but i guess he got too tired that he felt asleep.
i wasn't disappointed because i was also sleeping.
it was too nice to resist.
furthermore we'll be meeting up later in the afternoon together with his parents, nenek and the kids to celebrate his dad's birthday.
his mom sponsored everything.
thanks makcik!
here goes,
happy birthday pakcik!
semoga gembira and sihat selalu!
the partner has been lingering on my mind.
i miss his companionship.
and i started to recall those moments i am together with him.
this blog song is dedicated to the partner.
there are some parts of the lyrics that i would like to share.
i could spend my life
just living this dream
you're all I'll ever need
you give me strength
you give me hope
you give me someone to love someone to hold
when i'm in your arms
i need you to know
i've never been
i've never been this close
with all the lovers
i used to know
i kept my distance
i never let go
but in your arms
i know i'm safe
'cause i've never been held
and i've never been kissed in this way
you're all i'll ever need
this is how i feel when i'm with the partner.
even though the song has a sad melody to it,
it still makes me happy thinking about my relationship with the partner.
yes,
i have to agree that i brag about my relationship a little too much in my blog.
it's all because i've never knew love to be this fantastic.
i have gone through several failures in life,
and this relationship shows that it is something in my life that i've done right.
it is one of the things that i'm proud of.
so i hope you understand why it's always the partner.
i can still live on without him but i will always know there's something missing in my life.
because it's with him that i have the best connection with.
i really love him so much that even words couldn't express the whole of it.
i want us to have a bright future together, which our love will never fade nor forgotten.
he's working hard so that he can save money for our marriage.
of course i know it is even harder to save money since he started collecting transformers.
he is torn between his hobby and saving money.
but i know he has been making effort to resist some transformers so that he can save.
he's been making sacrifices,
a lot of it,
for our relationship.
and i have too.
his ultimate aim is always to make me happy being together with him.
which at times he thinks that he's a failure whenever i am upset/angry/sad/frustrated.
he blamed himself for not trying hard enough.
i know he tried all he could but i am just not responding.
i am a person who is hard to pleased so it may take a longer time for me to cool down and laugh about it.
he went through a lot just to make me happy.
even typing this out makes my eyes watery.
i've never love someone as much as i love the partner.
i know i'm giving all i have, my best, in this relationship.
and i know the partner too.
sweetheart,
you must know this,
i always look up to you.
i might be insane at times but deep in my heart, it's you i respect.
it's you who i want to be with for the rest of my life and cherish.
and honey,
you're all i ever need.
i love you baby.