wake up call

i knew that the partner went to bed in the wee hours of the morning to finish up his essay.
i'm not surprised at all when i received an sms from him saying to give him a wake up call.
caring so much for the partner,
not wanting him to be late for work which will ruin his reputation which will then affect his self-esteem,
i set my alarm an hour early just to wake him up.
i called him up.
he was still unconscious, in his dreamland.
he made noise.
i talked to him.
in response, i heard 10 mins.

10 mins later,
i called again.
i talk and talk and talk, just to irritate him.
still noise and i heard the 10 mins again.
ok lah,
i did what i was told again.

10 mins later,
i called.
like finally!
he talked but i wasn't sure whether he talked for the sake to stop me from calling again or he's really up up.

another 10 mins later,
i called him without being asked.
and my aim has been achieved.
he's up.

a while ago,
i told him,
when we have kids,
i will buy them water guns to shoot at him to wake him up.
he had a hearty laugh over the suggestion.
i think he agrees.

everytime when loneliness crept in,
i can't help it but to read the partner's sentimental smses and reminiscing the moments we both hold deeply.
those other times when he piggyback me 4 storey up.
the sing-a-long sessions in the car.
the feeding sessions.
the complaint sessions.
there was one which i can never forget.
we were arguing and out of sudden he cried.
never a guy cried for me.
that cry which tells me he's the one.
after that ugly argument,
he carried me, looked deep into my eyes and told me that i'm the one he's going to marry, the one who he wants to grow old with and the one who he wants to have kids with.
that moment was so pure and true,
that it didn't help me to stop crying.

honey,
hearing you laugh ease me,
especially that kiddish laugh of yours,
when you kept on giggling.
especially when i sang the wrong lyrics or a line faster!
every moment with you is priceless.
i thank the almighty god for letting me experience how wonderful love is.
and baby,
thanks for loving me with all your heart.

the short and simple time spent.

my sunday was spent slacking.
whenever i started to do something,
my eyes starts to get sleepy.
in the end,
i done nothing but to sleep.

my lovely mom irritated me and fatin and we decided to teach her a lesson.
fatin hold her hands while i go on tickling her.
we had a great laugh overall.

the partner and i don't have plans yesterday because he has an essay to finish up.
eventually,
he said he need an ice cream break.
and that was what we did.
i fetched atiqah before fetching the partner.
all the 3 of us make way to have ice cream at sin ming road.
we look like a happy family having dessert.
there was a lady who kept turning her head to take a look at us.
i have no idea why.
and we had mcdonalds on our way home.
it was a simple short time with the partner.

sweetheart,
i know i didn't choose the wrong guy to love.
the way i see you handled atiqah reflects a lot.
not only her, adil and adnan too.
you care for kids like i do.
we have plenty of similarites that bond us together.
the talks we have about the future regarding us is promising.
let us hope it will go on as smoothly as plan.
it all comes down to i love you.

cathing up

that one fine day.

initially i was to meet up my poly mates to catch up.
nearing to the date,
it seems that most of us are busy with our own things.
and we abandoned the plan.
thus i was totally planless (apart from finishing assignments or do some readings) when someone called and made me excited about her story.
we had a good catch up over lunch.
it was so good to know that her life is going on as it should.
stressed yet sweet.

while we were having our lunch,
i can't help but noticed that there were 2 kids who were sitting behind us, were running around.
one even touch his shoes and took it out.
the other wandering somewhere.
obviously, there were super active kids.
i didn't really pay much attention to them as i was too engrossed exchanging views.
until one of the kids that ran pass our table touched estya's food.
i got mad.
really.
that was when i decided to scrutinize on them.
actually, they are twin.
i looked over estya's shoulder to see there were 4 adults of which 1 is a male.
i supposed the male was the twin's brother.
because firstly, he was young,
secondly, he was sort of controlling the kids, going after the kids.
what gave away was that he was carrying a ladies' handbag.
then i realised he was the father.
i then looked out for the mother.
i was simply stunned!
why?
because the mother looked way younger than me, below her twenties, about 18-19.
and she already has a twin that is about 4 years old.
to add on, very uncontrollable little kids.
not that i couldn't stand active kids.
it was that their parents didn't disipline them enough.
and let me show you my points.
told you that one of the twin took out his shoes with his hands right?
the shoes already has germs.
he touched it (the germs).
mind you,
it was at the foodcourt.
then i'm sure he will eat something using hands with is filled with the germs.
ok i shall not go on from here.
you get the picture?
next,
an accident might occur.
people might carried hot soup and the kids might knocked against them.
get the next picture?
i believe that when the kids are not well disciplined,
they will turn out to be nasty adults.
and the mom shouldn't just sit around and watch her husband running around for the kids.
she should play her part, the role as a mother.
she's young, she's supposed to have more energy.

i tell,
if they were my kids,
i already made them cry and punish them.
i can't stand impolite kids.
it does reflect badly on the parents.

why did i bring up the issue?
kids who are active and the parents do nothing about it are irritating.
=)
take care of your child please.

sweetheart,
charmed me with your charms.
i love you honeybon!

physically and mentally tired

i am physically and mentally tired.
i'm in need of a good night sleep,
the one which i wake upfeeling refresh and in a good mood.

after lecture today,
i rush to town to meet the partner's mother for a massage.

me and his mom had to pretend that we're mother and daughter to avoid much questions.

the moment i step in,

someone introduces me to the masseur and she said: "eh, eh lawanya"

while massaging she said "cantik matanya"

all i did was to smile and thanked her.
his mom treated me to 2 massage sessions.
i tell you,
i was so looking forward to the massage, to pamper myself and just relax.
my shoulders has been stiff lately which will then affect my neck.
it was an awkward experience as it was my first.
i mean being nude, only with a disposable panty on and towels were being laid on my body which is the only thing that prevented me to expose my naked self to the masseur.
i had to control myself from laughing whenever the masseur massage my inner thighs.
it wasn't that painful, but it was ticklish.
there were times when i felt pain as she really did use quite a lot of force to make sure it was being felt.
nevertheless,
it was relaxing.
and i managed to feel a little lighter.
accompany his mom home.
and slacked over his house with his parents as he was still at work.
i must admit i have regard his house as my second home.
his parents treated me like their own.
and i can foresee how will it be in the future to come when i ever become their daughter-in-law.

before the partner sent me back,
we had a bite to fill our empty stomach.
i ordered only 2 roti pratas.
but then the partner surprised me with coleslaw!
a great tasting one!

i'll end with an original quote of my own.
"a person who is truly in love does not only think of the short term pleasures one can have with one's partner, instead one that thinks of the long term with the partner in it." - nurul atirah

sweetheart,
thanks for your concern.
do remember what we had discuss.
it will help in your future, our future.
let us stay in love forever.
*hugs&tickles&kisses*

happy 21st to both!

see this 2 ladies?

the date 26 october mark their birthday!
a very happy 21st birthday to
nazierah
&
suliza!

both of you girls (including shikin) rock my world!

nazierah,
you're a great friend to hang out with.
even though we are relatively new to one another,
we have so many things to talk about!
don't you worry so much about your mr right.
he's probably stuck at a traffic jam or currently lost.
sooner or later, he will get to you.
trust me.

suliza,
woah!
time flies isn't it pal?
now you're 21!
i have witness you grown over the years.
those time we had together are such nice memories.
challenges are mend for you to make you stronger.
remember,
you can never run away from it.
be brave and fight it.
stop and reflect sweetie.

may both of you are always be bless with wonderful, beautiful things!

we had a a girly day out to watch the nanny diaries.
just a get together for the birthday girls.
i had a fun time taking pictures and laugh!
really,
having a good time is all about the company.

shikin. atirah. nazierah.





we were a 'married' couple.



she was punished to massage my legs.

dorky atirah.

nerdy shikin.

geeky nazierah.

a love scene


my girlfriends make me laugh.
i believe nothing is more valuable than a genuine laugh.
the laugh that emits endorphins which helps to fight away moodiness and depression.

darling,
despite that you're busy,
you still made calls to me.
i really appreciate it.
from your voice and tone,
it shows how concern you are.
thanks for waiting up even though you're beat.
i can never have a better person that can communicate and understand me like you do.
time and time again, your little moves has touched my heart.
thanks sweetheart!

maybe

during lecture,
i suddenly had the urge to eat kfc.
especially the coleslaw.
smsed the partner to see whether he can fit me inside his busy schedule.
and yes!
there was a slot for me.

as usual,
i was excited to see him,
when he saw me from afar, he phoned me in a very cheerful tone.
"hello girlfriend!!"
i can sensed that he was either smiling or lauging on the other line.
that made me smiled too because he is excited to meet me too.

we had a good quick bite and chocolatey-careandshare-dessert.
why careandshare?
because the partner suggested it.

that an hour plus was enjoyable.
the later part was sweet.
well, he was sweet.
that sweetness feeling of being in love.
thanks for the fun time baby!

a year ago,
some people who hated me tagged me with unpleasant comments.
i discuss with the 2 besties and we might have a rough idea who and why they did that.
something that i can remember vividly was that, "you are still in the honeymoon period"
maybe i've taken something that was once hers.
i hope you have excel in life.

congrats fendi and by definition who won live the dream!
i was rooting for them.
they are really outstanding.
i like revalina too.
sadly they were out.

sweetheart,
you're seldom a man of words.
but you're a man of actions.
from it,
i know how deep is your love for me.
work hard and remember i am always there for you honeybon!

raya with the 2 besties.

raya-ing with the 2 important ladies was superduperlyawesome!
what was sad was that nazirah was not able to make it.
she was tied up with stuffs that made her exhausted.
next time you must join us!
we had lots of laughter with the 3 different individuals combined.
the pampered chick + the cool chick + the silliest chick
make a guess which am i.
i may not appear to be one, but i am.
the both of them had a good laugh over my stupid poses.



you want free laughter?
be my close friend.
:)







i was surprised when shikin told me that her mom initiated that i drive their family car for the outing.

and i did.
even though it was manual.
something that i wasn't used to,
we all reached our destinations safe and sound.
thanks cik!

the 1st attempt

2nd attempt

the 2 ladies made me feel so comfortable that i forget about my worries.
i can express freely in front of them without being judged.
they grew up with me knowing the real me, how i think, how serious or stupid i can be.
the best reward is to see them laugh wholeheartedly.
to let them feel safe and to know that i'm always there for them.

i love my two darlings, shikin and suliza!

both of you never failed to make my day.
thanks ShiLiza!
sounds nice.
haha.

a world without them makes me look and feel much much older.
i don't need needles and surgery to make me young.
because my bestfriends are my botox.


i end my post happily.
:)

challenges.

challenges we faced are not easy,
but it's not something that we couldn't handle.
because god wouldn't give someone more than what one can handles.
we are all capable of achieving.

sunday,
i helped out his mom in the kitchen as guests came over his house for raya.
i was assigned to do all the cutting of vegetables.
i admit,
i did a lot of slicing today.
until my hands still smell of onions.
luckily we can get along so well that i don't feel uncomfortable being in the kitchen with her.
conclusion?
frankly,
i do enjoy using the knife to slice the object that is on the chopping board.
cooking?
i don't feel the pressure yet.
the partner will understand.
but i will learn how to cook for the sake of my husband and children.
why children?
you ask people around, especially kids in primary schools
what is your favourite food?
answer: my mom's cooking.
there might be 2 reasons to that answer.
1. since young, their tongue are 'tuned'/adaptable to their mother's cooking.
2. they normally eat mom's food.
it's an exception for those mothers who seldom cook.
so yes, i have to learn to cook when the time comes for my children.
there's a saying that goes:
“the way to a man's heart is through his stomach.” Fanny Fern (1811-1872)
confirm, chop, i have to cook.

the partner's grandfather said that he wanted to meet my parents.
my guess is to get to know them better.
he will meet them one fine day.
his chinese relatives asked him "how? next year ah?"
i can assure you, it won't be next year.

when guests had depart,
the partner and i were exhausted from entertaining the guests that we slept.
in different rooms that is.
when you are already tired and sticky,
shower is the only thing that refreshes your mind and body.

i'm going raya with the girls today.
let's hope it's a smooth and easy one.

honey,
thanks for your silliness.
i didn't see something normal in you,
there are reasons why i chose you.
thanks for the fun time.
i love you.

buck up

i just came back from visiting the partner's house together with my family.
another successful interaction.
both the partner and i were discussing something,
while the adults were talking about us.
both parties are pleased.

don't expect any wedding bells soon readers,
because i, myself don't know when it's going to happen.
and i am not going to think about it.
it's all fated.
i shall just have to see when it's the time.

the way i viewed at people and myself is different from the way i viewed them then.
not that i've been giving people weird stares.
but it's that i look at them with different insights.
i have no idea why it is happening to me.
is it what you call maturing?

i realised i need a change.
i can't afford to be in the self-pity state.
i have to do something about it.
and it has to be fast!

one day,
the partner surprised me with a comment on friendster.
why?
because he never leave a comment nor write a testimonials for his friends.
i am honoured to be the first.

sweetheart,
cause for us, there is no end.

updates of the busy days.

i think i've figured out what makes raya interesting.
firstly, the triumph of fasting for a month and refraining oneself from various temptations.
that 'yes! i made it!' kind of feeling.
secondly, the chance to meet your long lost friends, relatives.
catching up with them.
thirdly, the chance to wear new clothes, shoes, bag.
some may reuse last year's stuffs. good, cultivate the 3Rs.
for the kids/students, the chance to collect as much money as possible.
some may even challenge with their friends on who collected the most, etc.
furthermore, it's once a year affair.
how can raya not be fun?

i was surprised when a long 'lost' aunt hugged me.
i felt confused and lost.
i don't know how to react.

i thanked to those people who dislikes or look down on me.
definitely those harsh insensitive words hurts me badly.
but because of them,
they make me work extra hard to prove myself worthy.
as long as i have my partner, family, my true bestfriends and friends supporting me,
i will thrive for the best.

i make a new friend today,
and she knows my cousin, insyirah.
she said "i look wise and much older than her"
haha.
wise look.
hmmm.
it's a good alternative for mature.
=)

haha.
now i'm sleepy.

second pink day

the second day.
the one we, including his parents went to batu pahat to visit his father's relatives.
pardon us,
both were super tired.



this year raya,
i didn't managed to take much pictures.

i'll update when i have the time.

take care readers!

hari raya!

the first day.

the cousins and i.


the four anak dara-s.
syafiqah, atirah, insyirah, stephanie (afiq's gf)


lastly,
the partner and i.
=D


have a great sunday everyone!

selamat hari raya!

kepada semua umat islam,
selamat menyambut hari raya dengan kegembiraan.
jikalau saya terkasar bahasa ataupun menyinggung perasaan anda, harap maafkan.
bergembiralah disisi keluarga dan orang yang disayangi.
=D
*world peace

it truly touched me when it's the raya period.
why?
to seek for forgiveness is never easy and i should say it's a brave move .
to realise about your mistakes and being bold to admit it.
in the process, you will feel ashamed, embarrassed.
but the after feeling is relief.
we're human afterall.
without mistakes,
we might not learn.

now,now.
below are the pictures taken on 11 oct.

the birthday boy trying to calm his stomach.

he's flirting with the camera.

our unfinished food.



ok, this wasn't a pose.
the partner kept shooting my picture.
it's a moving picture of me looking silly.
this is when i'm trying to get the camera back.








honey,
i know we both feel good in each other arms.
you know i know that feeling.

his 24th birthday.

11 october 2007 was another night to remember.
i'm glad the birthday boy enjoyed his night as well as i did.

i admit it was such an simple plan,
nevertheless,
we both had fun.
it's the companionship that matters.
how well we both interact with one another,
always on the same wavelength.

we both know where to look,
what the other is implying.
the same reaction we both have.
that secret language that connects us intimately.

we had dinner at straits kitchen.
yes, again.
maybe it's like a ritual thingy that occurs only on his birthday.
the seats we had were at the corner and it wasn't too close to our neighbour,
which enables us to have a peaceful time to eat without anyone to look at you while you're eating.
this time around,
we ate much more.
we had chicken rice, satay, fried rice, fried mee, tandoori chicken, naan, bbq stringray, prawn and chicken, etc.
and of course we had plenty of bandung.
=D
we ate till we're full.
for the first time in my life,
i had trouble breathing in normally when i walk.
it was so hard to walk.
by then, which is too late, i regretted eating so much.
to add it worse,
whenever the partner talks about something that was funny,
i had to laugh, not because i was forced to but it was really hilarious that i had to laugh.
i was left breathless laughing.
we both were walking around town with our stomach bloated.
you can literally see it 'ballooned' out.
but we were smart to wear something that doesn't project our bulging tummy.

pictures will be uploaded in the few entries to come.

earlier that day,
mom asked me to drive her and mama in to joan road to get fresh cut flowers for raya.
she bought 3 different roses, a carnation (dianthus caryophyllus), alpinia purpurata and heliconia.
i love flowers!
upon driving off,
a guy approached us to point out to one of the tyres.
to my surprise,
one of the tyres has run over a big sharp metal and it had causes the tyre to deflate.
i never changed a tyre.
fortunately,
my uncle borrowed our car jack and the necessary tools,
thus we had to wait for him.
he too, doesn't have much experience in changing tyres.
the four of us figured out and we had some help.
in the end, we managed to replaced it with the odd looking spare tyre.
what an experience!
then i was off to see the birthday boy for dinner.

sweetheart,
happy birthday.
you are such a gentleman.
i love you more that anything.
*hugs&tickles&kisses*

24th birthday!

happy 24th birthday partner!
may you are constantly bless with all the good things in life.
hope you'll be wiser in tackling life's challenges.

i love you sweetheart!

*ps. you're old baby.

good site

something to share if you have queries about islam.
http://www.muis.gov.sg/eServices/ReligousSvc/dg_Queries.aspx

it clear my doubts.
i hope it will answer yours too.

sleep again

and so i slept in the library again.
i hug my laptop to dreamland.
this time round, i set a countdown timer in my phone.

the end result?

i almost overslept.
the countdown timer doesn't help.
i slept through it and thank goodness i woke up ten minutes before lecture starts.
i rushed to lecture yet again.

the preparation

hari raya will soon be approaching.
the partner and i had a conversation a few months back.
i think way back in april.
he brought up the idea of what colours should our baju raya be this year.
i told him that it is still early to be talking about it and the mood of raya is not there yet.
he replied, "honey, you just see. the next time we know, we will be discussing about this again."
and yes.
he's right.
time flies whether you like it or not.

2007 will be over.

of course to look at 365 days is long.
but living in a fast paced world,
one day gone so fast.
then weeks.
then months.
then the years follow by the decades.
after you're done with work or school,
half a day is gone.

sadly,
time is one of the thing that we can't control.
it just happened.
you can never pause, rewind, forward your phase in life.
it just continues.
but one day, you will have to stop your life.

the purpose that i wanted to blog about was about raya's preparations.
i had side track a little.
i am excited for raya this year.
i can imagine the typical first day at my house.
how the furniture are arranged.
how my house will be surrounded with flowers.
how my house will be packed with people.
what are the common topics people are going to talk about.
etc.
i hope working life in the future won't affect the mood for raya.

mom has been busy baking kuehs.
grandnenek has been busy making kerepek.
dad has been busy fixing the lights.
the house is 1/4 prepared.
the carpet has not been laid.
the curtains has yet to be hung.
more work to be done.

the atmosphere creates the mood.

darling,
let have more rayas together.
it will be even more interesting when we have multiplied.

positions for yec

i am now the general secretary of the nanyang cc's yec.
all the writings of minutes, keeping notes, etc.
i have to be attentive during meetings.
i knew it was coming.
i knew i'll be appointed.
i too am the assistant publicity and assistant it.
looking forward to work with the new committed committee.

i was quite surprised when one of them proposed my name to become the chairman.
he said, i have the passion and am committed to lead the team.
i was simply touched.
but i am just not ready.
i have things to catch up on.
perhaps the next two years.

i was heading to the cc,
crossing the road,
when i heard someone whistle to me.
i didn't turn,
i looked front and walked straight.
it was getting annoying when he kept whistling.
that whistle when you want people to look at you.
he was trying to attract my attention.
well sorry mister,
i am not interested.
i don't think whistling is gentleman enough.

the % of getting my palm on the car is 32.5%
luck really plays a big role.
it will be a perfect 21st birthday present!

when i woke up in the morning,
i checked my phone for any sms.
there were none.
i checked my call log,
the partner's name and the time appeared.
i then checked call duration.
it was 52 seconds.
i was trying very hard to think back.
but i didn't remember picking up the phone and talking to the partner.
i was already asleep.
i asked the partner what did i talk to him last night.
he said that i was talking like a drunkard.
well, maybe i did talked to him unconsciously.
maybe i was in stage 2 of my sleep.
i was amazed that we can still chatted for 52 seconds.
haha.

the partner has been really nice and patient with me.
and i feel really greatS.

sweetheart,
2 more days.
you're in my every day.

spoilt and renew plan

the plan that i had earlier was redundant due to unforeseen circumstances.
we had a better plan together.
=)
it was the partner who contributed 95% on the new plan.


he purposely take the shot with his eyes close. (he's getting vain now)


we went to our all-time favourite 24 hours shopping centre,
mustaffa centre.
we break fast at out favourite place,
i was introduced by the partner i guess about a year ago.
small place but great food!
the naan and tandoori chicken gets me hooked since the first time i ate.

we're gonna have tandoori chicken and mixed dishes on thursday.
the partner is excited about it.
well, i am too.

i got myself bangles to match with my baju.
a little of indian touch.
the partner even asked,
he: honey, you really got indian blood huh?
me: yes, i do honey. from my dad's.
he: no wonder lah.
me: that's why you're attracted to me right?
he giggled away and he started to tease me.
the thing about us is we love teasing one another.
we teased, we joked and we laughed.
i admit we are childish.
but that makes us, uniquely US.

sweetheart,
you make me feel brand new,
all the time.
immensely happiness when i'm with you.
you're my tranquilizer darling.
thanks love.
*hugs & tickles & kisses*

surprise

initially,
today is a planless day for the partner and i.
when i woke up for sahur and surf the net,
a place comes across my mind.
suddenly, a plan developed in my mind.
knowing that our weekdays will be busy,
today will be a perfect day.

the partner didn't know where are we going, what are we going to do.
all he knows is when.

we shall see how it goes later.

now,
i'm watching a walk to remember, yet again.
luckily the partner informed me.

i heard it from somewhere.
girls tend to enjoy watching a movie over and over again,
if that movie has an emotional attachment with her.

ok readers,
back to a walk to remember.
have a fantastic sunday!

wedding to attend

yesterday,

so the couple went for his collegue's wedding dinner.
at the end of the day,
we managed to content our stomach with a variety of dishes.
we laughed and had fun.







today,
we went to the library to find some materials for his essay assignments.

and now,
the partner is a seat apart from me in my house watching man u's match.
and me?
i'm so sleepy.
why lah, why lah?

sweetheart,
thanks for being patient with your moody partner.
you're my sweetheart.

touching love

having no class today,
i accompanied my grandnenek for check-up.
i was a little moody and today had to test my patience,
there were a lot of waiting.
you know how frustrated it was when you have to wait for so long?
so i had a black face.
i realised why do i have to appear gloomy since i'm already there?
so i try cheering myself up.
it helped a little though.

there was a couple who touched me deeply.
it was an old couple, maybe about their late 60s.
the husband accompanied his sick wife for check-up.
ok lah, they were already old and i doubt the husband has to work.
but then again, the husband followed his wife instead of staying at home comfortably.

i can sensed their love for one another by looking at their actions.

well, they don't held hands but the way the husband look for a seat for his wife and leading her to the seat touches me.

how often did you see that?

i'm not a guy but i can roughly know what reasons guys will give.
the reason that most husbands gave for not accompanying his wife to the doctor are :
1. i have to work/ i have a lot of work to finish up.
2. my wife said i don't need to accompany her.
3. waste my time waiting for the queue number.

ok guys,
if your wife said "you don't need to accompany me because i know you have work to do and i can manage on my own"
surprise her by taking a half day leave and accompany her.
you don't know how much you made her day by doing so.
this is when the phrase "money can't buy happiness" fits in perfectly.

below is quite true for most females.
sometimes, we females don't say straight to the point because we don't want to be a burden to our significant other.
we say one thing but expect the opposite things to happen.
well,
we're complicated beings.

it will be nice to have our significant other to accompany us to the doctor.

for females,
when our partner falls sick,
we prayed for them.
we can't stop worrying about our partner.
we called to check, we tried anything to soothe his mind and make him recover faster, make sure that he has taken his medicine, etc.

i can't say much about the opposite sex because i'm not them.

i hope the partner and i are able to sustain our love as long as we shall live.

two years back,
while the partner and i were still dating,
we happened to see an advertisement about the old man at the coffeeshop being asked by his friends what his secret? it was the zakat advertisement.
and i said "so when you're old, you will be like them, sitting at the coffeeshop, drinking coffee and talking with your friends"
he: "no, i won't. i will be at home spending time with you."
i was surprised by his answer.
firstly, he was so confident by saying that he will be at home with me, as though i'm his wife. in the first place, we are just dating.
secondly, his reply was sweet and touching.

then recently again,
we saw a group of old men sitting around at the coffeeshop, talking away with their friends.
i said again: "so will you be like them when you're old honey?"
he: "no lah, i will be at home spending time with you."
ok. his answer is consistent, it shows something.
haha.

sweetheart,
let us stay in love and be happy in each other arms for eternity.
you're the one that i was born to love.

=) back to previous post

i am still getting over it.
the fact that i got through.
heh.
you know that excitedness feeling?

next hurdle is the lucky draw,
to pick out 390 from 1,200 people.
i shall see on the 3rd november.

yesterday,
i was pretty tired.
i can't explain what causes it, my body was lethargic and aching.
before i head to bed,
my lovely youngest sister, massaged my whole body.
sisterly love.
she even slept beside me.
thanks fatin!

honey,
i miss you so.
i'll see you really soon!
*hugs & tickles & kisses*
i love you!

AND NOW!
i've qualified for the subaru challenge!

it was really surprising.

i wasn't the first to call.
but the first caller wasn't a singapore.
and i kept on trying,
and yes!

suddenly,
i was on the line with yasminne.
on air.

ok lah, i very slenge i never went on air nor send dedication.
but today,
i made record,
i did both!

syukur alhamdulliah.

that dedication

HAHAHAH!
i can't believe it.
i just send a simple dedication and it was read out.
and the partner instantly called me.
it was on class 95.
my heart beats so fast when yasminne said my name. http://www.mediacorpradio.sg/promos/sms/bulletinboard/class/
i'm still trying to get over it.
i can't stop grinning.
the partner was surprised!
i'm glad he love it.
now, that is an energy booster!
forget my tired body, i'll sleep with a smile on my face.

slenge and so tired driver.

i am totally tired when i get back today.
i am energyless.
it was since morning.

i can sense that bloodflowingsession will start soon.
the signs of lethargicness has begins.
i really can't really bother how i look today.
i am at my simplest.
with my glasses and quite a neat top and pants that goes together which appear casual.
the funny thing was people looked and stared at me.
there were 2 girls who stared at me for a long time in school.
it was a blank expression stare.
there must be something that caught their eyes which i have yet to understood.
maybe it was the oversized glasses.
haha!

i was booked the rest of the day after lecture.
mom asked me to drive her again, to jb.
this time to fetch nenek and bring mama in to shop.

i tell you,
i was sleepy after lecture,
luckily we reached there safely.

on the way back at the customs,
the officer asked: "female outing eh?"
haha.
i replied: girls bonding lah.

yeah, those 8 inside were females.
aging from 3 to 58.





now now,
don't focus on me,
instead focus on mama in,
she was impatient to start shopping thus she calmed herself by watching simpsons.


lastly,
the slenge driver.


ok,
my eyes can't wait to get their rest.
good night readers!

honey,
you're in my mind.

busy weekend.

that friday,
we had a so called awesome time.
once we meet,
we have things to talk about in the blue bus.
why a blue bus?
because nazirah thought we are fetching her by taking a blue bus which she was looking out for it.
haha!
yeah, a "bus" that can contains only 7 people.
she didn't know that i was driving.

knowing that the three of us do not have much energy to walk around town before breaking fast,
as 1 kept complaining that she was tired after a perfomance.
so i brought them to the botanic gardens.
i realised i miss learning about the plants and their characteristics.
those were the days when i had to go to the botanic gardens for lessons and have a long, tiring walk with the lecturer and the bunch of classmates.
we just sat there and talked about the surrounding, talked about what are we gonna have for buka, talked about what are we buying, talked about how many baju raya we have this year? if so, what colours?
so basically,
we were talking about anything.
at the same time, i guess we are also meditating when we are not talking.
the three pictures from the previous post were taken in the toilet.
i like the concept of having different plants in the toilet to beautify the place.
they were using philodendron erubescens, they also hanged some potted plants.
to me, it just brighten up the place.

the partner being a boyfriend who needs pampering (which i don't mind pampering),
asked me to fetch him so as we can break fast together.
after a tranquilizing hour at the gardens,
we head to fetch the partner.

unfortunately,
i couldn't walk around much with the two girlfriends.
i had to fetch my father and send the partner.
basically,
i was an unpaid driver that fateful day.
by the time i reached town again,
nazirah had already gone off.
so,
it was left with me and shikin.
we were both physically tired, our faces proved it.
even though that,
we still want to walk around.
so we head to geylang instead.
well, it was my first time going geylang with a friend.
it was a good experience.
it was a good sharing session on the way to kap mcdonalds for supper.

on saturday,
i had to attend the 6th biannual general meeting for nanyang cc's youth executive committee.
this year we decided to held it at chervons's bowling.
it was a good time getting together with the new committee members while bowling.

yesterday,
the partner's parents, the partner and i went to geylang again.
i am a fussy shopper that the partner had a hard time convincing me.
after hours of surveying,
we managed to get ourselves a decent matching baju sponsored by his parents.
12 more days to raya!
10 more days to his 24!

the one week break is over and school is back to normal starting today.
and i'm glad i had finish the 3 essays.
i'm having a 100 mcq test tomorrow and i have yet to revise about it.
oh man!

i shall get ready for school now.

sweetheart,
it was a messy day.
i admit i was a little moody and some actions might irritate you.
i know my mistakes.
what i was proud of was the end result which both ended our day happily.
thanks for making it better.
i'm not only fussy in shopping.
instead, i'm fussy in everything.
and be proud honey,
that among the fussiness i have over guys,
you are the one that stood out that my heart decide.
i really love you and can never give up on you.