remember this?
the few shots that i have of you.
2 years and a couple of months ago.
and the ring,
remember how we had it on?
i am just going it through my head and i smiled foolishly to myself.
oh darling,
i never expected that of you.
you were sweeet!
i miss the partner.
how i wish he is just beside me,
so i can caress his hair and i can pamper him.
honey,
do get well soon!
it hurts me that i can't do anything much to make you well.
i was going through my emails and i saw the partner's email to me while i went for the japan's exchange.
it was day 1.
"Hi Honey, Its getting late and I'm still at work. Well, you know what, I'm immersing myself in work so that I won't think so much about you. It hurts to feel so far apart. Now I really understand the meaning of absence makes the heart grows fonder."
which he ended off with,
"Love you lots sweetheart! *I suddenly feel emotional when typing this last 4 words*"
when i read the email in japan,
tears were welling in my eyes.
i know the partner meant every word,
i can never find someone who loves me like he does.
the 10 days away from him was bad.
no matter how much i like the japan trip,
it seems as if it was not complete.
i found myself thinking of him all the time.
it was a painful experience.
all those smses and phone calls doesn't make me miss him less.
i yearn for his touch, his warmth, his company.
sweetheart,
i want to spend my whole life taking care and loving you.
thanks for loving me honey.