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Thursday, May 21
Tuesday, May 19
the purpose in life
today i began reading,
and i came across something beautiful that got me thinking.
it made feel peaceful and made me filled with aims.
finally, i realised what is my purpose on earth,
being on earth is just preparing me for life after death.
now i know why life is full of challenges.
i'll just have to take on it and improve on myself.
even though i can't be the perfect person i wanted myself to be,
all i know i will give of my best.
i know i can't be free from negative, unpleasant thought.
i'll still be experiencing jealousy, perhaps gossiping, still judge people, etc.
but being on earth makes us have total control over our emotions and actions.
i really wish that i would reach the stage where i don't need to control myself,
it has become automatic.
what do i mean by that?
by going through numerous controlling,
perhaps one day,
the controlling would become automatic,
which i don't need to refrain myself.
i'll just have to accept that everyone is different and keep in mind that everything comes from the almighty.
in short,
i want to cleanse my heart and soul.
heaven,
that's my ultimate aim.
it's only stories that i heard of,
but i'm sure it's beyond words to describe how magnificant it is.
then i was thinking,
of course in heaven you don't want bad people hanging around destroying people's life.
so one must be good, have control and submit to the almighty.
no wonder they say heaven is a paradise.
trust in the almighty.
now i see the light.
syukur alhamdullilah.
honey,
you're in my thoughts.
and i came across something beautiful that got me thinking.
it made feel peaceful and made me filled with aims.
finally, i realised what is my purpose on earth,
being on earth is just preparing me for life after death.
now i know why life is full of challenges.
i'll just have to take on it and improve on myself.
even though i can't be the perfect person i wanted myself to be,
all i know i will give of my best.
i know i can't be free from negative, unpleasant thought.
i'll still be experiencing jealousy, perhaps gossiping, still judge people, etc.
but being on earth makes us have total control over our emotions and actions.
i really wish that i would reach the stage where i don't need to control myself,
it has become automatic.
what do i mean by that?
by going through numerous controlling,
perhaps one day,
the controlling would become automatic,
which i don't need to refrain myself.
i'll just have to accept that everyone is different and keep in mind that everything comes from the almighty.
in short,
i want to cleanse my heart and soul.
heaven,
that's my ultimate aim.
it's only stories that i heard of,
but i'm sure it's beyond words to describe how magnificant it is.
then i was thinking,
of course in heaven you don't want bad people hanging around destroying people's life.
so one must be good, have control and submit to the almighty.
no wonder they say heaven is a paradise.
trust in the almighty.
now i see the light.
syukur alhamdullilah.
honey,
you're in my thoughts.
Thursday, May 14
somehow someway.
some how some way,
my life is changed.
i have no idea what to do.
every steps that i make is confusing.
i don't know and i try not to care.
may this make me closer to god.
insyaallah.
my life is changed.
i have no idea what to do.
every steps that i make is confusing.
i don't know and i try not to care.
may this make me closer to god.
insyaallah.
Wednesday, May 13
kind readers.
dear kind readers,
thank you for your encouraging words.
=)
it helped.
and i have no idea what to blog about.
soon soon.
till then,
take care!
thank you for your encouraging words.
=)
it helped.
and i have no idea what to blog about.
soon soon.
till then,
take care!
Sunday, May 10
a change
i think i should put in more effort when getting ready,
all because of a comment.
i saw a long lost friend 4 days ago,
and she commented that i looked like her future sister-in-law and i looked so mature.
she added that my voice has break.
honestly,
that pierced my heart.
i was hurt yet angry but i didn't retaliate.
i have no idea how to react.
it has been about 6 years that we last seen each other.
but to get that kind of comments was quite offensive.
i mean if you have nothing nice to say about the physical, you can always say about something else.
her comments got me thinking and i shared it with the partner.
and even think to myself,
what did the partner sees in me?
for the mature comment,
i get that a lot.
maybe it's my face shape that makes me look serious and that leads to mature-ness?
i know i am not those good looking girls who would turn heads with their outlook.
i have to say they really have so much time making themselves to look good.
i salute them.
maybe i am brought up in a way that character speaks more than the person's outlook,
and that might be a reason that i don't see a need to look pretty all the time,
also i don't feel comfortable getting looks from people.
i do not want to be noticed for my looks but for my character.
i don't want to be a model,
but a role model.
i constantly challenge myself to improve my character.
i am grateful with what the almighty has given to me.
but that comments i've got still lingers in my mind.
is it because that the world has emphasized on how beauty is important?
looking good is the way to go?
a cycle perhaps?
look good --> feel good?
i kept watching a video of me that was secretly recorded by the partner over and over again.
and i'm laughing to myself.
why?
it's because i was silly.
and i fall in love with myself.
maybe because i love someone who can make me laugh.
i want to live my life filled with laughter.
i love making people laugh,
especially my love ones,
because their laughter is priceless.
i shall head to bed laughing at my silliness rather than the comments that pull me down.
good night readers!
honey,
thank you for accepting me as a real person.
i can promise you laughter for the rest of your life.
i love you!
all because of a comment.
i saw a long lost friend 4 days ago,
and she commented that i looked like her future sister-in-law and i looked so mature.
she added that my voice has break.
honestly,
that pierced my heart.
i was hurt yet angry but i didn't retaliate.
i have no idea how to react.
it has been about 6 years that we last seen each other.
but to get that kind of comments was quite offensive.
i mean if you have nothing nice to say about the physical, you can always say about something else.
her comments got me thinking and i shared it with the partner.
and even think to myself,
what did the partner sees in me?
for the mature comment,
i get that a lot.
maybe it's my face shape that makes me look serious and that leads to mature-ness?
i know i am not those good looking girls who would turn heads with their outlook.
i have to say they really have so much time making themselves to look good.
i salute them.
maybe i am brought up in a way that character speaks more than the person's outlook,
and that might be a reason that i don't see a need to look pretty all the time,
also i don't feel comfortable getting looks from people.
i do not want to be noticed for my looks but for my character.
i don't want to be a model,
but a role model.
i constantly challenge myself to improve my character.
i am grateful with what the almighty has given to me.
but that comments i've got still lingers in my mind.
is it because that the world has emphasized on how beauty is important?
looking good is the way to go?
a cycle perhaps?
look good --> feel good?
i kept watching a video of me that was secretly recorded by the partner over and over again.
and i'm laughing to myself.
why?
it's because i was silly.
and i fall in love with myself.
maybe because i love someone who can make me laugh.
i want to live my life filled with laughter.
i love making people laugh,
especially my love ones,
because their laughter is priceless.
i shall head to bed laughing at my silliness rather than the comments that pull me down.
good night readers!
honey,
thank you for accepting me as a real person.
i can promise you laughter for the rest of your life.
i love you!
Friday, May 8
mothers
since mothers' day is coming,
i've decided to give my 3 mothers a feel good session!
yes,
that's right!
3 mothers.
my mom, my aunt (my mom's twin) and the partner's mom.
syukur alhamdullilah my plans were carried out successfully.
and for them,
i don't mind skipping my lunch, rush here and there, become their driver, lie to them and look horrible.
i place them above my needs.
because today's outing is their day.
i mentioned lie.
why do i mean?
i just didn't tell them the truth.
the reason that i told them i brought them out is because i wanted to find a gift for the partner.
my mom wasn't pleased with me rushing her and dragging her since she still have work to do.
but i just can't tell her the truth.
they have no idea what was it was in store for them.
first up was the partner's mom,
she had an earlier surprise,
on monday,
she was given a facial treatment.
and she was really happy!
at the end of the session,
she said "thank you nurul"
=)
second up was my aunt,
fatin, my sister helped me to carry out this plan.
after driving my aunt and fatin to the location,
earlier i had plan with fatin to pretend to find something for me while i go and fetch my mom.
and fatin suprised my aunt with a makeover!
my aunt was pretty pleased!
look at just how excited she was!
the end result.
what did i told you?
i don't mind not looking good for the 3 ladies.
lastly was my mom,
when i rushed her to a beauty store she was confused.
until she saw her sister being made up.
she was shocked!
and can't stop laughing!
i know she has not been feeling good for so long.
and i hope today made her feel good!
i have to comment that i didn't know my mom can look younger and attractive,
because she rarely made herself up.
well,
she is supposed to be young,
she is just 41.
then off to the second surprise!
i drove the 3 ladies to another location for another activity.
and it was...........
a movie,
kabei,
a japanese movie which touches the 3 ladies.
it was a really nice movie about how a mother made sacrifices for her family.
it was a good choice because the 3 ladies can relate themselves to the movie.
the twins.
i hope that my objectives were being met,
which is to make them feel good and enjoy themselves.
mothers never fail to nag and it can be a little annoying whenever they have their pms.
but there is one thing that is true,
their love for their children is pure.
i as a daughter,
i would like to make my parents' life an easier life.
i know they have been sacrificing so much for me,
which also includes my grandma.
all that they did for me,
one of the ways to repay them is to love them unconditionally and always be there for them.
seeing what my mom went through,
i don't know whether i am strong enough to be like her to endure.
i am glad there's mothers' day,
because we never fail to take advantage of them.
to the 3 mothers,
i love you!
and oh nenek,
i love you tooo!
i've decided to give my 3 mothers a feel good session!
yes,
that's right!
3 mothers.
my mom, my aunt (my mom's twin) and the partner's mom.
syukur alhamdullilah my plans were carried out successfully.
and for them,
i don't mind skipping my lunch, rush here and there, become their driver, lie to them and look horrible.
i place them above my needs.
because today's outing is their day.
i mentioned lie.
why do i mean?
i just didn't tell them the truth.
the reason that i told them i brought them out is because i wanted to find a gift for the partner.
my mom wasn't pleased with me rushing her and dragging her since she still have work to do.
but i just can't tell her the truth.
they have no idea what was it was in store for them.
first up was the partner's mom,
she had an earlier surprise,
on monday,
she was given a facial treatment.
and she was really happy!
at the end of the session,
she said "thank you nurul"
=)
second up was my aunt,
fatin, my sister helped me to carry out this plan.
after driving my aunt and fatin to the location,
earlier i had plan with fatin to pretend to find something for me while i go and fetch my mom.
and fatin suprised my aunt with a makeover!
my aunt was pretty pleased!
look at just how excited she was!
the end result.
what did i told you?
i don't mind not looking good for the 3 ladies.
lastly was my mom,
when i rushed her to a beauty store she was confused.
until she saw her sister being made up.
she was shocked!
and can't stop laughing!
i know she has not been feeling good for so long.
and i hope today made her feel good!
i have to comment that i didn't know my mom can look younger and attractive,
because she rarely made herself up.
well,
she is supposed to be young,
she is just 41.
then off to the second surprise!
i drove the 3 ladies to another location for another activity.
and it was...........
a movie,
kabei,
a japanese movie which touches the 3 ladies.
it was a really nice movie about how a mother made sacrifices for her family.
it was a good choice because the 3 ladies can relate themselves to the movie.
the twins.
i hope that my objectives were being met,
which is to make them feel good and enjoy themselves.
mothers never fail to nag and it can be a little annoying whenever they have their pms.
but there is one thing that is true,
their love for their children is pure.
i as a daughter,
i would like to make my parents' life an easier life.
i know they have been sacrificing so much for me,
which also includes my grandma.
all that they did for me,
one of the ways to repay them is to love them unconditionally and always be there for them.
seeing what my mom went through,
i don't know whether i am strong enough to be like her to endure.
i am glad there's mothers' day,
because we never fail to take advantage of them.
to the 3 mothers,
i love you!
and oh nenek,
i love you tooo!
Tuesday, May 5
Sunday, May 3
the lightning
what i saw and experience yesterday was something that i could not forget.
i was really pleased that it was going to rain when i turn in,
as the sound of rain is a lullaby for me.
however what accompanied the rain were the thunder and lightning.
the lightning was neverending.
honestly i was frightened by it,
i don't even dare to touch my phone for fear that i might be strike by one.
the flashes of light was as if someone had a huge camera and taking a picture.
i tried closing my eyes but i can still see and feel the flashes of light.
i trembled in fear.
to soothe myself,
i recite some prayers.
the works of the almighty is incredible.
i hope yesterday experience changed me.
honey,
it's for your own good.
i was really pleased that it was going to rain when i turn in,
as the sound of rain is a lullaby for me.
however what accompanied the rain were the thunder and lightning.
the lightning was neverending.
honestly i was frightened by it,
i don't even dare to touch my phone for fear that i might be strike by one.
the flashes of light was as if someone had a huge camera and taking a picture.
i tried closing my eyes but i can still see and feel the flashes of light.
i trembled in fear.
to soothe myself,
i recite some prayers.
the works of the almighty is incredible.
i hope yesterday experience changed me.
honey,
it's for your own good.
Friday, May 1
our love cake
we had a short meet up and i can't be happier.
had lunch over at his house and had dinner over at mine.
home cooked food is always the best.
we had a fun activity to do!
we decorated a cake for only $11.80!
the materials given.
the partner and i really had a hard time thinking of how we should decorate it.
well,
it was just for fun, it's for us to eat.
haha.
nothing to do.
the end result.
haha!
we had fun laughing at our butterflies-lost-in-the-jungle theme.
doing it was fun,
using the different colours and cracking our brains what to do.
i think our cake is suitable for kids.
so kiddish and messy.
what can i say?
it was 2 kids at work.
haha.
honey,
i am carefree when i am with you.
had lunch over at his house and had dinner over at mine.
home cooked food is always the best.
we had a fun activity to do!
we decorated a cake for only $11.80!
the materials given.
the partner and i really had a hard time thinking of how we should decorate it.
well,
it was just for fun, it's for us to eat.
haha.
nothing to do.
the end result.
haha!
we had fun laughing at our butterflies-lost-in-the-jungle theme.
doing it was fun,
using the different colours and cracking our brains what to do.
i think our cake is suitable for kids.
so kiddish and messy.
what can i say?
it was 2 kids at work.
haha.
honey,
i am carefree when i am with you.
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