year, which i'm turning 21 in 11 months.

i think january has pass so fast!

feb is a few days away

thanks honey,

for everything,

especially your hug and the kiss on my forehead.

i love it everytime you do it.

may we last till eternity.

you and me together forever through the good and bad times.

there is no one else but you that i want to spend my whole life with.

my soulmate.

i simply adore you sweetheart.

double happiness

being able to see him brings me joy!
watch babel together.
a nice movie that provokes different emotions.
anger, sadness, happiness, etc.
different storylines that were tied up together due to an object.
it's like those once in awhile kind of movie you will want to watch.

while waiting for him, went to the library.
came across a few interesting non fiction books.
being a practical person, i suppose that was why i prefer non fiction to fiction.
and fantasy is not my liking.

walking confidently, there he is.
the sight of him makes me smile,
accompanied by a particular feeling that overwhelmed me.
whatever it is, i enjoyed it.
even though he was dressed smartly, i still see him as a boy that i can't stop showering my love to.

and honey, history is coming back to me.
i'm recalling the first time we met up at the same particular library.

another thing that made my night was.....
he offered me to drive for a short distance to park...
in a manual car!
i really miss driving it that i dreamt twice about driving a manual car.
like you've been yearning badly for a thing and you get it!
i was just overjoyed!
i do drive,
but in an auto car,
i miss the manual.
was satisfied that i didn't panic or forget to drive it.
i miss it.

it's raining again here in mandai.
aiyoo...

hello weekends!

sweetheart, i love you.
i just do.

i can sense freedom!

i had a bad start to my day even though i'm reporting later at work.
everything just didn't go right.
in the end had to hail a cab to go for a meeting and wasted $$$.
my director who's out of town had appointed me to attend.
it was my first time and i feel out of place.
it wasn't that bad.
well, a guy thought that i'm a filipino.

do i look mixed?
some don't even know i'm a malay.
some even thought that i'm not from singapore.
aiyoyo..
i'm a pure singaporean.
not indonesian.
not filipino.
the last thing i want to hear is 'you look like a maid'
hahaha.
a sophisticated maid can.
haha.

11 more working days.
hey wait, i still have 1 day to take off.
10 more working days!
yippeeeee!!!

they would like me to continue.
but i doubt so.
i'm not ready to commit to work yet.
because once a wise teacher told me,
"when you are young, go on studying, i don't advice you to work.
what for?
because when you're old, you will spend your whole life working."

yeah, it's so true.
why work now?
well, maybe because of the money and experience.
but... but.... but...
i'll skip that.
i would like to be free.
have a good well break after 3 years in poly.

and start afresh.

i'm in need to get a new specs.
it's in terrible state.
so ma, it's on you right?
or is it pa?
haha.

after my attachments, i'll be spending my time with friends.
catching up with things.
it will be fun!

and if i'm so free, maybe i should start planning for my 21st birthday.
haha.

well readers, have a good thursday!
one more day to the weekends!

i've already plan my sat.
- take lovely cupcakes
- kite flying with my sweetie
- catch the match at national stadium with his parents
- supper

woohoo!
i can't wait....

i miss you.

end of floorball, him

i'm so looking forward to go home today!
because it's been a looooong time since i went home straight after attachment.
there's always a detour,
most of the time to school.
i hope they're still airing malcolm in the middle on star world
so i can enjoy a good laugh.

floorball ivp has ended for us.
we did what we did.
there's no rewinding.
nevertheless, i'm satisfied with my team.

after a long debriefing yesterday,
i just happened to turn my head towards my left.
and from afar, i saw a very familiar figure in a smart attire.
and i can't stop smiling because he looked oh, so smart.
it's him!
he was on the phone trying to get me.
i was indeed surprised and felt over the moon.

we had a good dinner over at my house with grandma's cooking.
chilli crab, prawn and sambal goreng.
i love eating home cooked food with him.
i'm sure we're gonna have more of that sessions at home, our home.
haha.
it's amazing to see how he pays no attention to those who are talking to him when he's too concentrated watching the tv.
well, well....
that's the guy i love.

he makes my night,
my day,
and my morning.
thanks to the guy who constantly makes my day.

i still read his handmade birthday card,
and it never fails to make me smile and touched at the same time.
it may not look like those in the shops,
nicely printed, nice smell, etc.
his card,
that include a drawing of us together in the future.
it's the most beautiful card ever.
the sincere words that moved me to tears.
it's simply priceless.
thanks to the guy who loves me.

at times, he would just surprise me with a tub of ben & jerry's ice cream and his actions.
i'm grateful to have him in my life.

long ago,
after dating a few months, i gave him up.
due to some complicated circumstances.
we stop contacting.
the only way we know how each other are doing is by msn messenger.
still, we didn't approach one another.

until one fateful day,
he hinted with his nickname.
and i'm glad i was online to read it.
thanks to the guy who never gave up on me.

to the above guy mentioned,
i love you,
till the end of my life.

*the way you dress, turns me on

freedom for now?

busy, busy, busy.
my week has been such a tiring one.

luckily for me, i have a nice decent break today!
stayed the whole day at home anddddd...
the best thing, it rained.

finally!
i'm done with my iap report.
one major thing left is the presentation and to maintain my standard at the company.
i'm working very hard to get a very decent grade.

my days in mandai are numbered.
should i still continue to help them out for a little few months?
she made it sounds so interesting, even the word travelling came out.
how can i not get hooked?
i really need to consider it.
when people trust you, there will be one thing that keep increasing
that is....
responsibilities.
as the dates come nearer, the more tasked i had to do.
blessing?
haha.

i'm truly blessed to have him and his parents.
i feel so pampered whenever i'm over at his house.
his mom never fails to get me a glass of water and his dad, always cut an apple for me.
how lucky can i get?
those talks i had with his mom always makes me laugh.
there's that special connection.
i'm so comfortable with them.
and they are really concern about me, just like my parents.

this week made me realised the importance of my family.
the support they have been giving me.
the constant naggings that i refused to listen because i know i'm at fault.
why do they make my life hard at times?
one word,
love.
they wouldn't want me to get hurt.
i must admit that at times, i take them for granted.
i failed to put myself in their shoes.
human nature perhaps?

my boyfriend.
a guy that i have soooo much to talk about.
being in love is just not only about those romantic things you did for one another.
it's how the both of you communicate and adapt to each others' needs.
and you always want the best for one another.
it may not be smooth sailing at the beginning.
but in time to come, you will know it's worth it.
i never felt love this good before.
the feelings i have for my significant other is unexplainable.
i may be anrgy at him,
but at the end of the day,
the anger naturally dissolves,
and i can't help it but to still love him.

the basic thing that you must have in love is having both parties to genuinely love each other.
both are willing to put the other before themselves.
it's simply unfair if only one is doing all the work.

now that i have find my soulmate,
i can never be happier.
it propels me to be the best for him.
thanks honey for loving me.
for all the things that you did,
and even those that you did that i didn't know,
thank you.

being in love with the one meant for you is blissful.

for those readers who thinks that i'm boasting around,
you're wrong.
i'm just explaining how it feel to be in love.

surely everyone know this,
no one is perfect.
it's simply how the other person view you.

one thing for sure,
people are never satisfied.
but to make yourself worthy,
take a pause and think what you got and how blessed you are
because we naturally take things or other people for granted.
be grateful.

i thank my readers for spending a little time off to read my thoughts.
without my readers, i wouldn't be blogging.
because i know people blog for a reason.

have a good monday (22nd) everyone!

sakeenah, happy advanced 20th birthday!
22nd people have some special bond eh?
haha.
may Allah bless you.
thanks for being such a great friend.

course

after so long....
i've decided to attend somebody's wedding.
well, well...
his parents were invited to the same wedding we were attending.
haha.
it's complicated on how we are connected.
*phew*
not closely though.
and his mom introduced me as her future daughter-in-law.
it was nice.
heh!
too bad, he wasn't around as he needs to keep his neighbourhood safe.

went to the ntu's talk regarding their courses.
i'm glad that it's not a waste of time.

gonna apply for both ntu and nus.
ntu, school of humanities and social science.
nus, school of arts and social science.
both in psychology.

i've realised that i'm much interested on why people are bahaving this way, what makes they think, etc.

it is an important factor to choose wisely.
because working will be taking a lot of your time.
thus, i'll need to do something i'm passionate about.
something that i don't mind spending more time on.
even though the teaching courses are attractive,
thinking long term,
nah, i'm not into it.

i have a report to finish up.
and i'm not halfway done.
and it's 3 and a half more weeks till i'm done with attachment!

it's amazing how we have so much things in common.
without friendster, we wouldn't have met.
well, maybe much, much, much later.
thank god for the technology.

thanks for making me fall for you.
i'm truly glad you're mine.
i love you so much!

pms

premenstrual syndrome
a complex of physical and emotional changes, including depression, irritability, appetite changes, bloating and water retention, breast soreness, and changes in muscular coordination, one or more of which may be experienced in the several days before the onset of menstrual flow. (dictionary.com)

now, now....
can we ever control pms?
sadly no.
i bet every girl dislike it.

my boyfriend has a fear of it.
because he knows whenever i'm going through it,
i'll be super sensitive and extra paranoid.
he was the one who made me realised that every time i have pms,
arguments never fail to pop up.
well, it's so true.
and i'm glad he has the patience with me.
arguments between us rarely happen, but once it happened, you never wish that it happened.
from it, it shown me a lot,
of his love for me.

so everytime when i'm pms-ing,
i have to control myself.
control my brain especially.
to cool it down before i can feel it's starting to boil.
it's a very hard thing to do.
i'm still trying.

i've made a promise.
and i'm keeping it.

i'm typing this down to ease myself.
=)
i'm all fine now.

honey, congrats!
celebration at straits kitchen sweetheart?
on you?
haha.
i love you lots and i'll keep on supporting you.

the best moment every day is before heading to bed.
the moment when you lay on the bed,
it's ahhhhh.....
oh so nice.
and thinking of how lucky i am having you just makes
it perfect!

it's blissful with you sweetheart!

fun-ness

sorry faithful readers.
i know this blog was stagnant for quite a while.
didn't have a proper time to really sit and type what i've been up to.
i know how it feel whenever you visited my blog and aiyahhh.. it's not updated.

2007 seems to kick off well.
and i hope it will maintain till 2008 comes and so on.

it's a month left till the end of my attachment at mandai.
well, i'm starting to feel the impact.
starting to miss the environment.

january, my schedule are filled with things.
report, ivp, yec meetings, etc.
i'm still holding on because i have to.
heh.

one fine night, my boyfriend and i travelled all the way to the airport to have popeye's chicken.
we will go all out for food.
good food is worth the trip!


for our anniversary, we did ice skating!
hee.
i had so much fun!
the moment was fantastic!
it was so long since i really feel this good good!
i laughed and smiled so much until someone was sick.
haha.
no lah, he was already unwell.
we had fun skating.
maybe we should do this a yearly thing huh honey?

him on the rink.

i received a gift from him.

it's a calender filled with my pictures.

hee.

i love it.

it's wonderful!

thanks darling!

overall, i had a great time sweetie!

thanks pumpkin!

more exciting years to come with you!

toddlers never fail to amazed you with their unpredictable behaviour, their oh-so-cute smiles, the funny faces they make, the way they do their nonsense talk, their actions.

they are always energetic.

becoming parents isn't easy.

but but but but...

it's worth it.

i'm sure.

ok, my back is weird.

the pain is not gone but it has lessen.

but still it's in pain.

why ah?

i've seen the doctor twice.

so so...

what's my resolution for 2007?

i don't have a long list.

simple.

to do things giving my all.

be it being a daughter, sister, girlfriend, and those other positions i'm having.

in short, to improve myself to be a better person.

because when you give all your best, there's nothing you will regret.

instead, you will feel a sense of achievement.

so what's my plans after graduating in ngee ann poly?

i'm thinking of applying a place in either nus or ntu.

if i didn't get a place,

then i'll just stay at home and learn how to cook.

work myself to be a future full time homemaker.

haha.

or of course, get a job.

floorball ivp is here.

and it's at our homeground.

we are all working towards the best.

we'll see how it'll get.

alrite readers,

i'll end of here.

=)

have a goody day everyone!

happy first sweetheart!

it's a brand new year!
with a new fresh post!
i would like to dedicate this first post of the new year to mr abdul mutalib.

happy anniversary sweetheart!
today, the fifth of january marks our first year being together.

it has been such an interesting, surprising, beautiful and wondrous year honey!
thanks for being my everything.

i'm thankful that i've found you too.
you're the one that i'm dedicating my life to.
you're the person that can't get off my mind.
you're that special one that i'm loving every hour, every minute, every second.

oh yes honey,
remember how we got together?
i've always savour that moment.
your actions and that look on your face,
i can remember every detail on that fateful 5th january 2006.

well, not only that day,
those times when we were dating too.
haha.
i'm like a silly fool smiling to myself.
they are safely etched in my mind.
and the feelings will always lighten me up.

i can babble non stop when it comes to you sweetheart.
and it all originate from the word; love.

thanks for showering me with your sincere love.

looking forward to more colourful years with you.

nurul atirah loves abdul mutalib.