when i get too angry or upset, i don't use my mind.
that includes when i'm too happy also.
it's as if my brain stop functioning and all i can think is dark harmful thoughts.
which is pretty scary because maybe those who committed suicide follow too much on their emotions that the brain is being ignored.
i read something in a book,
"In fact, the Qu'ran condemns people who do not use their minds, and in many of the passages in the Qu'ran, the appeal is made for us to utilize our intellect. If we use it in the right way, trying to get into our basic innate, pure nature, we shall be able to discover the Truth."
sometimes it's hard to excerise what you know is right.
so when your emotions get the control of you,
try engaging mind boggling activities.
like scrabble, sudoku, jokes, spelling, etc.
it will help you feel better.
right now,
i need to change the way i view my life.
i need to brainwash myself.
i need a constant reminder,
to live in the present and to enjoy myself as much as i can with my family and friends.
shikin,
i am glad the both of us are back to normal.
you're a bestfriend that i can't lose because you mean so much to me.
i love you.
as for you,
my partner,
let us help one another to be the best that we can be,
and make every living day a lesson that can be learnt about us, be it individually or as a couple.