i'm excited!

i am excited to have fun with the partner!
=D
there's a family day at sentosa today,
and please don't rain.
=)

but before i can have fun,
i had to do a last rehearsal for the lion dance performance.
so i can only join him in the afternoon.
and if we got time,
we might drop by vivo and see this year couple challenge.

talking about the lion dance,
tomorrow is the day!
details below!
http://www.wincouncil.org.sg/events/view/win_council

anyway,
my dearest sisters accompanied me to bugis to get a dress.
and i had to treat fatin to sticky chewy chocolate since she get a math question right.
i mean the first question she got it wrong,
so the next i made it a little tricky and told her if you get the next question right, i'll treat you.
aiyo,
she got it right lah.
so the poor sister had to treat her.
now i learnt my lesson,
not to be overconfident.
haha.
oh yes,
thank you syafiqah!

i have to get ready now.
have a great weekend readers!

honey,
you never failed to show me what love is.

supper

it's now 12.51am,
and i am just back 30 mins ago.

blame it on the misses,
after the meeting,
i met up with the partner for supper.
=)
since he's craving for indian rojak and bandung,
we head to west coast.
the taste of the gravy plus the food item and onion,
just so nice!
plus have him so fun and nice!

afterwhich to west coast mac since i had to do an online discussion with my group mates.
the partner was kind enough to walk around and find power point for me.
thank you honey.
of course we get ourselves,
ice cream cone.
we're lucky that the guy gave us a lot of ice cream.

and i send him home.
=)
that's the end of my day.

somehow,
i feel like my luck is changing.

honey,
i can't wait to make more plans with you.
=)

rainbow

i didn't think of blogging for the 2nd time today,
but i can't wait to share what i've seen.

when mom went home today,
she said "look, there's a rainbow!"
and so i went to the window and to my surprise,
there is a rainbow,
it is in a semi-circle shape and the colour is so visible that i can name all the 7.
red, orange, yellow, green, blue, purple and violet.

it was a breathtaking sight!


the other side of the rainbow.



subhanallah

and so i asked the partner to see it and i'm glad to that he is able to witness it too.
he called me and we shared what we felt about it.

seriously,
i felt like a small girl who can't get away from the window.
whenever i see it,
i would just stared at it, smiling.

honey,
you're my rainbow which i can't get enough of.
just like the rainbow,
you're a beautiful soul.

morning = you can do a lot of things

good morning readers!
well, by the time some of you are reading this,
it will be in the afternoon, evening, night.
so good morning/afternoon/evening/night my dearest readers!

the weather has been really unpredictable isn't it?
it can either be scorching hot or too wet.
well,
it's a process i think.
when it is too hot,
more water can be evaporated and so the clouds will be filled with water,
it's just a matter of time when the rain comes down.

yesterday night,
i brought my sisters and atiqah to the nearest shopping mall.
why?
to get oreo cheesecake and also i managed to get macdonald's ice cream cone.
gosh,
i am an addict.
oh wait wait,
i am not an addict because i don't depend on the cheesecakes all the time.
my body and life can still function without it.
still in the topic of addict,
i guess i am addicted to the partner,
i truly depend on him.
without him,
i can't function.
so all in all,
i am an addict (to the partner)

i bought meiji chocolate milk,
recommended by the partner and my friend.
my friend, camellia said that meiji milk tastes much better than this 'X' brand.
and so while walking past the shelf,
i saw the promotion and without hesitation, i got it.
i never like milk.
i don't know why, maybe the taste.
even though in primary school when we can order milk from school and which every week we will be given a packet of milk to drink, i didn't drink it.
i remembered drinking it once, and i don't like the taste.
so i still continue ordering the milk and let my family members have it.
anyway,
i have to start loving milk for the benefits of my bones.
and so last night i've tried the meiji chocolate milk.
it's good,
and i'm starting to get used to the taste.
=)
i'll be drinking it in a while and also eating the half cheesecake that i saved for today.

and today,
i'm going to do a whole day revision.
i have to since i have 2 mid term exams next week.

honey,
i took the 3 words uttered by you every night before i head to bed for granted.
the 3 words 'i love you' is a basic thing to show that you reassure me,
but i didn't realised that,
until last night.
the 3 words speak of a thousand things that you've done, sacrifice for me.
the sweat, the cries, the smiles, the frowns, your time.
thank you honey.
i owe so much to you.
and all i can give you is my love.
i love you so much.

sorting things out

woah!
i've spend half of the day sorting things out.
there's gonna be a flea market on 1st march 2009 at toa payoh hub.
=)
and so the donations we got from the public,
i help to sort out the prices.
there were so many things.
aiyo,
backache oh.

below are the amount of plastics bags.


and there were only 2 of us sorting the clothes, bags, and others.

i must say i fancy some of the items.
i guess i'm gonna buy it on the 1st.
haha.

now now,
i should get back to revision.

honey,
i'm glad i'm yours.

the quick lunch

i had a lot of to do lists today,
which includes,
collecting library books from the partner so i can return it,
buy textbooks from 2 different places,
get a new charger for my laptop,
tuition.
thank goodness,
dad allowed me to use the car.
if not,
it would take me a longer time to reach places.

while i was on the way to take the car,
something strucked me!
haha.
it's to have a quick lunch with the partner!
so i tapao food from dad's stall and we ate it near his workplace.



glad he was touched by it.
=)

while driving back to return the car,
i've got a craving.
it'sssssss......
macdonald's ice cream cone!


and right now,
my butt and elbow still hurt.
=(

honey,
i just can't wait to see you again!

that uneventful night

it was a stupid night at vivo after a great dessert at island creamery.
why?
because i slipped on a vomit.
i didn't even see there's vomit because it blended in with the flooring.
yucks!
simply disgusting!
what annoyed me was the stupid parent of the child who vomitted.
he gave a quiet laugh at me while i fell down.
that was pathetic, doesn't he feel any compassion for me?
the one who hurt my butt and elbow?
the one who stained her blouse and pants with his child's vomit?
unfortunately,
there were a lot of onlookers.
thanks goodness the partner upon seeing me on the floor,
he helped me up and guide me to the toilet to clean the stains.
ok we weren't holding hands because we have atiqah in the centre and futhermore i was holding a cup of ice.
when i fell,
everything seems to be in a slow manner,
i was trying hard to get my balance,
i was flapping my hands in the air and i must looked so awful.
in the end,
i had to give in to gravity.

when we were at the baby's diaper area,
i can't help it but to cried on the partner's shoulder.
i felt so embarrassed, dirty and angry at the stupid father.
argh!
all the stupid father gave was a soft sorry.
that's all?
a sorry for falling on his son's vomit?
can't he even put something on top of the vomit to warn others?
i am really angry,
even right now.
*!@!!!^&*@!!!!!!!!!
a clown doesn't even have to fall on a vomit.
i really hope that the stupid father get to experience what i felt.

and the almost the whole night is spoilt because of that one incident.
since i was sending the partner home,
i dropped by his house to take a shower.

away from the angry incident,
below are pictures taken.



mudpie!

atiqah really enjoy this cosy drawing/reading corner.


her rounded cheeks.


and tomorrow,
which is today,
i'm going to travel places to get things done.
aiyah.

the partner really did helped to calm me down, cleaned the stains and reassured me.
he knows that i'm clumsy and silly,
and he still loves me.
thanks honey.

*sighs*
what is happening to me?

honey,
lesson learnt: we must hold hands no matter what.

the ups and downs

so my last entry was on thursday,
let me recall how my friday was.
hmmmm....

oh yes,
i had lion dance training.
another 3 more and we're done!
haha!

and the ladies had a birthday celebration for mayor,
dr amy khor.




she was so pleased with her present.
=)


after the training,
the partner who had a long, tiring day fetched me.
we were supposed to plan for our upcoming japan trip.
however we ended up being in an angry mood with one another.
it was horrendous,
all because of a sentence.
i have to say i'm ashamed of myself,
i don't even know how to react,
maybe it's because i always depend on the partner to make the first move to calm me down,
not in this case.
this time around he needed me,
but i didn't do anything.

i knew he was badly hurt.

and i felt really useless not being able to understand how he felt, what he wanted.
in the end,
we managed to work things out and we're good.
we continued to have supper,
indian rojak and kway teow at west coast.
and also we managed to discuss about our japan trip.
=)

that night touched me,
when i hugged him,
i could smell his sweat,
why?
because he rushed back from a meeting just to meet me,
he walked as fast as he could to shorten the time i had to wait.
even though he had a long day at work,
he still want to meet me.
he do all he can to please me.
why did i do in return?
i make him sad that he can't control his emotion.

i realised i wasn't being fair to him and i was at my worst behaviour.
suddenly,
what he had been saying made sense.
slowly,
i managed to build up my confidence and asked for his forgiveness,
what touches me was three words.
"i forgive you"
that three words makes me tear.
how can someone accept my apologies just like that?
it definitely take time for someone to accept it.
but he said it with honestly that i can't help it but to cry and be grateful.

god, why am i always asking so much from him?
i felt helpless looking at him that night.
i don't know what to do, how to react.
can you please guide me to become the best wife for him?
he deserves that.

and so today,
the partner fetched me and since i'm craving for macdonalds ice cream cone,
he accompanied me to get one.
in the end,
we had cheeseburgers to fill our stomach followed by ice cream cone!
=)
afterwhich we fetched his mom and head to book for our japan trip.
at last,
we have confirmed our dates, flights and hotel!
=D
thank you guys for voting us in the contest last year.
the let love be your muse contest.
because of you guys,
we are able to go to japan.
thank you!

at night,
we sweat and smell masam-masam together.
we played floorball!
hooooweeee!
fun lah!
and the teasing never stop even whe we're playing game.
just now,
i caught him tickling me while i had the ball.
and at one time we were at the same team and he shouted out for "bee, bee" while me "honey, honey"
and we even got teased by my yec members.
haha.
i really enjoyed my floorball sessions with the partner around.
he added spice to it.

past weeks ago,
the partner has been given a chance to work nearer to my house.
he will be starting real soon.
and the both of us are pretty excited to it.
with the upcoming jobscope,
he had advise me that he might not have time for me,
which i have to understand.
we would be like "so near, yet so far".
he was also thinking of investing on a bicycle so that he can cycle back to my house after work to take a nap.
haha.
and i can foresee sending him back home at night.

honey,
whatever happens,
i will always be there for you.
i promise.
you're my angel who teach me the meaning of undying love.
i love you for life.

time with him.

after tuition earlier,
i met up the partner to watch valkyrie.
it seems like so long since we watched a movie.
the last was love matters.
this year,
we're trying our best to cut down on our expenditure, especially on movies.

so after the movie just now,
it spurs us to get into an interesting discussion about history.
haha.
and the partner had to use his 'rusty' secondary history on me.
while i on the other hand,
who took geography,
doesn't have much to add in except to ask questions.
what was similar between us was that we both like watching war movies.
not that we like to watch people suffer but we enjoyed watching how the other nations reacted to a certain event, etc.

we had a quick dinner and dessert.
and we walked home from jurong point to my house,
which took us approximately 35 mins.
while walking,
we talked and discussed about things.
parents, schools, us, children, etc.
all those talks don't make us feel tired and time seems to fly.
oh yes,
we teased one another too.

i really enjoyed those talking sessions.
it opens us up and it make us feel closer, bonded.

honey,
i am starting to fall in love with you all over again.

the choices.

so today i managed to see a snippet of the sun set in between blocks.
right away i sms the partner,
honey, one day we watch the sunset together ok? one of my to do list.

and i've got a reply that made me feel good inside.
ok baby =) i love to do that too esp with you

a sunset.
maybe it's the colours that attract me.
orangy against the blue sky.
and also i want to witness god's creation with the partner by my side.
to be awe by the marvellous sight.
sunset, stars, mountains, glaciers, and those along that line.

today in tutorial,
the class had to rank a list of characteristics that we look in a potential mate or marriage partner.

kind and understanding. good housekeeper. university graduate. religious. intelligent. physically attractive. exciting personality. good earning capacity. healthy. creative and artistic. wants children. ambitious. easygoing. good heredity. respectful to elders.

mine is as follows,
with the no 1 being the most important.

1- religious
2 - kind and understanding
3 - respectful to elders
4 - wants children
5 - healthy
6 - good earning capacity
7 - good heredity
8 - intelligent
9 - ambitious
10 - physically attractive
11 - easygoing
12 - good housekeeper
13 - creative and artistic
14 - exciting personality
15 - university graduate

firstly it was hard ranking them since everything is important.
while doing this,
i shun the characteristics of the partner so as i can answer it as if i'm single.
i don't want to be influenced by the partner.

and so,
i chose religious as the most important factor.
why?
because i remember my ustaz said,
Prophet Muhammad S.A.W. said: “Men choose women for four reasons: for their money, for their rank, for their beauty and for their religion, but marry one who is religious and you will succeed” (Bukhari, Muslim).
this of course, applies to women as well.

it's not that i follow blindly choosing religious as number 1.
i think that if one is religious,
he already knows what is right, wrong, what is expected of him, how to treat his wife, how to be an ideal husband, how to treat his children, how to treat nature, etc.
and the best thing of all is that he is able to guide me and together we will prepare for life after death.
so if he is religious,
he gives me an impression that he's good natured too,
everything will fall into place.
religion becomes like a guide to one's life.
and i think it's really important,
without it,
we would be lost.

ok,
so you may asked is my partner religious?
and the answer is not so.
i'm sure he will work towards it.
and if we were to be husband and wife,
we're gonna encourage one another to be closer to god.
and i wish that we will still remain as husband and wife in the after life.

all i want in my potential marriage partner is someone who knows how to treat me right.
and i came across a website about being an ideal muslim husband,
http://www.missionislam.com/family/husband.htm
so guys,
tips to treat your lady right.
=)

i hope this post helps you choose your potential mate.
=)

honey,
i know you're gonna do all you can to make my life on earth meaningful.
i am full of thanks when it comes to you sweetheart.

luck has changed

everytime i wanted to update my blog,
my eyes started to get sleepy.
apart from that,
i've been trying to check my luck.

oh boy!
this year is just not my lucky year.
i've entered a couple of contests,
and no hope.
no chance of winning.
i have no idea how my luck changed but it did.
it was kinda depressing to go through failure after failure.
nevertheless,
i accept it.
and hopefully,
my luck will soon change.
haha.
i think there are lessons ought to be learnt from it,
which i am still figuring out.

seriously,
a lot had happened within a week.
like meeting up with my poly friend,
dearest sakeenah who is studying horticulture in australia
we really catched up a lot!!!
and it was really fun talking to her!
so happy to see her again.
=D

on the 7th,
we joined a couple contest.


we had a free makeover,
which include our hair.
it felt as if we were pampering ourselves.


one of the segment,
the partner had to proclaim his love for me.


the casual wear segment.


even though we didn't make it to the finals,
we were glad to be given a chance to participate in it.
it was fun and the both of us really enjoyed each other's company.

since 9 of february,
i've been listening to class 95 every night hoping to get a chance to win a place in love boat.
a private yacht which 6 lucky couples get to see the sunset and have candlelight dinner for valentine's day.
i really think it's romantic.

every night,
there would be different requirements,
write poems, sing song, make sounds, etc.
and i've tried every single one of it.
at one time,
i managed to get through to the hotline and made sounds to describe the partner.
haha.

the partner knew i placed in effort for every one of it.
and he asked me to post it on my blog.

so here goes,
a poem that starts with love boat.

Love gives us a chance to get on the love boat.
On board the love boat, we can immerse ourselves in the romantic ambience.
Very much like in the movies, I want to be the lucky girl who is being swoon by the guy.
Everything is perfect, from the dressing to their kiss.

Best thing of all, under the stars, with you by my side, we get to reflect about our relationship.
Over our plans for our future too.
Away from reality, we are in our own world looking forward together.
That will be my perfect Valentine date with you Mutalib dearest.

next compose a song to the tune of twinkle, twinkle little star.

You never fail to amaze me
When I think of you, I smile
Honey? What have you drugged me with?
Isn’t it love that makes me high?
No matter how dark it gets
You’re the spark that lights my life

another poem from the word valentine

Very much like nature, we fall in love,
Actions that you do, prove to me that you're the one,
Loving you makes me feel worthy,
Every prayer I had, you are in it, because you are a part of me,
Nobody has touched my heart deeply like you did,
Telling me that you love me awaken my senses,
Inspiring me in every way, you're my true love,
Never had I imagine that I feel so alive,
Everlasting love from you is a gift that I would treasure for all time as it makes my life meaningful.

i think that's about it.
still no luck.
haha.

so so,
anyway,
on valentine's day,
i had a course on motivation skills,
till 5pm.

afterwhich,
the partner fetched me from the location to have an early dinner.
when i got into the car,
the partner handed me kiwis!
haha!
organic kiwis somemore!
few days ago,
i've tried the kiwis,
juicy and sweet lah!
good pick!
and then,
he handed me a box of perfume.
=)
haha!

so we ate at mad jack's and we headed to island creamery for dessert!
mudpie!
yummy lah!
it's our must have whenever we visit there.

afterwhich,
followed his parents to the airport to send people off.
and we ended our day by having supper at downtown east.

so that night,
as usual,
he send me up.
with my bag,
i head to my room to put it down.
i didn't notice much what's on my bed because it looked messy.
but once i fixed my eyes on the middle on my bed,
i paused and i was shocked.
it took me a few seconds to digest what was happening.

it was a bouquet of roses on my bed,
with a note.
you know what i did in the middle of the night?
i screamed at the top my lungs.
yes, because i was super excited!
and i automatically run and hug the partner!
who was still there to see my reaction.

how can i noticed it?
it was being camouflaged with the bed sheet.




the perfume and the bouquet of roses.


goodness,
i didn't even expect the partner to surprise me that way.

i was really a happy girl by the end of the day.
=)

early sunday morning,
the yec members and i spend some time with old folks from a home.
we helped them to play bingo.
it was really cute seeing the old folks!
however, i feel depressed seeing them in a home.
the place was lifeless.
even if one is not sick before admitted there,
a few weeks, months being in there,
one will eventually get sick.
why?
because there's nothing much you do except to sit in the wheelchair, watch tv, etc.
they might do something interesting once in a while but it's sad.

please think of being in there first before placing your parents there.

with one of them.


just a random shot of some of them.


the partner fetched me from the home and we head to suntec city to ask about our japan trip.
we sort of have the dates and since we are taking the free and easy,
we need to think of the itinerary.
i am so looking forward to it!


i had tuition yesterday with the partner next door neighbour.
afterwhich i had dinner with the partner, parents and his aunt's family.
during dinner,
the partner shared a piece of good news to me.
=)
and we're looking at dates.
*hint hint*
haha!

reading week is coming up.......
which means i have a lot of revising to do!
*shakes head*

at times,
things doesn't go right.
but having someone who really loves you change everything.

i know the partner loves me deeply.
he sacrifices just to make me happy.
which at times i still think it's not enough.
i don't know why i think that way.
having a talk does helps us to understand our partner.

honey,
thank you.
i am sorry.
i love you still.
you are still that i want to spend the rest of my life with.

me, me, me

the past week has been so challenging.
and i've went through a lot of unknown feelings.

all i know,
the partner loves me,
a lot.

and that is all that i ask for.

busy

i'm on a busy mode.
take care readers!

haha! it's okay!

and so we did our best.
it's alright that we didn't get chosen to the finals.
we're fine with it.
=)
we had fun doing silly stuff.
and of course,
it's another story to tell our kids.
hahahhaha!

i am so tired.
gonna have my well deserved rest.

honey,
i love you very much!

a call.

it's 12.30am and i'm just home from supper with the partner and his parents.

today is about a call.
it's a call that changes everything.
it changes all the individual plans we had for ourselves tonight.
the call that would bring us back to our days in vivo,
the compatibility challenge.
now it will be just be near home.
jurong point.
haha.

i am thankful.
i'm sure the Almighty understand what i mean.
it's just that my heart smile.

honey,
let's put up a good show for the audience!

phew.

woo hooo!
no school tomorrow.
=)
but wait wait wait.....
i have so many things to do didn't i?
=(
aiyahhh....

my thursday evening which was our 37 months together,
the partner and i sweat and smell bad together as we went floorball-ing with the other members.
it was really fun!
having to play without any stress.
=)
and oh i don't pant as much as i did the last time.
looking foward for the upcoming one.
oh yes yes yes!
finally!
i've found my stick!
it's been years since i held and used it.
it felt so good again holding it and passing the ball.
i'm revive!

one more reason to feel good was that the misunderstanding the partner and i had way, way earlier has been resolved.
=)
we managed to clear our doubts via the phone because i was in school and he was at work.
well,
what makes him win me over apart from realizing his mistakes, was a mms.
it was nothing much but it was the thought that counts.
he placed in effort to make something right again.
arguments are always blessings in disguise.

ok, just so you know,
he didn't send me the below.
it's a note for him.

all the best for friday honey!
what ever happens, i'm already proud of you.

down with flu.

*sniff sniff*
i am down with a bug.
got infected from the partner.
he's coping well while i am sniffing and coughing away and also sneezing away.

i'm gonna have a long day tomorrow.
8 to 5 with an hour break.
but luckily i don't have any plans after that which means i can zonked out straight away when i reach home.
for the past few days,
i've been craving for something sweet.
and today,
i restrained myself from getting oreo cheesecake.
how did i do it?
easy.
tell myself that since i'm sick,
i am unable to really enjoy the taste and indulge in it.
so it would just be a waste.
now now what should i eat tomorrow?

how fortunate can i get?
starting yesterday i am tutoring the partner's next door neighbour which means i will get a free ride home everytime i'm done.
haha.
on top of our usual meet,
there will always be a confirmed 2 days in a week that we will get to see one another.
=)
anyway our jogging plans were cancelled yesterday because i am unwell and the partner was tired.
and i'm looking forward to our floorball session this thursday.

when i woke up today,
i realised that i've gotten a sweet text message from the partner.
during my journey to school,
i've been thinking and fantasizing about a part of the sms.
...... i can't wait to have a family with you!
then it hits me.
family.
what makes a family?
children with our genes. home. money. love. care.
all of the above and perhaps arguments?
and also it's a lifelong commitment.
it means a lot for me because it shows me that the partner has already settled his mind and he can visualize us building a family together.
it's gonna be a journey for both of us.
and i believe that the years we've been together makes us understand each other strengths and weakeness and both of us know that we can work as a team.

maybe one thing we have to understand about love is sacrificing.
about giving the best treatment to the one you love.
putting their needs on top of yours.
and if the one you love loves you back,
he/she will do the same.
that way,
both of you will be happy together.

back to my weekend,
my sunday was wonderful.
i had a chinese new year lunch at the cc followed by watching a movie, love matters together with my yec members.
and i was able to bring the partner along to watch together.
=)
it was a funny show which was alright overall.
afterwhich i accompanied the partner for soccer and head back to his home to play with his 4 year old cousin.
i had a great time playing with her till i can't be of her sight because she would called for me and made me follow her.

now i guess i better get back to my readings and assignments.

honey,
me too,
i can't wait to have a family with you!
we've almost there and by the time we know it.
*boom*

i just have to blog.

right now, my language skills seem handicap and limited when it comes to explaining what am i feeling.
i am experiencing something that is beyond wonderful.
it's bubbling within me, full of excitement and happiness.
it feels as though my heart is lighted up with something unexplainable, something nice.
you should have guessed it.
it's the partner that ignite this feeling in me.

is the word that i'm searching for is loved?
am i feeling so loved?

ahhh.
maybe that's it.
loved.

maybe eversince i had that nightmare about the partner,
i've changed the way i think and really not take the partner for granted.
now i'm no longer blinded by the little efforts he puts in.
i see it and i know it,
no matter how small.
it's like i'm given a new perspective to look at.
and with that,
it shows how much the partner is willing to sacrifice for me.
how much he loves me.

i really like the way i'm looking at things now.
syukur alhamdulliah.

once you found what i've found,
you will be happy throughout your life.
and i wished all of you are given the opportunity to feel it.
because it's just too wonderful and heavenly.

i am really really really really glad to have found you honey.
you make my life on earth more meaningful.
i owe you my life for loving me like no one did.
we have so many events, things, moments to look forward to,
i'm excited honey.
i love you sweetheart.