istana!

the chinese new year reception over at the istana lawn was fantastic!
it must be of that standard as the ministers were there.
good tasty food and good speech by the prime minister.

the invitation card.




i was really nervous as i walked alone towards the istana main gate.
i was shivering.
and my heart felt as if it was going to come out of my chest.
the security were really tight.
maybe i felt what i felt because whenever you walked pass those security, they would observed you from head to toe, as if you're a suspicious being.

i thought i was going to be relaxed when i've reached the lawn area.
when i saw the huge red and white tentage, lots of tables and chairs,
i knew i was in trouble.
i don't know where to sit.
it was free seating.
and those people from my cc wasn't there yet.
on a particular table,
i saw 2 ladies in tudung and i head to them.
introduced myself and i found myself a seat.
my table was a mixture of 4 principals and 6 grassroots leaders.
i had a good time interacting.
i think i was the only student there.
all are working adults.
nevertheless, i don't feel neglected.

the food for the muslims.


i tell you,
the istana has a very nice view.
you can see buildings that is brightly lighted.


it was a great experience mingling with such people on such occasion.

my boyfriend sent me home with some detours for supper.
thanks sweetheart.

i'm reading a book about traditional chinese ladies who had their feet bind.
when i finish reading it, i'll quote from the book on how it is done.
they bind their feet till it's 7 cm, about the length of your thumb.
imagine that.

why do my hair keep falling out?
stress?
wrong shampoo?
i don't want to go bald.
haha.

next week is d&d!
i've got my gown and he got his suit.
and i'm still thinking how am i going to do my hair, what flower and colour for the corsage, etc.
i'm excited to dance with him.
hahaha.

gonna continue with the book.
take care readers!

chinese new year

sunday morning,
had a chinese new year celebration over at nanyang cc.
it was free lunch for grassroots leaders and senior citizens
and i've received an hong bao.
haha.

did the 'lo hei'.

i ate it only one bite and....
i'm not eating it anymore.

initially, our plans was to go kite flying.
but it was cancel as his mom asked me along to visit his granduncle house for cny.
fyi,
both of our grandmother are chinese and are raised by a malay family.
the visit was good.
of course, i received the hong bao.
hee.

afterwhich we head to changi airport for popeyes!
honey, switzerland one day?

on the way back, we saw a lot of traffic police.
well, we are not bothered by them but kinda curious.
our curiosity died after we went to the wonderful rooftop garden at marina south pier.
lying on his lap, breathing in the sea breeze, watching the sky up above me just brings me tranquility.
the sight of the half moon and many little twinkling stars was breathtaking.
afterwhich a "boom, boom" came.
it was the fireworks!
simply marvellous!
they were really stunning!!

98% was spent laughing in the car.
laughing at each other.
we were dancing, singing-a-long and being stupid.

boy, we were so silly and having so much fun!
and as usual, someone sang for me.
i love your companionship sweetheart.

yesterday was great.
thanks honey.

reading through my last few entries,
without fail,
there's him, him, him.
one conclusion: being in love with the right one is the best thing that ever happened to me.

hello!

hello readers!
please excuse my absence.
i've been enjoying my past few days.
i feel free as a bird eversince i'm done with attachment.
the presentation went on well.
the trip was awesome.
catching up with friends was fun.
sentosa flowers in bloom was alrite.
wee hours of the 24th morning was magical.
and of course, having my boyfriend with me almost every day is just fantastic!

my february seems so fast.
let the months and years flies,
and then, i'll be rightfully yours.

the trip to genting was fun!
i felt like a child again.
we did so much things together.
and we bowled with his parents.
it has been months since we have those bowling sessions together.







next day, we head to cameron highlands.
that will be my first and last trip there.
why?
cause of the narrow winding road.
i had a terrible headache on the way up.
not only me,
him and his dad too.
his mom power lah.



us having our strawberry ice cream.




even though our stay in kl wasn't long,
it was still great.

fyi, i don't sleep beside him.
instead, i slept with his adorable mom.

next up, met up with my poly friends on my presentation day.
we had so much to talk and laugh about!
i really miss them!

sentosa's flowers in bloom was alrite.
i wish they used different plants instead of annuals.







why was my 24th morning magical?
*smiles to oneself*
that was the most sweetest thing.
i love you baby!

what's next for me?

my sunday morning is reserved for a meeting.
afterwhich we will have a chinese new year celebrations lunch at the community club.
then, then, then,
if the weather permits,
my boyfriend and i will go kite flying!

monday evening, i had an invitation for a chinese new year reception at the istana lawn!
woo hoo!
it's going to be my first time there.
excited.

on the 1st,
going to catch up with joanne (sec sch friend) and suliza.
heading to sentosa again.

on the 3rd,
will be sending sakeenah off as she's heading to australia for further her studies.

on the 6th,
it's dinner and dance at mariott hotel!
i'm bringing him along.
hee.

oh yes,
i was offered to work adhoc at my previous attachment.
the pay is reasonable.
hehe.

so much things to look forward to!
can someone pays me to be myself?
occupation: being myself
haha.
i wish.

ahh yes,
i've learnt to cook to prepare for the future!
haha.
so far, only 3 dishes.
more to come!

it's gonna be a holiday that will be filled with so much activities!

honey,
trust me what i said.
i love you,
with all my heart.
no one else,
except you.
my every days are always filled by you.
you're my happiness and joy.
since you came to my life,
it was never the same again.
you keep me going, all the time.
thanks for loving me.
i know our love will never fade,
before and after marriage.

honey, it's you.
no one else.

back

to all chinese out there,
gong xi fa cai!
i hope your red packets keep getting bigger and bigger.
haha.

my weekends was awesome!
how can it not be great to have my boyfriend besides me almost for more than 72 hours?
and having his lovely parents that never fails to make me at ease and laugh.
one word, grateful.

i'll update more when i've got the time.

great day 140207

my previous post was a way to express my anger.
i'm unsure whether i'm over it.
i'll try not to think of it.

i'm glad that i have friends that try to cheer me up.
thanks estya, jesyln, sakeenah, wahyuddin, miss tek, shikin and suliza.
all of you bring me laughter, to forget about my worries.
thank you.

and of course, thanks to my supportive boyfriend.

on the 13th, i had my 2 besties over for a manicure session!
heee.
it was great.
perhaps we should have more of the gathering.
just a few minutes to 14th, me and my boyfriend got ourselves a watch.
and we truly satisfied with it.

on the 14th,
met him up and boy,
we were wearing the same colour.
it was unplanned.
honey, we're fated lah.
haha.
i knew we're gonna have dinner.
at some place as he wanted to surprise me.

and yes, i was indeed surprise when he head towards the new renovated royal plaza.
we dined at gourmet carousel.
good ambience.
food not much choice.
the important thing was,
i had fun and truly enjoyed myself.

our first plate of food.


the table.


shrimps, paus and dim sums.


our desserts.

pink coloured chocolate. (it's from a chocolate fountain)


fruits.

the melted ice cream.

the couple who isn't sick of oneself and one another.

we ate much more than what was shown in the pictures.

and we walked from scotts till raffles town club.

imagine that distance.

i think we covered 6-7 bus stops.

it was a romantic sweaty walk.

a good exercise.

the 14th of feb ended beautifully.

watched ghost rider yesterday evening.

and it was cool.

something that i thought that i would't like,

but i did.

finally!

friday is here!

our trip is set!

i'll be back on monday.

till then,

take care readers!

unfair

what's with life is unfair?

i really don't know what should i feel.
i'm at a lost.

i believe that i'm better.
but why?

life is unfair is just an excuse.

seriously, if there is something i'm lacking,
i'm willing to learn it.

i did more things.
but why?

is it because of my character?
if it so, do tell me.

i just want to know why i don't deserve it.
even though, it's like a slap on my face.
i just want to know why.
i really appreciate if she tells me why.
cause from there, i'm able to improve myself.

i just don't know.

yeah!

it's over.
yes readers, what you predicted came true.
that's it.
the time is up.
not much last words
it was a happy ending though.
i almost cried.

psst....
i'm refering to my attachment.
my six months with ecoflora is over!
don't worry,
i'm still securely attached to him.

things started to pick up yesterday.
i started to feel good once again.
the nonsensical me is back!
it's just so nice and fresh to be back!

and to make it perfect, we met up!
i had the best time laughing and catching up with him.
it was super fun.
i talked and talked and talked.
i can't help it but to talk.
i had a happy day but he made it happier.

did my application for the 2 uni.
i'll just have to wait and see.

my eyes are tired and my body's lethargic today.
i'll be heading to bed soon.
i can't wait to see him again!
tomorrow.

honey, next week is fast approaching.
and i can't wait to go for our pre-honeymoon.
it's gonna be fun, the four of us.
your parents are simply cute.
i always never fail to laugh when i'm with them.
i love you lahhhhh...

unsure.

my mood hasn't been a good one.
it's one of those days that i failed to see the bright side of life, no matter how hard i tried.
it's just pulling me down into a dark tunnel and there's things for you to grabbed on but you can't.
you just can't.
trust me, i did my best in assuring myself, but there's that tiny weenie part that spoils it.
like the saying goes: "one rotten apple spoils the whole barrel"


after 2 stressful days,
i decided to make today, a day that won't stop me from making myself smile.
i even laughed to myself when i tripped at the staircase.
it was a good laugh.
a laugh that makes me feel good.
being silly for oneself by oneself is fun.


my blog consists of feelings, thoughts and views.
while typing this out,
it stirs up feelings.
my eyes is just filled with tears, not long after, the tears flow.
at times, i just smile to myself.
this blog indeed helped me to express myself.


my colleagues at work treated me lunch at the restaurant, just 200m from the office.
it's vanilla pod.
it was my first time there.
and it was good.
had good food, had good company.



the breaded chicken i had.


a fish dish.


a cake for them.


them

i had to go down to national library as i need to do as-built drawings.
was given a pass that opens the door to the different gardens so that i could double check it.
cool.
nice place, nice scenery.

had breakfast with him before i head for work.
i knew you tried.
i could see.
thanks honey.
it was nice to see you.
yes, more breakfast to come with your wife.
i can't forget that last look on your face.

i'm frustrated with myself.
why couldn't i control my emotions?
why can't i be strong as i used to?
why?
just what's wrong with me?

my aim for tomorrow is to have a happy and fun day!
and i'll make sure i'll achieve it.

honey,
thank you.
you still make my day with those little things.
i love you.

tired.

i'm seriously in need of a rest!
i thought my last few days will be relaxing and easy going.
but but but....
i was so so wrong!
after today, i'm dreading it.
i really can't wait for friday to come so that i'll be alive.

i was pushed to do lots of last minute things.
i've already had my days to come planned out by my director.
i still have one day leave to replace the extra day.
looking at my situation, i can't afford to take the leave.
it's 4 more days and i'll have to give all that i've got.

today i had to go to a site.
most prob, tomorrow too.

i was really tired by the end of today.
when i get home, i get changed and head to my bed.
and sleep.
woke up at about 9 plus.

i think i'm getting sick.
my body is need of a good massage.
my shoulders and neck at in pain.
and my back pain is on.

i feel so weak and lifeless.
i'm hungry but no appetite due to the ulcers.
argh!

honey, i so need that trip with you and your parents.
we both deserve it and make sure we really enjoy it.
2 more weeks!

my boyfriend has been busy since he got his new post.
and i wonder how he managed to work longer hours than me.
at times, i'm just waiting for him to call or even a sms.
because it's always a bad timing whenever i call.
haha.
we are on a different wavelength now.

i'm worried for us.

but on the other hand,
i know we can pull this through. =)
if only you are here staring me in the eyes, you will know how much i miss you.
and i love you too.

i'm hoping for a less stressful day tomorrow.
please, please, please.

smiley day

had a hilarious day out with suliza last friday.
both were already sleepy when met up.
surprisingly, we were awake throughout the whole bus journey.
filled each other with contents of our life.

head to my-all-time-favourite-shopping-centre-since-i-was-young, marina square.
when there's suliza, i gurantee you that it's a sure thing that she will need to go to the ladies first.
decided to watch a movie at 9.10pm, the unseeable.
we came in at 9.28pm as we lost track of time due to our shopping obsession.
just nice, after a few seconds of settling down, the movie just started.
it's a thai horror movie about a lady who is in search of her husband.
both of us were like fools,
hiding behind a windbreaker whenever we heard that the sound effect is increasing.
we even held each other.
the person beside suliza even pointed us to his girlfriend.
i had lots of fun laughing at how silly we were.
thanks sweetie for the gift!
we will have more dates, together with shikin to add in more laughter!

thankfully there's my good looking superhero to send me home.
thanks honey, a little while with you was worthwhile.
my day ended with a perfect note.

i love my saturday too.
went out with mom and dad only.
the three of us.
i felt so loved.
haha.
it was nice to see my parents holding hands.
i think it has been months since i last went out with both my parents.

my sunday?
gonna meet him!
i'm always excited to meet him.
and i love seeing him.
most prob, we will head back to my house to watch singapore and thailand.
will it be another interesting match?
will singapore win it?
just have to wait and watch.

his mom asked me along for a trip during the chinese new year.
it's gonna be great!
cause he's there.
anywhere with him is fun!
4 days together with him (minus the sleeping hours)

being in a relationship,
it doesn't mean it's only you and me,
the two of us.
see the larger picture,
family plays a part.
getting along well with the in-laws-to-be is equally important.
it will be truly hard and it will strain the relationship if either parents dislike.
i've seen it.

i'm truly grateful with what i've got.

while cleaning up, i happened to come across my poly results.
in total,
i have all the grades.
from A to D.
haha.
1 D+
1 C
2 C+
7 B
6 B+
10 A
1 A+
3 AD

some people say i have the smart look.
mind you, i came from normal academic.
aggregate of 172 for psle.
i've been overconfident for my psle.
since then, i've been humble.
certain mistakes are beautiful as they make you learnt a lesson in life.
it's just that it's hard to accept the reality.

i decided to stay up for him till 3am.
while waiting, i change my friendster layout.
kinda pleased with it.
any of you free, go check it out.
haha.

honey, you may never know how much i'll go for you,
because you showered me with lots of love.
i love you too.

attachment

less than 5 days!

while walking towards the office.
i greeted the nursery auntie.
she replied and asked me to follow her.
i did and i was touched.
she took out a red hong bao and gave it to me.

she's already 70 plus and she's still working.
planting plants with her is fun cause we talked and talked.
now that i'm busy in the office, i don't help her.
i'm really going to miss her.

goodbye is never easy.

i'm excited!
going to lsct's d&d with him!
haha.
honey, we're gonna have a fun time dressing up and dancing alright?
one more month.

have a good weekend readers!

i miss him.