i just realised.
it has already been 5 years since i start blogging.
and i can foresee myself blogging for many more years to come.
even when i become a grandmother,
i will still blog to share my experience and my life.
insyaAllah.
when i first started out,
i had long sentences and entries describing my every move,
trying to recall what happened in a day.
and also,
i blog about my past love interest,
what i was going through that period of time.
when i read back,
i think it's boring.
haha.
slowly,
i evolved and started to questioned myself and made myself think.
and i managed to have a purpose for having a blog.
it was only in 2006 that i started to blog about the partner.
and how sweet it was when we both started.
it was unbelievable.
of course it was sweet,
there wasn't any arguments,
sparks were flying everywhere,
butterflies in the tummy,
excited to see one another,
make each other laugh and smile,
kept thinking of one another,
we were blind at each other imprefections,
we were still trying to impress one another all the time,
trying to be the most understanding person to one another.
well,
i guess that occurs to everyone when they first get to know each other better.
a normal process.
puppy love i should say.
give somemore time,
that's when the true personalities and imperfections starts to show.
then you would know whether the both of you are compatible with one another.
whether the both of you can stand one another.
when the years pass by,
the sweetness somehow become comfortable (trying to suit each other),
and slowly conflicts starts to occur.
but hey!
that's life.
when you have 2 people together,
there will be disagreements.
a good example would be parents, siblings, bestfriends.
if you want a peaceful life with no arguments,
live alone.
so what was different then and now?
then,
there wasn't any arguments
now,
there are arguments even at petty things.
then,
sparks were flying everywhere
now,
i guess the sparks has subside but it is still there.
then,
butterflies in the tummy
now,
hmmm.. i guess the butterflies has fly away.
then,
excited to see one another
now,
i am, and i know he is still excited to see me.
then,
make each other laugh and smile
now,
we still make one another laugh and smile.
then,
kept thinking of one another
now,
we still do.
then,
we were blind at each other imprefections
now,
we are blind at each other sacrifices.
then,
we were still trying to impress one another all the time
now,
we still impress one another at times.
then,
trying to be the most understanding person to one another
now,
it's about me, me, me and less you.
haha!
but we are still trying to be understanding to one another.
i should say,
our relationship has gone far.
beyond what we expected.
we have the time of our lives.
and i thought to myself,
what went wrong?
and i have to say,
no offence honey,
but i think
he's weak to give up just like that.
so now,
is he stronger?
ready than ever?
if yes,
thus,
we will have a better relationship.
insyaAllah.
start and end happily.
can our relationship be like that?
we started happily.
can we end (grow old together till we're dead) happily?
only time will tell.
see lah,
i side track too far.
i was supposed to blog about my 5 years anniversary of my blog.
this blog has managed to make me grow in ways i can't imagine and it's been a great comfort.
=)
happy 5th anniversary atirah.blogspot.com!
