2010 will be arriving soon!
am i ready?
well,
time waits for no one.
so ready or not,
i have no choice.
2010 will still happen.
honestly i don't see any huha about it.
it just that instead of writing 09 in the year section,
i will have to write 10.
it all lies in your mindset on how you want your year, month, day to be and how you want to achieve your goals.
what can you benefit from 2009?
stop, think and reflect about how you have improve as an individual and of the blessed things that the Almighty has bestow upon you.
i had a challenging year compare to 2008.
i almost give up.
if there's a title for the "worst yet useful" year,
2009 will be it.
but underlying it,
i can't deny that the Almighty answers my prayers.
syukur alhamdullilah.
2009 is the year that i have
a new status,
engaged.
i got engaged to my long time (ok la not so long, 3 years plus) boyfriend, Mutalib.
there are changes after we got engaged.
more concrete talks about our future and plans about our weddings.
and now,
greeting him with a peck on the cheek is being replaced by a kiss on his hand.
another new status,
fresh graduate.
self-declared graduation from NUS since the commencement is in july.
it's time for me to enter the working world and be independent.
my family and bestfriends,
as my support and encouragement,
the ones that stick with me and love me for the person i am and care for my well-being.
a new phone, Mighty bear & unbelievable birthday celebration when i turn 23,
fully sponsored and planned by the partner.
pamering is the key word.
haha.
learnt how ugly i can get,
it opens my eyes to see how inexperienced i was in handling situations.
rash is irrational.
to believe in myself,
that i can get through any challenges no matter how tough it gets,
because the Almighty knows that i am strong enough for the challenge.
never lose sight of my principles, morals & values,
my elders taught me long enough what's good and bad,
and i'm given a brain to decide what's wrong and right.
because i believe an action is going to affect others.
and i never want to hurt others.
learnt the most important lesson in life that is to get closer with the Almighty, learning more about islam to understand my role,
it was the most beautiful experience and it gives me a sense of calmness and peace.
a sense of wholesomeness.
i thank my mom, dad, grandma, afiq, syafiqah, fatin, mama in, papa 2 & my cousins.
i thank my bestfriends.
i thank the partner's parents.
i thank the partner.
i thank everyone that touched my life by showing your concern.
and the utmost thanks will be for the Almighty,
for He gives me a chance to wake up and experience a new day.
so how do i expect my 2010 to be?
i don't want to expect anything because i don't know my future.
just take up and accept the challenges that He has for me.
but i know i'm going to have a fun stressful enjoyable time planning for my wedding.
from the theme, to the decor, to the wedding card, to the dresses, to the cake, to the so many more!
every girl's dreams to have a memorable pretty wedding.
=)
exciting huh?
stay tuned and keep on reading this blog if you want a guide to becoming a bride.
haha!
=)
wishing all of you to have a very happy new year!
be happy with what you got rather than be unhappy with what you don't.
have your priorities and that will make your life much easier.
love,
atirah
Wednesday, December 30
of dreams to pizza to avatar to floorball!
on monday,
while i was having my afternoon nap,
i remembered waking up having tears flowing profusely and having a phone call from the partner.
i had the saddest dream,
a nightmare perhaps.
thank goodness that it's just a dream however eventually it will come true,
it is just in a matter of time and how i accept it.
i dreamt of death.
not only one,
but two.
the partner's and my dad's.
i can't really recall how both of them died.
it was too overwhelming for me to take it that when i woke up i found myself sobbing.
2 of my best men,
the most important men in my life.
the dream makes me realised how much i have to cherish them.
it was a relief that it was just a dream.
but what happens when the day comes?
i doubt i'll have any regrets about not treating them better but it's the memories i had with them that make me weak,
because i know i can't make new memories with them.
back to reality,
i remembered the partner's phone call.
the partner was asking me whether i am interested to have pizza for dinner and ask my sisters along.
=)
without much hesistant,
of course i said yes.
my mom has been wanting to watch avatar even before the movie was shown.
and i know dad can't watch with her because he will definitely fall asleep as it is more than 2 hours.
he has the tendency to sleep even before the show is finished.
thus he rather watch dvds because he is able to control and continue the show to the part he dozed off.
even though i've watched avatar before,
i don't mind watching it again so i asked my mom.
she agrees.
initially it was just my mom and i.
after the partner knew that i will be watching avatar again,
he joined us.
and later that evening,
i was able to hold my floorball stick again.
it felt good even though it's been a long, long time!
since my mom and mama in wanted to exercise and the partner wanted to practice,
i held a floorball session for them.
of course there wouldn't be any fun with only the 4 of us,
we had my cousins and papa 2 to join us and it turned out to be a fun family bonding activity.
all of us including 5 year old atiqah had a good time laughing and sweating it out.
i had an enjoyable time playing floorball with the partner.
i'm grateful for how i am feeling.
while i was having my afternoon nap,
i remembered waking up having tears flowing profusely and having a phone call from the partner.
i had the saddest dream,
a nightmare perhaps.
thank goodness that it's just a dream however eventually it will come true,
it is just in a matter of time and how i accept it.
i dreamt of death.
not only one,
but two.
the partner's and my dad's.
i can't really recall how both of them died.
it was too overwhelming for me to take it that when i woke up i found myself sobbing.
2 of my best men,
the most important men in my life.
the dream makes me realised how much i have to cherish them.
it was a relief that it was just a dream.
but what happens when the day comes?
i doubt i'll have any regrets about not treating them better but it's the memories i had with them that make me weak,
because i know i can't make new memories with them.
back to reality,
i remembered the partner's phone call.
the partner was asking me whether i am interested to have pizza for dinner and ask my sisters along.
=)
without much hesistant,
of course i said yes.
my mom has been wanting to watch avatar even before the movie was shown.
and i know dad can't watch with her because he will definitely fall asleep as it is more than 2 hours.
he has the tendency to sleep even before the show is finished.
thus he rather watch dvds because he is able to control and continue the show to the part he dozed off.
even though i've watched avatar before,
i don't mind watching it again so i asked my mom.
she agrees.
initially it was just my mom and i.
after the partner knew that i will be watching avatar again,
he joined us.
and later that evening,
i was able to hold my floorball stick again.
it felt good even though it's been a long, long time!
since my mom and mama in wanted to exercise and the partner wanted to practice,
i held a floorball session for them.
of course there wouldn't be any fun with only the 4 of us,
we had my cousins and papa 2 to join us and it turned out to be a fun family bonding activity.
all of us including 5 year old atiqah had a good time laughing and sweating it out.
i had an enjoyable time playing floorball with the partner.
i'm grateful for how i am feeling.
Monday, December 28
Sunday, December 27
worthy.
i really savour what i'm feeling right now.
i feel worthy.
times like this doesn't come that often.
because there are times i feel like i'm a speck of dust.
and it was so hard to find the light once again whenever i fall into the black hole.
there's so many things to be happy about.
let me list them down.
one.
sezairi won singapore idol 2009
my mom, sister and i cheered and scream as loud as we can once the winner was announced.
it felt good.
and apart from that,
we were watching singapore idol with the partner just beside me together with my family.
it felt nice.
i hope he felt like a part of the family,
my family.
i mean i can see us like that when we're married.
two.
markers.
i saw this cute container of markers at muji when i was out with the partner earlier while checking out some wedding exhibition in suntec.
even though the wedding exhibition was kinda upsetting,
there was a store that caught our eyes.
it offers something unique and creative.
back to the markers,
the partner offered to get it for me (thanks honey!).
i really can't resist the markers!
there are 70 of it!
colourful colourful markers!
i convinced him that the markers can be used for our wedding guestbook.
let's hope that there's still ink by then.
haha.
three.
earlier this morning,
the yec had tea gathering with the adviser.
the food was good and we had christmas gift exchange.
and all of us were happy!
four.
looking at the pictures remind me of the fun i had with gillian and shikin!
from the walking aimlessly to standing in front of doors to touching the screen of ion directory to the our-butt-was-lifted-in-the-air ride.
it was funny!
when you see a magnifying glass,
what does it symbolize?
to enlarge right?
we were looking at something and wanted to enlarge it so smart shikin press that magnifying glass on ion's directory,
and you know what came out?
a search button came out.
hahaha!
look below.
a search button instead of enlarging it.
five.
having you in my life.
and having us talking about our future and planning for our wedding.
we were talking about Mighty Bear and i got quite emotional when the partner said this
him: honey, if you take care of the bear properly and when i'm dead, you can still listen to my voice.
i have no idea why he said that but i can't imagine that.
and i don't want to imagine it right now.
too much for me.
god,
i am glad with your blessing.
i can never thank you enough.
syukur alhamdulillah.
i feel worthy.
times like this doesn't come that often.
because there are times i feel like i'm a speck of dust.
and it was so hard to find the light once again whenever i fall into the black hole.
there's so many things to be happy about.
let me list them down.
one.
sezairi won singapore idol 2009
my mom, sister and i cheered and scream as loud as we can once the winner was announced.
it felt good.
and apart from that,
we were watching singapore idol with the partner just beside me together with my family.
it felt nice.
i hope he felt like a part of the family,
my family.
i mean i can see us like that when we're married.
two.
markers.
i saw this cute container of markers at muji when i was out with the partner earlier while checking out some wedding exhibition in suntec.
even though the wedding exhibition was kinda upsetting,
there was a store that caught our eyes.
it offers something unique and creative.
back to the markers,
the partner offered to get it for me (thanks honey!).
i really can't resist the markers!
there are 70 of it!
colourful colourful markers!
i convinced him that the markers can be used for our wedding guestbook.
let's hope that there's still ink by then.
haha.
three.
earlier this morning,
the yec had tea gathering with the adviser.
the food was good and we had christmas gift exchange.
and all of us were happy!
four.
looking at the pictures remind me of the fun i had with gillian and shikin!
from the walking aimlessly to standing in front of doors to touching the screen of ion directory to the our-butt-was-lifted-in-the-air ride.
it was funny!
when you see a magnifying glass,
what does it symbolize?
to enlarge right?
we were looking at something and wanted to enlarge it so smart shikin press that magnifying glass on ion's directory,
and you know what came out?
a search button came out.
hahaha!
look below.
a search button instead of enlarging it.
five.
having you in my life.
and having us talking about our future and planning for our wedding.
we were talking about Mighty Bear and i got quite emotional when the partner said this
him: honey, if you take care of the bear properly and when i'm dead, you can still listen to my voice.
i have no idea why he said that but i can't imagine that.
and i don't want to imagine it right now.
too much for me.
god,
i am glad with your blessing.
i can never thank you enough.
syukur alhamdulillah.
the never imagined 23rd birthday
ever since i've got a text message from the partner to make my saturday afternoon free,
i never thought much about what's in store for me.
all i know was that it's for my 23rd birthday celebration since he was unable to give me a proper celebration on the 22nd due to work.
what happened on saturday was something that was filled with surprises.
it was exactly how i wanted to celebrate his 26th birthday however since i can't afford it yet, i dismiss it altogether.
now now now,
great minds think alike?
the reason i was very surprised was because the partner has already give me my 23rd birthday present which is a phone and so i wasn't expecting anything lavish.
i was just thinking of lunch followed by a good fun laugh then home.
i was wrong.
the first surprise i had was when he had asked me to get some sweets while he queued up for the movie tickets.
when i met him again,
he was grinning while holding the gold class envelope.
upon seeing it,
automatically i gave him the widest grin!
like yay!
finally!
i can't believe that i am watching gold class for the first time!
i heard and see of it but have yet to experience it.
so i was really, really excited about it!
we watched sherlock holmes.
you have to really concentrate in order to understand the storyline.
i tell you,
the reclining seat and the blanket can easily make one fall asleep as it is too comfortable!
we had to remind one another not to fall asleep.
haha!
we had popcorn,
nachos and tortillas,
mushroom soup (too thick, not to my liking),
potato wegdes (nice and crispy)
root beer float.
now now,
with all that,
how can we not feel sleepy?
it was a good experience.
=)
then the partner brought me jalan-jalan and window shop for clothes.
and eventually,
he brought me to build-a-bear workshop.
he wanted to get a bear for me.
=)
i was really excited (but try to remain cool)
it was a funny experience,
we were given a heart and i had to rub the heart with my hands,
placed the heart on my head then to the bear's head, then placed the heart to the partner cheeks followed by placing it to the bear's cheeks as well and some other places of our faces that i have forgotten.
i also scrub and wash my bear as well.
haha.
whenever i press the bear's right paw,
i'll hear something nice from the partner.
=)
we chose some clothes to put on the bear.
very cute la!
i even had to raise my right hand and say out the bear promise.
haha!
on boxing day 2009,
the partner and i are 'parents' to Mighty Bear.
we had dinner.
and i had my usual topless 5,
lime sherbet and sticky chewy chocolate.
for the first time,
i didn't managed to finish it.
vivo city the place that held sweet memories for us, especially in march 08.
see,
got birth certificate somemore.
with the proud dad.
i have to say that my 23rd birthday celebration reminded me of my 19th birthday celebration with the partner.
it was a wonderful surprise!
i can never be happier!
honey,
thank you very much.
i had a blast with you the whole day from the movies to the bear and not forgetting showing off our dance moves and singing skills in the car.
haha!
you're the one that i want to rest my life with forever.
i never thought much about what's in store for me.
all i know was that it's for my 23rd birthday celebration since he was unable to give me a proper celebration on the 22nd due to work.
what happened on saturday was something that was filled with surprises.
it was exactly how i wanted to celebrate his 26th birthday however since i can't afford it yet, i dismiss it altogether.
now now now,
great minds think alike?
the reason i was very surprised was because the partner has already give me my 23rd birthday present which is a phone and so i wasn't expecting anything lavish.
i was just thinking of lunch followed by a good fun laugh then home.
i was wrong.
the first surprise i had was when he had asked me to get some sweets while he queued up for the movie tickets.
when i met him again,
he was grinning while holding the gold class envelope.
upon seeing it,
automatically i gave him the widest grin!
like yay!
finally!
i can't believe that i am watching gold class for the first time!
i heard and see of it but have yet to experience it.
so i was really, really excited about it!
we watched sherlock holmes.
you have to really concentrate in order to understand the storyline.
i tell you,
the reclining seat and the blanket can easily make one fall asleep as it is too comfortable!
we had to remind one another not to fall asleep.
haha!
we had popcorn,
nachos and tortillas,
mushroom soup (too thick, not to my liking),
potato wegdes (nice and crispy)
root beer float.
now now,
with all that,
how can we not feel sleepy?
it was a good experience.
=)
then the partner brought me jalan-jalan and window shop for clothes.
and eventually,
he brought me to build-a-bear workshop.
he wanted to get a bear for me.
=)
i was really excited (but try to remain cool)
it was a funny experience,
we were given a heart and i had to rub the heart with my hands,
placed the heart on my head then to the bear's head, then placed the heart to the partner cheeks followed by placing it to the bear's cheeks as well and some other places of our faces that i have forgotten.
i also scrub and wash my bear as well.
haha.
whenever i press the bear's right paw,
i'll hear something nice from the partner.
=)
we chose some clothes to put on the bear.
very cute la!
i even had to raise my right hand and say out the bear promise.
haha!
on boxing day 2009,
the partner and i are 'parents' to Mighty Bear.
we had dinner.
and i had my usual topless 5,
lime sherbet and sticky chewy chocolate.
for the first time,
i didn't managed to finish it.
vivo city the place that held sweet memories for us, especially in march 08.
see,
got birth certificate somemore.
with the proud dad.
i have to say that my 23rd birthday celebration reminded me of my 19th birthday celebration with the partner.
it was a wonderful surprise!
i can never be happier!
honey,
thank you very much.
i had a blast with you the whole day from the movies to the bear and not forgetting showing off our dance moves and singing skills in the car.
haha!
you're the one that i want to rest my life with forever.
Saturday, December 26
Friday, December 25
hawaiian is at half price!
did you know something about me?
if i want something means i want it now.
you might say i'm spoilt.
but before you make that judgement on me,
i don't really get what i want all the time.
growing up,
i had to wait a while before getting what i want,
there were times i was disappointed and upset because i didn't get the things i want.
haha.
life.
and so today,
i was craving for ice cream, waffles and domino's pizza,
even though i didn't managed to fulfill all my cravings,
getting 1/3 of it,
i'm happy already.
i was thinking of driving alone to get domino's pizza however my dear dad decided to accompany and drive me.
=)
when i entered the store,
i saw hawaiian paradise was the pizza of the week and at a reduced price.
so without any hesitant,
i asked what was it about.
the staff replied that the extra large pizza costs only $17.90!
initially i wanted to get value meals but hearing the pizza of the week price and after i confirm it again,
i decided to get the extra large pizza with a side order.
i'm so happy i save $$.
haha.
it was the first time i ever ordered an extra large pizza.
so i was like jakun la.
look at the different sizes.
the hawaiian paradise.
i am full and soon it will time to sleep.
haha.
thanks pa for driving me!
if i want something means i want it now.
you might say i'm spoilt.
but before you make that judgement on me,
i don't really get what i want all the time.
growing up,
i had to wait a while before getting what i want,
there were times i was disappointed and upset because i didn't get the things i want.
haha.
life.
and so today,
i was craving for ice cream, waffles and domino's pizza,
even though i didn't managed to fulfill all my cravings,
getting 1/3 of it,
i'm happy already.
i was thinking of driving alone to get domino's pizza however my dear dad decided to accompany and drive me.
=)
when i entered the store,
i saw hawaiian paradise was the pizza of the week and at a reduced price.
so without any hesitant,
i asked what was it about.
the staff replied that the extra large pizza costs only $17.90!
initially i wanted to get value meals but hearing the pizza of the week price and after i confirm it again,
i decided to get the extra large pizza with a side order.
i'm so happy i save $$.
haha.
it was the first time i ever ordered an extra large pizza.
so i was like jakun la.
look at the different sizes.
the hawaiian paradise.
i am full and soon it will time to sleep.
haha.
thanks pa for driving me!
lazy holidays
merry christmas and happy holidays!
i've been really lazy lately.
spent hours in front of the tv watching a quirky family show.
sleep and sleep and sleep.
reading.
and doing nothing.
right now i'm craving for food.
domino's pizza & ice cream & waffles.
what's happening to me?
it's going to rain again (i think).
i am looking forward to meet the partner tomorrow!
=)
i'm thinking of welcoming the new year in a different way this way.
for the past 2 years,
we've been going to east coast to have a countdown together.
maybe this time,
somewhere different.
and hopefully we can see fireworks as well.
all i know is that on new year's eve we'll have a double date with nurul and her boyfriend.
soon it will be jan,
and we'll be celebrating our 4 years anniversary on the 5th.
and hopefully by the time we hit our 5 years,
we are blissfully married.
insyaAllah.
yesterday while out with his parents for dinner,
his mom mentioned about going to malaysia for a one night stay on the 9th jan.
=)
family bonding.
i love the month of december!
so many thing to look forward to!
even i want my children to be born in the month of december.
haha!
because the partner and i are able save money while buying presents with all the sales that is going on.
toys aren't cheap you know.
and clothes, you know how fast kids grow.
so yeah,
save is good!
the only thing that i don't mind investing my kids with are books.
i think i might just get my domino's pizza.
haha.
toodles!
i've been really lazy lately.
spent hours in front of the tv watching a quirky family show.
sleep and sleep and sleep.
reading.
and doing nothing.
right now i'm craving for food.
domino's pizza & ice cream & waffles.
what's happening to me?
it's going to rain again (i think).
i am looking forward to meet the partner tomorrow!
=)
i'm thinking of welcoming the new year in a different way this way.
for the past 2 years,
we've been going to east coast to have a countdown together.
maybe this time,
somewhere different.
and hopefully we can see fireworks as well.
all i know is that on new year's eve we'll have a double date with nurul and her boyfriend.
soon it will be jan,
and we'll be celebrating our 4 years anniversary on the 5th.
and hopefully by the time we hit our 5 years,
we are blissfully married.
insyaAllah.
yesterday while out with his parents for dinner,
his mom mentioned about going to malaysia for a one night stay on the 9th jan.
=)
family bonding.
i love the month of december!
so many thing to look forward to!
even i want my children to be born in the month of december.
haha!
because the partner and i are able save money while buying presents with all the sales that is going on.
toys aren't cheap you know.
and clothes, you know how fast kids grow.
so yeah,
save is good!
the only thing that i don't mind investing my kids with are books.
i think i might just get my domino's pizza.
haha.
toodles!
Thursday, December 24
Wednesday, December 23
a day in the library.
since i've got a few hours to waste before meeting shikin and gillian,
i visited the national library and search for wedding books.
while reading a particular book,
it has quotes that are very interesting which i would like to share.
The secret of a happy marriage remains a secret. Henny Youngman
Chains do not hold a marriage together. It is threads, hundreds of tiny threads which sew people together through the years. That is what makes a marriage last. Simone Signoret
To keep your marriage brimming,
With love in the loving cup,
Whenever you're wrong, admit it;
Whenever you're right, shut up.
Ogden Nash
Th great secret of a successful marriage is to treat all disasters as incidents and none of the incidents as disasters. Sir Harold Nicolson
Let me browse through the other books!
Tuesday, December 22
Monday, December 21
my promise
i've got my gift!
hehe.
in the end with the help of the generous partner, i chose nokia 5730 as my 23rd birthday present.
initially,
we've already agreed to take the 6760 slide however when i looked at the dummy set,
i realised that there isn't any camera on the phone which means that i can't video call.
apart from that,
there isn't wifi.
so,
sensing that i was a little reluctant,
the partner gave the green light to get this phone.
C=
thank you honey.
as i try out the functions,
like now,
blogging from my phone,
i fall in love slowly with the phone.
just the kind of phone i wish/dream for.
knowing that i'm clumsy and i'm not really good in taking care of things,
the partner already gave me a warning.
therefore,
below is the promise i've made.
i, nurul atirah bte mahmuddin, PROMISE to take care of this super cool phone like how the partner takes care of me.
i will try to prevent as much as i can from getting this phone near 'injury'.
time to search for cute, cool themes and ringtones!
honey,
thank you very much!
this is one of my favourite presents,
just like the ipod nano 4 years back.
hehe.
in the end with the help of the generous partner, i chose nokia 5730 as my 23rd birthday present.
initially,
we've already agreed to take the 6760 slide however when i looked at the dummy set,
i realised that there isn't any camera on the phone which means that i can't video call.
apart from that,
there isn't wifi.
so,
sensing that i was a little reluctant,
the partner gave the green light to get this phone.
C=
thank you honey.
as i try out the functions,
like now,
blogging from my phone,
i fall in love slowly with the phone.
just the kind of phone i wish/dream for.
knowing that i'm clumsy and i'm not really good in taking care of things,
the partner already gave me a warning.
therefore,
below is the promise i've made.
i, nurul atirah bte mahmuddin, PROMISE to take care of this super cool phone like how the partner takes care of me.
i will try to prevent as much as i can from getting this phone near 'injury'.
time to search for cute, cool themes and ringtones!
honey,
thank you very much!
this is one of my favourite presents,
just like the ipod nano 4 years back.
the night i sang
my exams results will be out tomorrow.
goodness gracious me!
also my birthday is tomorrow.
gah!
few hours later after i got home from the mini 'self declared graduation' trip,
i've got a date.
my date surprised me to a new makan place which makes me smile upon seeing it.
it's ytf (yong tau foo)!
one of my favourite food.
it was sweet of him,
i was touched when he told me that while i was away he did research on makan places that he can bring me.
instead of driving on the expressway to get home,
we had a long drive through the minor streets to get us home.
honestly,
that was the best time of the day.
i was free,
i was myself.
how was the trip?
it was stomach bursting!
why?
i laughed too much and eat too much!
lots of laughter and good food!
the food were mostly seafood.
crabs, sotong, stingray, osyters and many others.
and for the return trip lunch,
we had lobsters.
alamak!
shiok la!
something new that i did was i sang.
not that i volunteer myself to sing.
i know myself,
i know my voice,
i know i can't sing.
however,
i was asked to sing and seeing that everyone else sang,
i don't want to be a spoilsport so i gather my courage to sing.
initially i was just thinking of singing one song and done with it.
somehow i ended up singing 3 songs!
what was suprising was that they said i can sing and it was nice.
errr....
i beg to differ.
away from the fun,
the purpose of that trip was to come out with a workplan,
and of course we did that.
as i was one of the facilitators,
i was amazed by the ideas generated by the group.
good job guys!
now,
the job hunting is still on.
baby,
i see you.
i see us.
if only you could see yourself in my eyes.
goodness gracious me!
also my birthday is tomorrow.
gah!
few hours later after i got home from the mini 'self declared graduation' trip,
i've got a date.
my date surprised me to a new makan place which makes me smile upon seeing it.
it's ytf (yong tau foo)!
one of my favourite food.
it was sweet of him,
i was touched when he told me that while i was away he did research on makan places that he can bring me.
instead of driving on the expressway to get home,
we had a long drive through the minor streets to get us home.
honestly,
that was the best time of the day.
i was free,
i was myself.
how was the trip?
it was stomach bursting!
why?
i laughed too much and eat too much!
lots of laughter and good food!
the food were mostly seafood.
crabs, sotong, stingray, osyters and many others.
and for the return trip lunch,
we had lobsters.
alamak!
shiok la!
something new that i did was i sang.
not that i volunteer myself to sing.
i know myself,
i know my voice,
i know i can't sing.
however,
i was asked to sing and seeing that everyone else sang,
i don't want to be a spoilsport so i gather my courage to sing.
initially i was just thinking of singing one song and done with it.
somehow i ended up singing 3 songs!
what was suprising was that they said i can sing and it was nice.
errr....
i beg to differ.
away from the fun,
the purpose of that trip was to come out with a workplan,
and of course we did that.
as i was one of the facilitators,
i was amazed by the ideas generated by the group.
good job guys!
now,
the job hunting is still on.
baby,
i see you.
i see us.
if only you could see yourself in my eyes.
Saturday, December 19
time to pack and before that a great friday!
i have my clothes on the bed and the bag on the floor.
i sort of know what to bring for the 1 and a half day.
i'm sure that i'm going to continue sleeping in the car.
but before i close my eyes to hit the sack,
i'll just have to blog about the night with the partner and his parents and cousins.
even though i am unwell,
with the sore throat and being lethargic,
surprising,
i enjoyed myself.
especially in the car to meet his parents.
haha.
our silly dance moves
and god!
he laughed so loudly at me la!
i was super embarrassed if only there were lights,
you can see how red my cheeks were.
kurang asam ah.
haha.
but some time later,
he kena!
hahahaha!
to maintain his cool-ness,
he acted calm and tried not to laugh.
pandai la you!
but i know you were blushing la!
still in denial eh?
=P
i had fun time laughing at his cousins who is 6 and 4.
funny la both of them
2 opposite characters!
i have come to a conclusion,
eating deep fried food will make you fat.
i mean yes,
it is proven.
but now,
this time,
it is proven in front of my own eyes.
so please avoid deep fried food if you want to remain healthy and maintain your weight.
honey,
thank you for the fun we had earlier and the times we had.
this week was back to back seeing you and spending time together.
it was one of the best time of my life, really.
thank you for adding value to my life.
i am not perfect, what's important is i love you.
and that love is the one that keeps me going on.
it might be only for a day,
but i'm still going to miss you.
thank you for making me feel alive.
i sort of know what to bring for the 1 and a half day.
i'm sure that i'm going to continue sleeping in the car.
but before i close my eyes to hit the sack,
i'll just have to blog about the night with the partner and his parents and cousins.
even though i am unwell,
with the sore throat and being lethargic,
surprising,
i enjoyed myself.
especially in the car to meet his parents.
haha.
our silly dance moves
and god!
he laughed so loudly at me la!
i was super embarrassed if only there were lights,
you can see how red my cheeks were.
kurang asam ah.
haha.
but some time later,
he kena!
hahahaha!
to maintain his cool-ness,
he acted calm and tried not to laugh.
pandai la you!
but i know you were blushing la!
still in denial eh?
=P
i had fun time laughing at his cousins who is 6 and 4.
funny la both of them
2 opposite characters!
i have come to a conclusion,
eating deep fried food will make you fat.
i mean yes,
it is proven.
but now,
this time,
it is proven in front of my own eyes.
so please avoid deep fried food if you want to remain healthy and maintain your weight.
honey,
thank you for the fun we had earlier and the times we had.
this week was back to back seeing you and spending time together.
it was one of the best time of my life, really.
thank you for adding value to my life.
i am not perfect, what's important is i love you.
and that love is the one that keeps me going on.
it might be only for a day,
but i'm still going to miss you.
thank you for making me feel alive.
Friday, December 18
my poor phone.
my phone of about 2 years is giving me problems.
i can't talk for 5 minutes on the phone as it will automatically shut down by itself.
the start up takes a very long time!
the batt is crazy!
it's full then while talking on the phone,
the batt suddenly indicate one bar, then show a warning which states battery low and all i know i am talking to myself because the phone went dead.
it has come to the extent that i have to bring along the charger wherever i go and find for a powerpoint if i need to make a call.
it's crazy i tell you.
just two days ago,
i had to use the public phone because i can't find any powerpoint.
the phone can't read the memory card.
the ringer is faint even though it already at the maximum volume.
it really has gone haywire la!
even nurul said that my phone is in the nazak (dying) stage.
haha.
and it is about timei guess.
it is time.
the thing about me is that before buying anything,
i will do my homework and research.
for this case the prices, the applications and the practicality of the phone.
of course all those must match the design that i like.
before this current phone, i have a similar phone, and i thought of trying something different. which is why the similarites of the below phones are that they all have qwerty keyboard.
since i think that i might tweet often from my mobile and reply urgent emails,
getting a qwerty phone wouuld be easier.
right now i am down with 3 choices - let me go through the pros and cons of each phone.
n97 mini
pros : the phone is sleek, thin, light and touch screen, looks professional, it has wifi, can view email attachment (doc, ppt, xls, etc)
cons: the screen is broad, it might get me a while to get use to the screen, i can't sms while i'm behind the wheels (not that i sms while driving but during red traffic lights)
nokia 6760 slide
pros: it looks cute like a small mini television, small, fit nicely on my hands when i used the keypads.
cons: again, similar to n97 mini, i can't sms while i'm behind the wheels and no wifi, cannot read email attachments (doc, ppt, xls, etc)
nokia 5730
pros: cool looking phone, can use either way for keypads (means that i can sms easier during the red lights), keypads fonts looks cool and futuristic, has wifi.
cons: cannot read email attachments (doc, ppt, xls, etc)
haha.
it looks like 5730 has only 1 cons,
which technically i should get that.
*sighs*
see la,
after the pros and cons,
i am still undecided.
when i ask the partner who *ehem* i think he might be sponsoring me for a bithday gift,
which phone to get,
he reply "the cheapest one will be good enough"
haha! nice reply la.
i would reply the same if i were him.
hahaha.
so readers,
any suggestions or recommendations?
just received an email from the partner saying that he passed his exams.
congrats honey!
my cousin,
haziq will soon recieve his n level results.
all the best ziq!
reminded me of the times when i had to collect my n level results.
and the relief when i saw the grades.
=)
now,
i should stare at the phones and make a decision soon.
before i forget,
ma'al hijrah to all muslim!
=)
have a good weekend readers!
i will be off to desaru tomorrow morning!
weather please be nice.
will be back on sunday.
take care while having fun!
i can't talk for 5 minutes on the phone as it will automatically shut down by itself.
the start up takes a very long time!
the batt is crazy!
it's full then while talking on the phone,
the batt suddenly indicate one bar, then show a warning which states battery low and all i know i am talking to myself because the phone went dead.
it has come to the extent that i have to bring along the charger wherever i go and find for a powerpoint if i need to make a call.
it's crazy i tell you.
just two days ago,
i had to use the public phone because i can't find any powerpoint.
the phone can't read the memory card.
the ringer is faint even though it already at the maximum volume.
it really has gone haywire la!
even nurul said that my phone is in the nazak (dying) stage.
haha.
and it is about time
it is time.
the thing about me is that before buying anything,
i will do my homework and research.
for this case the prices, the applications and the practicality of the phone.
of course all those must match the design that i like.
before this current phone, i have a similar phone, and i thought of trying something different. which is why the similarites of the below phones are that they all have qwerty keyboard.
since i think that i might tweet often from my mobile and reply urgent emails,
getting a qwerty phone wouuld be easier.
right now i am down with 3 choices - let me go through the pros and cons of each phone.
n97 mini
pros : the phone is sleek, thin, light and touch screen, looks professional, it has wifi, can view email attachment (doc, ppt, xls, etc)
cons: the screen is broad, it might get me a while to get use to the screen, i can't sms while i'm behind the wheels (not that i sms while driving but during red traffic lights)
nokia 6760 slide
pros: it looks cute like a small mini television, small, fit nicely on my hands when i used the keypads.
cons: again, similar to n97 mini, i can't sms while i'm behind the wheels and no wifi, cannot read email attachments (doc, ppt, xls, etc)
nokia 5730
pros: cool looking phone, can use either way for keypads (means that i can sms easier during the red lights), keypads fonts looks cool and futuristic, has wifi.
con
haha.
it looks like 5730 has only 1 cons,
which technically i should get that.
*sighs*
see la,
after the pros and cons,
i am still undecided.
when i ask the partner who *ehem* i think he might be sponsoring me for a bithday gift,
which phone to get,
he reply "the cheapest one will be good enough"
haha! nice reply la.
i would reply the same if i were him.
hahaha.
so readers,
any suggestions or recommendations?
just received an email from the partner saying that he passed his exams.
congrats honey!
my cousin,
haziq will soon recieve his n level results.
all the best ziq!
reminded me of the times when i had to collect my n level results.
and the relief when i saw the grades.
=)
now,
i should stare at the phones and make a decision soon.
before i forget,
ma'al hijrah to all muslim!
=)
have a good weekend readers!
i will be off to desaru tomorrow morning!
weather please be nice.
will be back on sunday.
take care while having fun!
Thursday, December 17
interviews and more of them coming up!
up to date,
i've attended 2 interviews.
and tomorrow i'll have another,
but just tests.
hope it will go on smoothly.
i was relieved that my resume was done and send out.
=)
my goal was to get a job asap,
and the target i have for myself is by the end of december.
because i need to save!
as kiasu movie go-ers,
the partner and i decided to watch avatar yesterday.
i was comtemplating whether to watch it in 3d or not.
and decided to watch it normally without any 'glasses' on me.
because i was thinking i might get giddy with the things popping out of the screen.
the review?
it's kinda long and draggy but it's a cool movie!
and at times it feels like i'm watching a cartoon.
the movie tried to create awareness about the environment,
about protecting the trees and forests,
to appreciate nature.
i like that since it's rare to find a movie which incorporate the environment issues.
a must watch movie!
the day before we watch planet 51.
haha!
it was funny but gets a little boring at some parts of the show.
o-kay only.
this week is soon to be over.
and in a couple of days i will be 23,
closer to the mid 20s.
this weekend i will be going desaru for workplan cum retreat.
since i never been there before,
i am eager to see how it looks like.
the resort, the beach, the surroundings.
=)
i shall take it as a good mini graduation trip.
haha!
i wonder whether there will be a graduation trip for the partner and i.
but i've got a feeling it's gonna be graduation trip cum honeymoon!
hahahahaha!
i've attended 2 interviews.
and tomorrow i'll have another,
but just tests.
hope it will go on smoothly.
i was relieved that my resume was done and send out.
=)
my goal was to get a job asap,
and the target i have for myself is by the end of december.
because i need to save!
as kiasu movie go-ers,
the partner and i decided to watch avatar yesterday.
i was comtemplating whether to watch it in 3d or not.
and decided to watch it normally without any 'glasses' on me.
because i was thinking i might get giddy with the things popping out of the screen.
the review?
it's kinda long and draggy but it's a cool movie!
and at times it feels like i'm watching a cartoon.
the movie tried to create awareness about the environment,
about protecting the trees and forests,
to appreciate nature.
i like that since it's rare to find a movie which incorporate the environment issues.
a must watch movie!
the day before we watch planet 51.
haha!
it was funny but gets a little boring at some parts of the show.
o-kay only.
this week is soon to be over.
and in a couple of days i will be 23,
closer to the mid 20s.
this weekend i will be going desaru for workplan cum retreat.
since i never been there before,
i am eager to see how it looks like.
the resort, the beach, the surroundings.
=)
i shall take it as a good mini graduation trip.
haha!
i wonder whether there will be a graduation trip for the partner and i.
but i've got a feeling it's gonna be graduation trip cum honeymoon!
hahahahaha!
Wednesday, December 16
another blog skin
one example of what boredom can do to me.
changing the blog skin.
gagagagagagaga!
and there's error!
aiyamak!
the next time when i'm free,
i'll do something about the error!
but hey!
there's no problem for those using firefox anymore.
=)
while having our dinner,
the partner asked "why are you so clumsy?"
to answer,
i looked at him and smile.
changing the blog skin.
gagagagagagaga!
and there's error!
aiyamak!
the next time when i'm free,
i'll do something about the error!
but hey!
there's no problem for those using firefox anymore.
=)
while having our dinner,
the partner asked "why are you so clumsy?"
to answer,
i looked at him and smile.
Monday, December 14
i have no idea how my mind works
i have no idea how my mind works.
sometimes,
i can be all positive,
thinking that nothing can bring me down,
i should be happy and grateful.
but within a few hours,
it can just overturn into something nasty.
and in the end,
i don't know how to react and troubles occur.
right now,
at this moment,
i am pleased with my life.
engaged to the one that i love.
safe and sound.
done with school.
life is just beginning for me.
i have so many things to look forward to.
seriously,
i am satisfied with my life.
but why at times life can be so deceiving?
why does it makes me feel unsatisfied?
craving for more?
makes me greedy and selfish.
how can i ever unblind myself?
most of the times i am disappointed with myself.
and i questioned myself "what have i become?"
what's lacked in me is trust in the Almighty.
i am afraid of challenges that i can't face.
instead of accepting the challenges head on,
i crumbled, i questioned my confidence.
take this analogy as an example.
a stranger giving sweets to a little kid.
all sweets are tempting,
but depends,
some are nice, to your liking,
while others are eeeeeeuuuhhhh, not nice.
just like the little kid,
i want the sweets.
but i am afraid that the sweets that i'm taking is not nice.
i have to accept that in reality,
all the sweets that you will be given won't be nice all the time.
the sweets here is refering to challenges.
one way that i've been reading to live my life happier is by trusting in the Almighty.
and i've been trying and never gonna give up trying.
one day, insyaAllah,
i will no longer live in constant fear but happy with life the way it is,
not to be blinded anymore.
i never want to harm people.
instead my wish is to share happiness and wisdom to people.
to make their life a satisfied one.
i have to learn from the past but that doesn't mean that i have to be reminded that i'm a failure.
failures are never easy to accept.
no one likes to be the loser.
thus,
take it as a lesson that won't happen again.
reflect and learn from it.
the present,
you can choose how you to want to act on it before it become a history.
and i know when i look back in my life,
i wouldn't want to have a life filled with regrets & sadness.
i want to believe that i did what i did because there isn't any better choice.
what inspires me to type this entry?
love.
love for the Almighty.
love for the partner.
love for my family.
love for my friends.
i just have to believe in myself.
and soon it will spread and i will feel the energy and changes.
away from the serious thoughts,
i had a good fun time with the partner yesterday.
we went for his friend wedding and he mentioned "honey, do you know that this is our first wedding as tunang?"
i really haven't immersed myself that i am his fiancee.
i still have yet to accept the fact that in no time,
insyaAllah, i will be his wife.
we managed to explore 313 @ somerset.
while walking past the stores outside,
it reminded us of japan.
just that the weather is hotter here and that the people there are much trendier.
it brought me back to the times when we were walking down the streets in japan entering the different shopping malls.
walking hand in hand happily and enjoy our conversation.
back to singapore,
the place was crowded with people.
it was okay la.
we had dinner at bbq chicken.
for the first time there,
the food was delicious.
yummy mushroom soup!
nice coleslaw.
great chicken!
what made me laugh was our funny and silly moves in the car.
i totally enjoyed myself today.
honey,
when i kiss your hand to salam you,
something weird happened to me.
that unexplainable respect and love i have for you.
you have no idea how grateful i am.
sometimes,
i can be all positive,
thinking that nothing can bring me down,
i should be happy and grateful.
but within a few hours,
it can just overturn into something nasty.
and in the end,
i don't know how to react and troubles occur.
right now,
at this moment,
i am pleased with my life.
engaged to the one that i love.
safe and sound.
done with school.
life is just beginning for me.
i have so many things to look forward to.
seriously,
i am satisfied with my life.
but why at times life can be so deceiving?
why does it makes me feel unsatisfied?
craving for more?
makes me greedy and selfish.
how can i ever unblind myself?
most of the times i am disappointed with myself.
and i questioned myself "what have i become?"
what's lacked in me is trust in the Almighty.
i am afraid of challenges that i can't face.
instead of accepting the challenges head on,
i crumbled, i questioned my confidence.
take this analogy as an example.
a stranger giving sweets to a little kid.
all sweets are tempting,
but depends,
some are nice, to your liking,
while others are eeeeeeuuuhhhh, not nice.
just like the little kid,
i want the sweets.
but i am afraid that the sweets that i'm taking is not nice.
i have to accept that in reality,
all the sweets that you will be given won't be nice all the time.
the sweets here is refering to challenges.
one way that i've been reading to live my life happier is by trusting in the Almighty.
and i've been trying and never gonna give up trying.
one day, insyaAllah,
i will no longer live in constant fear but happy with life the way it is,
not to be blinded anymore.
i never want to harm people.
instead my wish is to share happiness and wisdom to people.
to make their life a satisfied one.
i have to learn from the past but that doesn't mean that i have to be reminded that i'm a failure.
failures are never easy to accept.
no one likes to be the loser.
thus,
take it as a lesson that won't happen again.
reflect and learn from it.
the present,
you can choose how you to want to act on it before it become a history.
and i know when i look back in my life,
i wouldn't want to have a life filled with regrets & sadness.
i want to believe that i did what i did because there isn't any better choice.
what inspires me to type this entry?
love.
love for the Almighty.
love for the partner.
love for my family.
love for my friends.
i just have to believe in myself.
and soon it will spread and i will feel the energy and changes.
away from the serious thoughts,
i had a good fun time with the partner yesterday.
we went for his friend wedding and he mentioned "honey, do you know that this is our first wedding as tunang?"
i really haven't immersed myself that i am his fiancee.
i still have yet to accept the fact that in no time,
insyaAllah, i will be his wife.
we managed to explore 313 @ somerset.
while walking past the stores outside,
it reminded us of japan.
just that the weather is hotter here and that the people there are much trendier.
it brought me back to the times when we were walking down the streets in japan entering the different shopping malls.
walking hand in hand happily and enjoy our conversation.
back to singapore,
the place was crowded with people.
it was okay la.
we had dinner at bbq chicken.
for the first time there,
the food was delicious.
yummy mushroom soup!
nice coleslaw.
great chicken!
what made me laugh was our funny and silly moves in the car.
i totally enjoyed myself today.
honey,
when i kiss your hand to salam you,
something weird happened to me.
that unexplainable respect and love i have for you.
you have no idea how grateful i am.
Sunday, December 13
happy birthday moms!
we were one kecoh family last night.
happy birthday dear moms!
yesterday night we had a birthday celebration for the mommies.
instead of the typical eating sessions,
we played games!
a whole big gang of us!
only my dad didn't join in as he was tired.
i'm sure the partner's parents will love to join in however they're not in town.
since it was a big group and most of the games catered to 2-6 players,
we had to divide ourselves.
the kids and the adults.
the kids had their fun playing various games.
the adults also do have their fair share of fun!
happy birthday moms!
i love you both!
stay happy and healthy!
Friday, December 11
a picture is worth a thousand words
pictures evoke feelings.
for the case of my engagement,
it evokes a sense of gratitude & happiness.
this post will be a reminder for me whenever we're going through tough times.
hopefully it helps us to hang on and never give up.
even though there isn't any pictures of him in it,
i can sense his presence.
the pictures would help me recall how excited i was to be his fiancee.
another story that we can share with our children.
the photos are possible all because of shikin, syafiqah, afiqah, kakak ani and syahirah.
thank you ladies!
the gifts to him.
why pink you might asked.
because he loves pink.
this house full of chocolates and jelly is made by mama in.
the baulu all the way from kl.
a friend of mom and mama in made this for us.
thanks cik!
mama in added in the sweets to the doll.
this piano is done by mama in.
fruits polished and arranged by mama in.
cake lapis made by mama in.
nenek did this.
from the pink flowers to colouring of the eggs and pulut.
she did more than 100 flowers by herself.
the cake that i ordered online.
it was the first time that i ordered and the partner said it taste good!
prayer mat.
haha.
this peacock is actually baju kurung.
nenek did this and that till it became a peacock.
this on the other hand,
nenek tried making it into mushroom.
this is the pants of the baju kurung.
i was walking around and my eyes were attracted to a pretty pink handkerchief and decided to get for him.
songkok.
kain pelekat.
cloth that he can used for his prayers.
nenek tried to make present it as jantung pisang.
this sangkar burung is being decorated by nenek.
the partner's ring.
while waiting for the guy's side.
oh yes,
how can an event be completed without food?
nenek and mom cooked the dishes.
unfortunately i only ate once because i had to entertain my guests.
if given a chance i would eat 3 times!
now i miss the briyani and acar.
ustaz having a say with his grandpa.
soon i will have a grandpa and i wonder how it feels like because i didn't get a chance to see both of my grandpa.
with kakak ani.
the gifts from him.
not much pictures though.
a missing 'h'
his parents wasn't aware that i have a 'h' in my name.
now they know.
=)
a family picture!
not all were here because nenek was asleep and afiq was washing the plates.
i'm sure there will be another post regarding my engagement once i received the photos from afiqah (the photographer).
=)
there's nothing more that i can ask for.
syukur alhamdulillah.
for the case of my engagement,
it evokes a sense of gratitude & happiness.
this post will be a reminder for me whenever we're going through tough times.
hopefully it helps us to hang on and never give up.
even though there isn't any pictures of him in it,
i can sense his presence.
the pictures would help me recall how excited i was to be his fiancee.
another story that we can share with our children.
the photos are possible all because of shikin, syafiqah, afiqah, kakak ani and syahirah.
thank you ladies!
the gifts to him.
why pink you might asked.
because he loves pink.
this house full of chocolates and jelly is made by mama in.
the baulu all the way from kl.
a friend of mom and mama in made this for us.
thanks cik!
mama in added in the sweets to the doll.
this piano is done by mama in.
fruits polished and arranged by mama in.
cake lapis made by mama in.
nenek did this.
from the pink flowers to colouring of the eggs and pulut.
she did more than 100 flowers by herself.
the cake that i ordered online.
it was the first time that i ordered and the partner said it taste good!
prayer mat.
haha.
this peacock is actually baju kurung.
nenek did this and that till it became a peacock.
this on the other hand,
nenek tried making it into mushroom.
this is the pants of the baju kurung.
i was walking around and my eyes were attracted to a pretty pink handkerchief and decided to get for him.
songkok.
kain pelekat.
cloth that he can used for his prayers.
nenek tried to make present it as jantung pisang.
this sangkar burung is being decorated by nenek.
the partner's ring.
while waiting for the guy's side.
oh yes,
how can an event be completed without food?
nenek and mom cooked the dishes.
unfortunately i only ate once because i had to entertain my guests.
if given a chance i would eat 3 times!
now i miss the briyani and acar.
ustaz having a say with his grandpa.
soon i will have a grandpa and i wonder how it feels like because i didn't get a chance to see both of my grandpa.
with kakak ani.
the gifts from him.
not much pictures though.
a missing 'h'
his parents wasn't aware that i have a 'h' in my name.
now they know.
=)
a family picture!
not all were here because nenek was asleep and afiq was washing the plates.
i'm sure there will be another post regarding my engagement once i received the photos from afiqah (the photographer).
=)
there's nothing more that i can ask for.
syukur alhamdulillah.
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