pampering pampered!

one word to describe what i'm feeling.
pampered!

and of course i'm overjoyed.
=)

after work, went over his house.
as the 4 of us will be going geylang in the evening.
had like 3 hours to spare.
and his parents are kind enough to let me sleep.
thankfully!
had a very peaceful sleep.
how can i not have a good sleep?
because my sweetheart is just next door, sleeping too.
haha.
i feel soooo comfortable now.

geylang bazaar as usual has lots of people.
even though it's crowded, the atmosphere is great.
and while walking,
his mom was saying,
"nurul, if you see any nice baju, tell me, i'll buy for you"

i was flabbergasted.
really.
cause i never expected that.

after walking and walking and walking,
i still find it hard to choose.
well, it's just me.
people who has been shopping with me knows how i am.
the way i choose stuffs take a long long time.
i can't make up my mind.
aiyoyo.
any cure not?

i feel so bad making his parents walking.

and in the end,
mr policeman and me has the same pair.
i feel so like a couple.
my first time raya-ing as a real real couple.
yipee...

i can already imagine us with kids in the future raya-ing together.
haha.

thanks makcik and pakcik.
i feel like your daughter.

i'm going to see him tomorrow.
yeahness!

now is already 12.08am
1st october
happy happy childrens' day!

and it's 10 more days till i know, you know.
haha.

i love you honey.
more than anything else.

tired

i realised,
i don't think i want to become a landscape designer.
it's just something that i don't enjoy doing.

i don't feel happy with it.
cause i know i can do better but i just can't draw.
even practicing doesn't help.
argh.

i perfer mixing soil and getting dirty.
a horticulturist, i don't mind.

aiyah, life seldom goes your way.
it's those hard times that helps you learn.
patience is very important.
once you lose temper, things will get ugly.

breakfast with 3s's
suliza, shikin and siti.
haha.
a good evening out.

sweetheart, i can't wait to celebrate your birthday!
i'm getting super duper excited.
*tick tock, tick tock*
just wait and see.
hmmmm..

wo ai wo de boyfriend.
hehe.

sleepy.

happy fasting to all muslims all around the world!

i'm at work and i'm so soo sooo sooooooooo
sleepy
i want to drift off to my dreamland.

i know of someone who is sleeping nicely with the fan full blast.
if only i can join that someone.
haha.

floorball camp was good.
the whole sunday, my body was achy achy.
i can't even laugh cause it hurts to laugh.

i miss my number 1 guy.
=(
badly.

i adore seeing you everytime sweetheart.
every day makes it closer to our day.
and i can't wait for it.

maybe we should plan like 2 years ahead honey.
haha.
typical kiasu singaporean.

happy birthday fatin!

i'm almost two hours late to wish....

happy birthday nurul fatin syazwani!
so so, you're 9 this year huh?
time do flies sister.
you're truly one smart girl.
keep on reading books.
nerdy is good.
haha.
golem, golem, i love you so much!
and one more thing, please be nice to your sisters.
especially me.
hee.

i know of 5 people whose birthday is on the 22nd.
i'm included.
22nd is just nice.

i love you honey.
that last part was so irresistable.
thanks for cheering me up with my favourite ice-cream.
you know me best.

what does it shows?

still have time for my second entry for the day.

yesterday i was undecisive.
to meet or not to meet.
in the end, didn't as i was sick.

i smsed him today,
"why not i don't meet you?"
and he called back.
asking to clarify.

haha.
how cute you are!
next time do read till the end.

what honey?
you panicked huh when your sweetie don't wanna meet you?

hmmm..
what does it shows?
*grins*

him

here i am at work blogging away.
from day to day i wanted to update my blog but i've been too tired when i reached home.

but i've been pleased being able to see him many many times.
=)

oh honey, your mom has a new daughter huh?
haha.
don't worry, you're still the one and only son.

i miss you honey.

even though we've been together for 9 months plus plus,
it seems that i still can't get enough of you.
i'm still so into you.
you should ask shikin, suliza or my sisters when i'm about to see you.
they will say i'm crazy.
my energy levels just shoot way up high!

when i was younger,
my friends used to say that if a girl eats an apple in front of the mirror at midnight, a witch will appear in the mirror.
and you're able to ask the witch who is your future husband.
anyone tried it before?
haha.

most of the girls i know want to know who is their future husband.
i'm included.
cause you may never know how your husband looks like, dress like, etc.
kinda curious lah.

i know and found mine.

while we are still friends, i have a feeling.
a feeling that me and you will end up together.
getting married to one another.
but i ignored that due to some reasons.
i didn't want to believe in that.
and now i want that fairy tale to come true.

that pictures of you when you're younger really makes me smile.
you make me proud.
how i wish i'm able to see you grow up.
i'm sure i'll have butterflies in my stomach when i see you.

remember the first time i accompany you to your collegues houses for raya?
and also to your friends' weddings?
haha.
thinking about it, it was funny, sweet, adorable.
we're not even a couple but looked and acted like one.
both were awkward with each other.
we didn't even touch each other.
was is because we're afraid that history will repeats itself?
for the record, i never went out with a gentleman for visiting and weddings.
you're the first.
honey, i didn't tell you this; during those times, i feel attached to you but i didn't dare to show it.
i'm hooked to you.
in short, i'm falling for you all over again.
all those time, i feel like a couple.
even asked myself, wouldn't it be marvellous if he's my boyfriend?
i can feel the love we have for one another.
yet, both are scared to take the risk.

those memories with you will never fade because it keeps rewinding in my mind.

our love will never fade.
i truly love you.

*ps, i do find you attractive.
in your own special way.
you're one dashing young man that i'll never stop loving.

a lot

a lot of stuffs has been happening recently.
and i've got my results!

i didn't put any expectation for the results as i wouldn't want to get disappointed.
because i think i just did average for the semester.
thank goodness, it was alright.
the alphabets wasn't that nice with B's flooding it.
haha.
but the gpa was pleasant.
can be better, but it's over.
3.4643

i know where to head next.

since i did badly for my PSLE,
i never thought i'm capable to achieve something.
i lose my self confidence totally.
slowly, i'm gaining it back.

i was embarrassed to say my PSLE results.
but now i'm proud to say it loud.
haha.
i've got only a mere 172 for my PSLE results.
and i got to normal academic.
people don't believe me when i said that.
i wasn't that bright.
perhaps hardworking.
i knew i could go to express.
my mid year, prelims results said so.
but nooo.
god has a plan for me.

for today, i sent kak susi to the airport and while heading home, fetch a new kakak.
all the things she's done.
thank you kak susi.
i'll miss you.
i hope you will miss all my babbling about random stuffs.
haha.

yesterday went to kubur with him and his parents.
it has been years since i went there.
it striked me, if i were to die, will i be rememebered?

afterwhich see him soccering.
haha.
then then then,
head to johor with him and grandma.

it's good to know that both of our families approve of our relationship.
i can never be happier.

a few days ago, i overheard my grandma conversation with his mom.
and god, my grandma was really teasing me about me having new parents.
both were saying about saving money.
hmmm.
honey, few more years ya?
haha.
and i'm really glad his parents love me.

i have additional parents now.
hee.
three mothers that consists of mama, mama in and his mom.
three dads, papa, papa 2, his dad.

one more week and it will mark the first month of attachment!
6 months will sure fly.

last thursday, a lecturer from school who is happened to be my in-charge,
dropped by to see how i'm doing.
i don't know him as he wasn't a hlm lecturer.
i don't know how he looks like, what he teaches in school, blah, blah, blah.
all i know was his name.
wasn't that bad when he came down.
chatted about how i'm doing.
and he gave me a shocked with a remark.
he said "your english is good, you speak fluently."
i was blushing, thank god the place was gloomy.
what a remark.
no one ever said that to me.

i'm still improving on my english, lot more to learn.
for my malay, aiyoyo.
memalukan.
i speak malay with a ba-ku slang.
it's funny i tell you.

i know,
i'm stubborn.
really am.
i never want to lose.
but at times, i have to lose cause i'm in the wrong.
i need to change.
badly.
argh.

maybe i need to have more control of myself.
these mood swings are really controlling me.

i'm really sorry to those affected.
thanks for being so understanding and still love me for who i am.

sometimes you are too scared to show your flaws.
scared of your loved ones leave you cause they can't cope with you.
it scared me.
especially if you ever to leave me.
i don't know what i'll do.
i can't think of that yet cause i wouldn't to see that happen.

that was why a wise friend of mine said "you can only know your partner true self when you are married to him/her"
yes, it's true.
cause when you're in a relationship, you avoid showing those bad points of yours.
people are just putting on a mask.
because when you're married, you are suppose to be with him/her till the end of your life.
it's like a contract.
well, the contract can be broken by divorcing.
whereas when you are still not married,
there's no contract and your partner may just leave you.

honey, i hope you're the one.
the one that i was born to love.
the one that i'll cherish for life.
my only other half that will make me whole.

i know you love me.
your love is amazing.
at times, i just need reassurance.

you just called.
and i love hearing your voice.
i'll see you tonight sweetheart.

i want to be the best girlfriend ever.
cause i know you deserve the best.

happy

i love today.
i love the days that are going to come.
i love the days that had past.

i had my reasons.

dinner with his parents again.
i feel so pampered everytime with them.

and his mom said "dua hari tak jumpa dah bergaduh"
haha. in a joking way.
we had no arguments lah.
he was using me as a punching bag and i was defending myself.

i so miss you.
seeing you and spending time with you is indeed worth it.

i had so much fun.
thanks for the lovely evening.

i love you
is a phrase that i won't get sick listening and saying.
cause i believe in it.

i believe in us.

unsatisfied.

as we all know after watching a movie,
most of it have a happy ending.
and some maybe gruesome and all died in the end.

movies are good at stirring one's emotions.
i feel angry when the bad guy keeps on torturing the innocent.
i cried if there's a touching story like a walk to remember.
at times, i wish i'm one of the character in the movie.
cause it seems that she has everything.
happiness, laughter, money, the guy, etc.
also when the guy did something so romantic to the girl.
i so wish i'm the lucky girl!
we awed at romantic shows.

same goes for music.
it can lift or dampen our feelings.
whenever your sad, i think most probably you will listen to melancholic song and become more sober.
and tears starts gushing out.
songs that are fast beat makes you wanna move.

that's why they say the songs you listen to may reveal your true identity.

the topic of today's blogging is: imagine yourself being filmed since young.
how is our movie like.

that was why,
whenever i'm feeling low or unsatisfied with life or whatever.
i tried imagine placing myself in my movie.
and reflecting back all those precious moment.
i tell you, our brain is one great memory card.
seeing myself from another point of view.
cause at times you maybe selfish without your own conscience.

after those replaying back, i feel good.
if only people are able to see how my movie is.
if only people can see how my boyfriend treats me.
if only people know how i have to struggle through hardships.
if only....

all of us are actress and actors.
the world is our stage.
it's just how you want to run your show.
we have our freedom.

i'm lucky.
you're lucky.
everyone's lucky.

hearing your voice late at night end my day happily,
everytime.

thanks honey.
i can never be happier in my life.

you make an end to my normal mundane routine life.
to make it to an interesting one.
and i never regret choosing you.

i love you.
all the time.

sunday morning

what a nice, lovely sunday morning!
i was hoping i could wake up late.
but...
i was awoken by a phone call by my mom at 7.50am
she wanted me to drive her to tampines to get some stuffs.
one end to another.

what a morning.

while waiting for her to get changed, here i am blogging away.

oh yes, before i forget.
LiZ, i think we have the same first name.
Nurul.
am i right?
my boyfriend did mention about you before.

back to attachment.
the time spent at mandai is so fast!
it's already 2 weeks!
weee.. 22 more.

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i've saved my post as i didn't managed to finish it up.

now it's already, 11:19pm
updating it.

i've just reached home.
from having fun with my significant other.

sunday is like his soccer day.
so yeah, see him play.
and i love it.
watching him dribbling the ball, i feel so proud.

i didn't have a rest the whole day.
went out since morning.
with my mom.
it is a good sunday.

went home for a little while to get change and go out again.
to meet my prince charming.

his mom called his phone which i happened to answer.
and we chatted about marriage.
haha.
she was telling me about how a grand wedding she attented in the afternoon.
hmmm...

last week when i came over his house, his mom showed her wedding album.
very cute couple lah.
hers was a grand one too.

one after one of people i know are getting engaged.
i don't really think it's neccesary to get engaged.
well, i just have to wait and see.
haha.
don't worry people, i'm not getting married yet.
in a few years to come, insyaAllah.
need to have a lot of planning.
to be more specific, proper planning.

and of course, i know who is my mr right.
hee.

sweetheart, thanks for lovely company.
i'm falling for you all over again.

the place you brought me tonight was indeed peaceful and colourful.
to have you with me, add in that magic spark to the place.
i love you.

and i want the best for you.
till i meet you again, i miss you.
every second, every minute, every hour.

love.

i've received a bad news in the morning.
suliza's fairy tale is over.

i'm so sorry to hear that pal.
it must be a sudden blow for you.
i felt how you feel.
twice.

we get stronger after obstacles we faced.
cause i know i do.

some people are just evil.
without them knowing it.

i hope god will make them realise how cruel they are.
and stop hurting people.
and also stand up for what they love.
if they ever loved the other person.

excuses can always be made up.
but what is the real truth?

why would they lead on if they don't dare to go against it?
cowards.

these people are not worth giving your heart cause they will just take advantage of your goodwill.

then it strucked me.
what if ever things didn't go right for the both of us?
will he ever leave me?
what if he does?
doubts can never be stopped.

but i do have answers for those doubts.
he loves me.
and i know he does.

i'm looking forward to the future together.
you and me.
my family and yours as one.

i love you.

pissed.

i'm so freaking angry today!
argh.
can i bite you?

best girlie friends!

catching up with my two best girlie friends were great!
one date after another.
i feel so blessed.


me and shikin after a dialogue session.
we had a good time 'listening' to it.


suliza and me after walking a long long pathway.
somewhere in singapore.



suliza and me saw snails mating.
haha.

they had a plastic interfering them.
was it on purpose?
hmmm...


suliza still kpo-ing of the snail love making session.
she's too amazed.
heh.

shikin and me saw the baboon thingy.
*no comments*
too R(A) to put up.

on the other hand, i'm missing my everyday classmates.
i miss their laughter and smile.
i wish you all the best!


bubbly estya and peggy


camera shy jeslyn and game freak joanna


sakeenah and the camera shy girl


me with my hugable jeslyn! (maybe she has a phobia on camera)
haha.


finally a decent side view of her!

i have 2 august babies in my family.

happy belated birthday papa!
happy belated birthday hazirah!

just a simple call or sms from you make me go bonkers all day long.
is it just me?
or is that the power of love?

the best thing about falling in love is
to know the other person really truly love you.
and of course to really truly love them back.

it's a two way effort.
it can never be a one way, as the person who is loving his/her partner won't feel loved.
to feel loved is such a wonderful thing in life.

same goes for friendship.
two parties making an effort to communicate.

one week.

one week of attachment is up!
23 more weeks to go.

i can survive this.
haha.
well, i'm starting to love it.
the place make me feel at home.

seeing you for a few minutes was great honey.
as usual, you never fail to make me feel proud.
i miss you so.
i'll see you tomorrow.