happy moments for 15 september was when i managed to complete something that i've set to do.
it was very challenging and alhamdulillah, i've did it.
i've got outstanding things to do.
revise for my mid term,
do my readings,
plan for 2 events,
finalise some things,
reply to emails,
keep track of important dates,
meetings,
redecorate the toilet,
bring mom to daiso and to buy flowers,
sew the coin pouch for the partner.
i am unsure whether i leave anything out.
honesty is the best policy,
i thought to myself since i firmly believe in it.
and i act on it.
raya is in a few days time.
i am not sure whether i am looking forward to it.
to me,
the true essence of raya is being able to forgive and start a new.
to expel the unpleasant things that harbors in my heart and feel like a new person.
and also for me to seek forgiveness with people who i might have hurt them intentionally or unintentionally.
lastly, to work on and improve the relationship i have with others.
the reason why i am not looking forward is because can i bring myself to forgive?
i want to but can i do it?
saying "i forgive you" is easy but to really mean what i say requires a lot.
it means that i need to really throw the reason why i am angry, upset, disappointed in.
so i wont't say it if i don't mean it.
but my heart will try to.
god,
please give me the strength.
