i am back.
to the faithful readers who keeps going to this blog but are disappointed to see that i've privatized my blog,
i'm sorry.
i needed time to understand and digest what is happening to me.
i am sorry to those who has been affected by it.
i've been irresponsible, and unkind.
i'm sorry.
it seems like 2009 is a challenging year for me,
in terms of my relationships.
relationships with the Almighty, my best friends, parents, family, the partner, friends, etc.
if i would have to choose, i wouldn't want this challenge.
it's the toughest.
at times,
i feel like giving up and letting go of everything.
i wished to be dead.
but the Almighty does not think it's time for me yet,
so i have to fight through this battle with His help and guidance.
i have so many to say but i don't know how to start.
whatever it is,
i am glad to feel the Almighty's love.
syukur alhamdullilah.
Ya Allah, berikan lah aku ketenangan di dalam hidupku.
Amin.
