2nd.

happy 2nd darling!
i'm glad to have know you.
and i'm super glad that you came across my name and you decided to know more.
while on the way to work,
i counted.
9 months.
it took us about 9 months to start a stable relationship.

i'm at work.
but not in my office.
instead i'm in an office located at east coast road.
i've been here since 10.15am.
and i have to wait till 7.30pm.
i think by the time i leave for home it will be 8.30pm.
my work has been completed since 4.00pm.
how an interesting way to spend my friday.

my director offered me to watch a movie on my company's account.
i thought it would be a good idea.
went to check out the net for the nearest cinema.
and it's overseas princess at bedok.
there weren't much choice of movies.
so, i'll skip it.
and i have quite a big amount for allowance from her to take a cab home.
heh.

now, i am trying to waste time by blogging away.

of course i can go out and walk around.
but the place doesn't really have a good place to go to.
maybe i'll try the cheesecake cafe in a while.

someone just said that i look like a filipino.
haha.
nothing new.

i don't wish to bump into anyone today.
i look so tired and improper.

fine dining.

my lecturer, him and i was invited for dinner.
to a posh restaurant.

we had our first fine dining at vanilla pod.
courtesy of my director and her husband.

the total bill was 200+.
one dish already cost 28+.

one word: exquisite
it was a good experience dining in such environment.

you don't feel as if you're in singapore.
the place are filled with colourful orchids.
i had worked there for 6 months.
but i never really slow down and take in the atmosphere.
it was wonderful.
it helps me to ease my mind a little.

i can't pronouce the name of the dish.
haha.

i'll always look forward to desserts!
the chocolate brownie together with vanilla ice cream i had was just delicious.

i'm starting to feel much better now.

honey, happy 2 years friendship in advance!
you are the best thing that happened to me in life.

assurance.

will i be ok?

being at the lowest point makes you feel the weakest.
and during those times,
you get influenced easily,
by all the horrifying things.

take note:
i'm human too.
and my feelings are real.

i want to be fine.
and stop doing anything for a very long time.

on the other note,
our ring turns 1!

2 more days till we've been friends for 2 years.

i received a text asking whether i'll be free on some certain date to attend a wedding.
and i received an email saying that i've been booked on another certain date.

i wish to be happy today,
but i just can't.

i'm lost.
truly lost in my own tangled mind.

thanks shikin.
you're my other love.

oh yes, there's one reason to be happy.
there's 3 pictures of me somewhere.

ok.
it's not that bad afterall.

weeks of march

my schedule has been busy!

and now, i'm mentally unstable.
i bite now.
so beware!

trying to calm this mind of mine by blogging,
thinking of the wonderful memories,
and listening to a song he loves to sing since he knows the lyrics.
haha.

i wish this period of time will soon pass.
i dislike feeling this way.

a lot of fun things happened!
and i truly enjoyed myself.

things i've been doing/things that happened

finding nemo.
kite flying.
hanging out with my girls.
sticky chewy chocolate and lime sherbet.
movies.
late night out.
work.
town.
naked man.
workshop.
repair my phone.
joanne in miss singapore universe.
youth forum.
6 days of seeing him in a week.
meeting.
shopping.
being pampered by him.

disney on ice - finding nemo was alrite.
went twice.
one with the participants organised by the cc and suliza.
the other with mom, the kids and him.
it was really well coordinated and their formation were nice.


the participants

the boy we had to take care.



the naughty little girl.


finally!
we went kite flying!
it was really windy and we have no problem getting the kite flying.
it was just great.
i wish to go again.


him.

the kite, our kite.


met up with shikin and suliza.
and took silly pictures!
they did, i don't.
haha.
had a great time laughing and chatting.

the two amahs.

jakonists.

the two belos. hee.

triple n

ok. i was influenced by their silliness.

mirror, mirror on the wall..
who's the fairest of them all?

ok, my smile looked pathetic.



happiness.

if swensens had a loyalty card,
i would have one of them.
i've been going there to have sticky chewy chocolate and lime sherbet.
i just had it yesterday.
haha.
i'm going bonkers.


catch quite a number of movies.
300, pathfinder, tmnt and mr bean's holiday.
all with him.
except, mr bean's holiday, i had mom and sis to join us.
all show were kinda good.
not very good though.

two days straight,
i've been heading home in the wee hours of the morning.
one to catch a (after) midnight movie.
the other, shopping at mustafa centre.
haha.

i had to work.
to finish the national library up.
i'm getting kinda frustrated with it.
i wish it would soon finish.
and i don't have to worry much.

i'm sick of town.
been heading there 4 times a week last week.
it's all the same thing.

okok.
read my tagboard from essie?
yes, we saw a naked man.
we were at the national library, and opposite was the intercontinental hotel.
i was the first who noticed a man standing in front of the window.
one hand on the phone, the other, somewhere.
milky white skin eh essie?
haha.

went for a workshop regarding community engagement programme.
what if singapore is going through a riot?
how can we make sure that our racial ties won't be effected?
it was really interesting.

my phone was not receiving any reception for the last month.
had to send for repair.
and i had to use nokia 3210.
so old and orbit.
haha.

my close friend in st. margaret's,
joanne lopez got in the miss singapore universe.
and she's a finalist.
congrats!
all the best to you!

had a youth forum about foreign policy.
kinda alien about it.
but it was good that we're able to share our views with other poeple.

last week,
we've seen each other for 6 times!
man, everytime with him was awesome!

as usual,
every month
there's that monthly meeting at the cc.

shopping!
i love that.
2 new shoes added in the shoes rack.
and i have 10 snapple drinks in the fridge!
because they were selling it at a dollar each.
he has his supply in his fridge too.
kiasu people.

being pampered is the best thing that happened!
especially by him.
received a new bag.
and some cash.
hahaha.
and he did many stuffs that made me happy.



can i start school again?

i won't get sick of you.
all i know, i have not enough of you.
i love you.

apologies

hi readers!

i'll update when i've got the time.
there's so many things happening.
and i'm tired.

thanks for visiting.
=)
appreciate it.
hee.

take care lovely readers.

i love being nurul atirah.
and i love having you with me.

good day

good day everyone!


take care.



*ps, i'm missing you.

bored? am i?

does staying at home = bored?

actually i have things to plan for.
an event that consists groups from different primary school.
an amazing race at the botanic gardens.
they will have to go around answering general knowledge questions.

well, maybe i'll start later (procrastinating)

i wanted to do a new layout for my blog,
but i haven't really plan it yet.

well, maybe i'll start later (procrastinating)

i'll have to do a poster and a banner design for a trip to the singapore discovery centre.

*sighs*
well, maybe i'll start later (procrastinating)

i think i won't have anything done with my procrastination.
aiyoo...

i would be going to disney on ice, finding nemo!
not once, but twice.
haha.
one with participants who signed up the acitivity.
the other with my family.

went to sim and nus open house.
went to sim to accompany him to get brochures for the different courses.
nus open house was like a fun fair.
it was vibrant.
went there to get clarifications about the courses offered by faculty of arts and social sciences.

i read through the booklet.
both is interesting.
philosophy and psychology.

i'll just have to wait and open my letterbox everyday,
hoping to receive two love letters from different lovers.

and my last poly results is tomorrow!
i want to know my gpa as it will give me my average for all my 3 years.
please be 3.3 and above.

then maybe celebration?
honey, you're free on wednesday evening right?

the whole of last week,
i had to work.
monday, i had to go to national library to recheck the plants.
the other days to re-edit it using autocad.
and i'm super jubilant with the pay.
it's $3** for a week.
rather than $4** for a month.

last sunday,
there was an event, childrens' art & colouring competition.
and i don't understand why the committee itself didn't come down to help.
we were so short of manpower.
i had to ask him and shikin to help out.
can we have more committed committee next year?
thank you for helping sweeties!
hee.
overall, it went on fine.

i wish there was a switch for me to stop worrying.
yes honey, i think so far.
it just happened.
not that i want to.

honey, not only i know you too well,
you know me well enough.
you knew when i'm normal and when i'm not.

why is it when i'm apart from you, i miss you?

my own issues.

can we ever switch off whatever we're thinking?
i'm really tired of worrying.
for everything that i do,
'what ifs' always questions me.

d&d

dinner and dance on the 6th of march 2007 was alrite.
wasn't that awesome.
but that doesn't stop me from laughing and having fun!
i was having a great time.
best couple aye?



when 4 of my friends came over my house, i kinda panic.
am i going to be overdress?
he panic too.
haha.
but it was too late to change.

reception starts at 7.
we were there at 7.45
we were late.
but we weren't that late.
the event haven't start yet.
we came at a nice timing i should say.
i was seated with my close friends and of course, him by my side.

the food was alrite,
kinda dry.

but.....
the desserts!
all yummy looking cakes!
i didn't finish my main course because the cakes are tempting me!

i received a lot of comments.
haha.
"both of you looked like a wedding couple"
"atirah, you dressed like so atirah"
haha.
i am atirah.

after dinner,
the host asked people to nominate for the prom queen and king.
my friends asked me to go up to stage.
but i refused.
then,
the host looked at me, straight in the eyes and announced,
there, that girl with a white rose on her hair.
i can't run.
it was me.
i had no choice but to go up.
my friends also appointed him to go up the stage.
so both of us were running for the prom queen and king.
hahas.
did our catwalk.
and he did his favourite usual pose.
they had the audience to clap the loudest for their favourite.
even though we didn't win,
the director said to me personally
"well done atirah!"



our consolation prize.


twice, i was nominated for prom queen.
first in st. margaret's prom night.
haha.

after having a good laugh at out table,
they called out for the best couple.
first 2 names : i can't remember
second name : joanna and joseph
third name : atirah and mutalib
fourth name : i can't remember

we were so paiseh again.
but had no choice.
haha.
again, the director asked the audience for help.
to clap and cheer for the most loving couples on stage.
i think we were the second loudest.
instead of giving to the loudest couple,
the director announced,
i think the most loving couple is atirah & mutalib.
we were presented with a couple watch.





afterwhich it was lucky draw!
good attractive prizes.
too bad, our numbers wasn't being called out.

most of the crowd went off when it was dancing time.
well, we went off too.

it was a memorable event.
and honey,
thank you.

i love you!




yy!

peggy!

jeslyn!

jolyn & nisrin!

miss tek!

estya!

joanna!

i hate flashes!

the two white roses that connected us.


i'm still very much in love you.
i'm sure we have a lot to tell our kids about our young days.
let's stay together forever!

before itself.

wooo hooo!
tomorrow's the day!
of dressing, making up!
will update more.
peace.

oh baby!
i can't wait!

feelings.

meeting up with joanne and suliza was really fun!
laughed and joked the whole evening.
secondary school days were indeed memorable.

and joanne asked me.
"nurul, are you sure he's the one?"
"the one that you are going to marry?"

haha.
what a question.
as a close friend,
i know she was concerned and wanted to make sure that i'll make a right decision.

it is a life changing experience once you get married.
you will be staying with your spouse for the rest of your life,
and have more responsibilities.

and seeing the trend now,
when married couples can't solve a problem,
most couples opt for divorce.
so what?
they got married because of lust?
not because of love?

love should be a beautiful thing shared between two souls.
that chemistry between the two of you.
staying devoted to one another, not looking elsewhere for other guys/girls.
both having that invisble contract to take the effort to keep the love alive, to rekindle the spark.
the light must forever be there.

when there is love, both parties will not have the intention to hurt the other.
be it,
abusing, cheating, lying or etc.
one thing that i can't stand is,
to know that you're significant other is cheating on you.
and they will come back to you saying,
"baby, i love you. that girl/boy was a mistake. i'm sorry"
i won't accept that or perhaps,
i won't forgive him.

i know to love is to forgive.
maybe i'm not that generous enough.
in the first place,
why do you do such stuffs if you know it will hurt your bf/gf?
you know what is right, and what's wrong.

once love is not fulfilled by one party,
the other party suffers,
until there's no more love to love.

i believe when there is love,
there is happiness.

both must give and receive equally.
if not,
it defeats the purpose of love.

so what is the answer i gave joanne?

it's yes!
he's the one i'm marrying.

honey,
you know i know that we both love each other so much.
i'm so grateful to have you in my life.
it's hard to explain what i'm feeling for you,
because whenever i tried,
my tears just flowed.
just like now.

i love you,
with every beat of my heart.

making time just for me.

i'm always in love with history.
the propagandas, the different ideologies, the wars.
all are just interesting.
but i didn't take history in the upper secondary.
during those teenage years, i thought that i would like to be an environmentalist.
taking care and studying mother earth.

i love humanities.
funny thing, i can't score well in them.
perhaps, i'm not able to express myself.

the two things that i enjoyed in my school years were science and mathematics.
it's always fun working with numbers.
a headache at times,
but once you're able to solve it,
that feeling of satisfaction is just amazing.
i miss that feeling.

enough of reminiscing my secondary school days,
yesterday we went to watch "letters from iwo jima"
it was a good movie showing how japanese were willing to serve their country and their emperor.
they have so much pride that if they lose, they committed suicide.
if you had seen "flags of our fathers", this was the japanese that they were fighting against.
and if you're observant enough, you're able to see the flag on the top of the hill.

some questions to ponder..

what is power?
money?
wealth?

can human ever be contented with what they got?

haha.
i think the answer is that obvious.

honey, i know you were busy.
i can imagine, if i were in a midst of some work,
i wouldn't want to be interrupted.
i rather finish it up, so that my mind is at peace.
thanks for taking time off to spend with me.
thanks for making me happy.
thanks for loving me so much.
i love you.