girls + botanic garden

it wasn't the end for us.
to be continued....

end of week.

i can't wait for tomorrow!

will be breaking fast with shikin and nazirah.
and the best thing,
is.....
i will be driving
(i hope)

and so yesterday the partner and i watched
i pronounce you chuck and larry.
as usual, when there's adam sandler or ben stiller,
there is bound to be laughter.
well,
it wasn't as funny as i expected.
but it's quite alright.

i'm going through the sensitive period.
so partner, take note.

thanks sweetheart.

here i am struggling with one of the essay.

it so fast that it's already thursday.
and when i look at the calender,
there are many events to look forward for the upcoming months.
it's gonna pass soon and we will be welcoming 2008.

thanks sweetheart for the meet up.
i love you still.

him, the partner

i'm taking a break from the essay.
i still have so much to do.

apart from the unfinished assignments,
i miss the partner.
he's been filling my mind.
when i think of love,
i think of him.
i browsed through our photos and i can't help it but to smile.

our love journey is filled with lots of events,
we had ugly arguments that unleash our true selves.
trust me, our arguments are always an unpleasant sight.
it could simply break us.
thankfully we are strong to make argument as a stepping stone to improve our relationship.

honey,
i can never love anyone else more than you.
you're my best boyfriend ever!
my heart is yours.






baby,
i love you.

monday

mom asked me to drive her to jb.
she has an errand to do and also has to shop for our raya clothes.

i love driving the second link.
mom kept looking at the speedometer which was pointing above 110km/h
but she didn't say anything.
man, it was great!

the sisters, mom and i managed to get a pretty looking baju kurung each.
now i'm thinking how can the partner matches his clothes with mine.

i'll be heading to geylang this sunday,
together with the partner and his parents,
on a mission to find our couple baju.

it will be the third time i'll be spending my raya with him.
well, 2 years as a couple,
1 year dating.
that was the first time i met his parents.
i was in an awkward situation.
for the both of us, we were experiencing uncertainty,
still unsure on how the other is feeling.
once, the partner winked at me,
and i was thinking to myself "is he right?, is he trying to flirt with me?"
haha!
i just gave him a blank expression.

i'm trying to concentrate on completing one essay.
i hope i can accomplish that.

sweetheart,
what do you see in me?

awesome fun!

happy 10th birthday nurul fatin syazwani!
which falls on the 22nd sep.
be a good girl and work hard!
keep rocking "golem"!

i must admit,
i just had an awesome time with the partner a few hours ago.

and i realised,
i love laughing.

i can never go through a day without laughing.
be it at myself or other things.

and the partner laughed at me when i said i have a good sense of humour.
instead he said i have a good sense of imagination.
wah... thank you ah partner.

we had a trip to the national library to research for some relevant books for our individual's assignments.
i think it was the partner longest time in the library, 2 hours.
i'm pretty sure.

afterwhich head over my house to break fast.
and we attended a lantern festival right across my house.

we received 2 goodie bags which includes a lantern, candle, a stick, a bun, water, etc.
we didn't go around with our lantern lighted because neither of us has deprived childhood.
hah!

i had a "greats" (yes, it's with the 's', only the partner and i know why) time listening to the partner sharing about a show he watched.
the place was so loud that it muted my laughter which i laughed like nobody's business.

i told you that i was awarded $x.
and i received it today!









weee...
i already have plans with the $$$$.
heh!

there was a magic show.
and man!
the partner and i automatically laughed when he spoke.
"i hope you guys are having a "greats" time."
and some other errors he made in his pronunciation.
he asked a boy to went on stage.
the magician: what is your name?
boy: gabriel
the magician: his name is gabel (which he pronounces as cabel)
boy: gabriel
the magician: (upon giving up on pronouncing 'gabriel') let's clap for him.
it was really entertaining.

lesson for today: laugh!

hun,
it was fun making fun of each other.
laughing at each other mistakes and silly moments.
i'm too comfortable with you.
in other words,
i love you.

smile and the world will go round

i eat to think that i'll grow taller.
conclusion:
i'm not fat,
i'm just not tall enough.

the whole of next week, i have to spend it on 3 essays and 3 project works.
what's pressurizing is:
getting great fantastic grades.
and keeping in mind that i don't stray when i write them.

it's easy to score full marks with formulas,
mathematics that is.
once you're right,
you're right.
for languages,
you have to understand it and and being able to defend your answer intelligently.
god save me please.

do you noticed how fast does a week pass?

sweetheart,
a date with you cures everything.

sweetness

i had a good fun sharing session cum breaking fast with nurul yesterday.
i had the kfc chicken.
don't ask why i like their chicken so much.
perhaps that's my hobby.

even though we know each other a month plus,
i just know that our friendship will go far.

still in the half awake mode, i woke up in the morning and read the sms.
i was still blur but i can make out what the message said.
a wide smile appear on my face after reading the partner's sms.

i reread it again making sure that i interpret it correctly.
still, the smile appear.
even wider now since i was 3/4 awake and i really understood the sms.

"i love you baby...more than anything in this world."

the simple sentence means a lot to me.

sweetheart,
you mean the world to me.
i love you too.

tired sleep

i was in the library,
slacking as i was having 2 hours break.

i got pretty tired that i took a nap.
i can't believe when i woke up!

my eyes went big!

the partner will understand the term big here.

it's already 11.55am!!
i'm having a lecture at 12 noon.

if you could see my panic face and reaction.
it was funny i tell you.
i was still in a daze and still accepting that i slept in the library while i'm walking towards the lecture theatre.
thank god,
angeline saved a seat for me.
thank goodness i didn't miss the lecture.
i can't wait to sleep tonight so as i'll be fresh tomorrow. (i hope)

blogging about what to wear on yesterday's post,
i didn't wear skirt.
i wore pants instead.

ok and so the partner sms me about a dream he had last night.
i must tell you,
it's kinda sweet even though i wasn't the one dreaming.
but imagining it is enough.

i recorded as much simpsons shows in star world.
and will only watch it at night before i head to bed.
i had a good time laughing to myself.
if only the partner could join me and laugh along,
i'll just have to wait till we're together legally and i can spend most of my time with him.
another good show is malcolm in the middle,
a show that will gurantee you to laugh.

i'm getting sleepy now.

darl,

i really hope the dream come true.

well, it will come true,

just a matter of time.

experiencing it will be over the moon.

so we, together, have to prepare for it!!!

confirm, chop, it's you!

nothing much

i have nothing much to blog about.

was supposed to meet up suliza and joanne.
but it was postpone as joanne's grandma fell down.
jo, i hope it's nothing serious.

i will have a long and tiring day tomorrow.
and i don't know what to wear tomorrow.

i bet you didn't know that i took at least 30 mins to pick my clothes.
if i were to decide today,
i might not be wearing that tomorrow.

i think i wanna wear the skirt bought by the partner.

i've got a scary nightmare.
my friends and i were having an outing to a mountain that is snowy.
we were in a glass cabin which would bring us to the top.
but we never reached the top.
3/4 of the journey,
the glass cabin overturned.
some friends were dead,
headless, armless.
their clothes were buried underneath the snow, shoes were scattered everywhere.

maybe because of the budget airline that crashed in phuket that influenced me to dream in such a way.

now i'm having second thoughts whether i should go for the trip at the end of the year.

i had my modernization module in the day,
today topic was how islam influenced the malays.
like what one of my friend said,
"macam belajar madrasah in english" (like learning religious class in english)
it was interesting.
the lecturer was going through the social values and ideas in islam, the five pillars, etc.
it was a refresh for me.

and i learnt something.
when one strives, one learnt so much.

sunday,
the partner and i were walking around in lucky plaza
when a filipino guy and lady talked to us in a foreign language.
we gave them a blank stare, walked away and laughed hysterically.
hahaha!

sweetheart,
i'm sorry.
thanks for the second part of the day.
it was enjoyable.
i really love you with all my heart,
and i know you do too.

weekend

after friday, i've been physically weak maybe due to the insufficient sleep, long hours in school, carrying 2 heavy bags.

the partner decided to buka puasa over at my house.
thus i met him at the interchange.
seeing how tired i am,
he automatically carried both of my bags without me asking him to.
one is a laptop bag, the other a pink flowery bag.
thank you lah darling.

had great of silly teasing and being disgusting.
mind you i was really weak,
but he energized me, a little.

yesterday the saturday,
he fetched me to his house to break fast together with his parents.
afterwhich watched man u's match and head off to geylang serai.
it was the same old thing over and over again.
every time i visited geylang,
there's a mixed feeling,
it sets me that mood for raya celebration to get excited
but also, the after effects (sweating after squeezing through hundreds of people)
aiyo atirah, no people, how to set the mood?

what put me off is those people who has unpleasant taste in dressing.
mind you,
if you want to wear the way you wear, go clubbing.
it's the holy month.
do show some respect to the other muslim counterparts.
i know you love your body so much that you wore what you wore.
but don't you feel that shame?
or well, do you have no shame?
that self dignity.
i felt shame for you.

i'm sure some of you have experienced such incident that makes you ashamed of your race.
but it seems that they, the one who shamed it, doesn't do anything to change it.
instead, they are proud of it, their uniqueness.

i doubt those people read my blog.
thus, they won't improve themselves.
i have nothing against them,
it's just the way they dress.

i admit,
i, myself don't don the tudung.
but at least,
i have my self respect.

enough of my sermon.
now think, how to change the community.
haha.

oh yes,
i have an assignments for one of my module.
any leftie here?
could you email me what are the difficulties you faced in a right-handed friendly world?
thank you so much!

i've received the letter that stated i received $x.
woo hooo!
i wanna use it for the trip at the end of the year.
syukur alhamdulillah.

honey,
you're my strength.
you know you are.
i thank god for you.

mc fastly.

for the first time in nurul atirah's history,
she ate mcdonald's breakfast for sahur.

what influenced her?
the mcdonald's irresistable coupons and also her cravings for hotcakes.

how did she get her food?
instead of dialling 6777 3777 because the coupons can't be used for delivery,
she drove herself and her youngest sister to the nearest mcdonald's outlet.
knowing that her parents will have to use the car by 4.30am,
thus her sister and her had to go out earlier.
since mcdonalds serve breakfast at 4am,
the both of them head out at 3.48am without taking a shower.

but it was all worth it.





nurul atirah didn't have a good sleep due to her excitedness for the hotcakes,
and she was up since 3.30am.

she has class from 9am.
god bless her cause she's having lessons till 6pm.
she kept on yawning now.
if someone offers her a bed,
she might doze off.

anyone who wants to buy a crumpler bag at a cheaper price?
first step: visit www.crumpler.com.au for the catalogue.
second step: email hollymetal@hotmail.com on your enquiries.
*ps. he's my brother.
he asked me a favor to post it on my blog.

oh yes, nurul atirah wishes her friends who are unwell to get well soon!

nurul atirah wishes abdul mutalib to get well soon!
she misses him.

berpuasa

selamat menjalankan ibadah puasa!

and so the fasting month has arrive.

it gives me a motivation to catch up on my spiritual being.
i am not perfect, not close to it.
i have yet to control my feelings and thoughts.

i was a little upset when i went for tutorial,
i stayed up late and woke up early to do research on the malay culture,
at least, i have something to talk in class.
but!
the tutor said that since the lecturer just covered a portion of it,
we have to bring the discussion next week.
ok i got it,
don't be hardworking. (kids, i was just kidding)
i felt cheated in a way.
haha.

i wore a baju kurung for tutorial yesterday.
maybe because i ran out of ideas and i only came to school for an hour and a half.
it is seldom you caught me wearing jeans and tee shirt.

ok,
i was sleepy, tired and hungry as of that time.

boyfriend,
i love thou.

soup

i had a detour before getting home.
the partner called me during lunch to inform that he doesn't have classes at night.
knowing i have a meeting today and tomorrow,
i met him up.
he promised me a mushroom soup.

head over to his house.
he went home, curling on the couch.
he has got a fever.

i'm sure every girl lady can't stand seeing their partner suffer,
so he was pampered.
i took a basin of cold water with a cloth and place it on his forehead.
after much stroking of his hair, replacing the cloth and a touch of love.
thank goodness,
he was so much better.
the fever has subsided.

do onto people what you want them to do onto you.

i mean if i'm unwell,
i would want the partner to pamper me, to check on me, to be there for me.

he fulfilled his promise.
i ended my day with mushroom soup prepared by him.

oh god, oh god!
it's a month less to his birthday and i haven't think how to celebrate.

sweetheart,
i know i'm not an easy person to love.
but you stole my heart again and again with those simple actions.
it shows that you're loving me the right way.
good luck for your paper!

the partner's back!

the partner is back and he bought a pretty skirt for me!
it was too pretty that i couldn't resist to wear it today.
i felt really good wearing it that i took a different route home.

fetched him yesterday night once he reached singapore.
i know he's tired (because he push the seat back and close his eyes while i was driving away) but he insisted to have dinner together.
that interlocking of fingers were good.
=)

estya sound so cheerful when she called me.
i really like that 'pretend to be worry-free' her.
she is energetic with life after her bonding sessions.
you should have more of that!

lecture was a bore today.

i tried being attentive,

i was a failure in that.

she talked and talked till my mind simply turn off.








i was bored and editted the above pictures.

the outcome:



mutalib dearest,
i know our love is true.
that sincerity gives me trust in our relationship.
i can never be happier with you loving me wholeheartedly.
you're my purest joy!
thanks baby!

weekend w/o him

my saturday was good good.


accompanied shikin for her shopping therapy.
and i managed to owe a good looking top at only 10 bucks.

i learnt something.
it doesn't matter how cheap or expensive the clothes are,
it's how you managed to wear it well.
how you carry the clothes while wearing it.
i admit i used to splurge on expensive branded stuffs, eg, roxy, ripcurl girl, mambo.
those silly secondary days.
but i don't need them anymore to boost my self esteem.
let say,
i'm wiser.
haha.

shikin has 2 new friends that is estya and jeslyn.
the four of us distressed by sharing unplesant stories.
weee...
it was fun wasting time with them.

managed to take a shot of jeslyn.




our desserts!




estya insisted that she's paying for our dinner.
thanks estya!

the partner didn't forget me while he's away.
he constantly pampering me with his sincere smses and soothing calls.
yesterday,
he called me to help him choose what to get for me.

darling,
even though i have my friends.
they can't replace you because you belong to me.
if i could,
i would share my every seconds with you.
while i'm having fun,
you're still on my mind.
you're the second in my mind.
the first, god.
i love you baby!
see you soon!

without god,
i wouldn't have met you.
i thank god for you.

girlfriends

my weekend plans are going on smoothly!

look at the person in the background.


weird but i think i'll look like nazirah if i were to put on the tudung.



the most tiring laughing session!

someone who is missing: suliza!
there would be even more laughter if she's around!

shikin and me waited till the midnight bus again.
we even had the bus driver to forgo his usual route and drive us directly home as we're the last 2 persons in the bus.

baby,
you're greatly miss.
*hugs&tickles&kisses*

the boyfriend part II

i'm just home.

the partner requested me to fetch him from nyp after a soccer match.
i already did my research on getting to nyp.
had all the directions written down to make sure i didn't get lost.
courtesy of www.streetdirectory.com

while having my nap,
the partner called.
him : honey, i'm not going for soccer
me: why not?
him: i wanna spend time with you

automatically, i beamed.
and i'm smiling now.

instead of fetching him,
he fetched me.
he looked so different due to his haircut.
so cina and neat.

we decided to watch evan almighty.
well,
not really recommended!
it's not that humorous.
ok-ok only.
no omph.
simpson is more hilarious.

we visited his fun place,
the arcade!
haha.
my partner is a kid.

and he already hinted me what to get for his birthday presents.

i always thought that couples who are in love talked for hours on the phone.
but the partner shows me that it's not necessary.
the most we talked for was less than an hour, once.
we don't talk much.
normally, it's less than 5 mins.
but our love is amazing.

honey,
i'm totally happy.
i truly enjoyed myself and i treasured every minute of it.
thanks for loving me.
i love our relationship.
it is not perfect,
but it's the best for me.
be safe,
i shall see you on sunday!
i love you.

the boyfriend

less than 24 hours,
the partner will be hundreds of kilometers away from me.
his soccer team was rewarded to 3 days, 2 night at kl.
so yeah.

i already have my weekend planned out so that at least time will fly faster when i'm having fun.
and all i know,
my partner is back!

there are so many things to look forward to when it comes to the end of the year.
1. my 21st birthday! *which have yet to be plan
2. hari raya haji!
3. a trip! *with my girlfriends or perhaps the partner and his parents will be following
4. great singapore sale! *shopping therapy
5. one year down in becoming a mrs!
6. one semester down!

i can't wait to graduate, then earn money.
the purpose: to spend
which i have to remember to set aside at least 20% for savings.
no savings = hard future
the partner and i sort of have planned our future together on how to allocate our income.
planning is good but not implementing is a waste.

i'm waiting for a letter that stated i've been awarded $x.

got to revise my notes for quiz tomorrow!

sweetheart,
i.will.be.waiting.for.your.return.
enjoy!
*hugs&tickles&kisses*

i'm with him

it was a smooth, easy and great day for me despite the long hours in school.
i started at 8 am and finished at 6pm.
but i stayed a little longer to see the partner.
he had a soccer match over at my school.
how can i not be excited?
because i'm able to meet him after 2 days.

and i left school at about 9.45pm.
13 hours in school.

we had dinner together.
it was a quiet dinner.
he's worn out with soccer since morning while i just have nothing much to talk.
but i know we enjoyed each other companionship.

the ride home was fun.
maybe after food, we had the energy.
we laughed and we talked and we sang.

i love the phrase when he said,
"when i'm married to you, ......"

i, then remember the times when we were dating.
how suddenly our fingers interlocked.

the feeling was oh so right,

that it seemed like there was a force which made us held hands.
and there was fireworks in my stomach that it could make me fly.
i truly like the both time when we first held our hands together.
yes, we had 2 first time.

darl,
i like the way you acknowledge me when i came to see you.
the way you looked at me from faraway.
you waved at me and i can see your face lighten up.
i felt so significant.
thanks for being the best man who can make me sane after a rough day!

independent

it's almost a month since i started school.
and things are a getting a little panicky now.
i just realised that i'm having a test/quiz this friday.
and there are plenty of deadlines to keep note of.
a sense of overwhelming fear strikes me.
i have need to be strong.

i woke up today hungry.
and now which three quarter of a day has pass, i'm still hungry.

what i look forward while having the monthly leakage, apart from the swollen eyes which are tired from the silly tears and the painful menstrual cramps is pampering myself.
i eat as much as i want, be a little lazy, and dress up without having to pray.
it only happens for a week though.

now now now,
i had a terrible cramp yesterday.
and when it comes,
the toilet seems to be like the best place to be in.
it just so soothing.
once i'm out from the toilet,
the pain is back.

then it strucks me,
how about child birth?
with hours of contractions.
i'm not too sure whether i can bear the pain.

so is it easier to be a man?
earn money for the family?
and to go along with their wives unpredictable mood swings?

i really sympathize with the ladies in this modern society.
not only we have to suffer monthly pains, most of us have to work, be it housework or jobs.
should we say we are more hardworking and more capable than the men?

no offence guys, but i think so.

misunderstanding

i felt bloody low.
yesterday that was.
i always have crying spells whenever i'm pmsing.
it's really amazing how does the brain managed to make us feel.
if only i can control that emotional part.
it was really irritating when i tried to be optimistic but then, at the back of my mind,
that little bug started to make me worst.
i'm a human afterall.

and today,
i'm gay!
thanks to miss shikin.
i had what i indulged for.

i can't wait for my dates with several girls in the weekend!
because the partner will be away.

sweetheart,
time and time again,
it strengthen our love.
and i'm glad i'm yours.

slack

with our hectic schedules,
both the partner and i don't have much freedom to spend time with one another like we used to.
the days that guarantee me to see him is only the weekends.
the weekdays are pretty unpredictable.
it's not that bad though cause we still communicate with one another.
i should be thankful that he's done with his ns.

i'm sure it's hard for my girlfriends who has a boyfriend in ns,
they had to occupy their time with something else so as to lessen their misses for their other half.
i never experienced it but i feel for them.

yesterday,
i went over to his house for a kenduri (family gathering)
by now, i know most of his relatives.
yesterday was a little awkward because i'm not too sure who to hang out with.
the adults or the children.
i was stuck in the middle.
if i don't help out in the kitchen,
it will portray a certain impression. (eg, laziness, etc)
if i don't mingle around, again it arouses another impression.
i balanced it out and
alhamdulliah,
it went well.
i foresee more of it in the future.

every sunday is a slacking day.
happy slacking!