Thanks to About.com for the food trivia lesson.
The World's Most Romantic Foods (Besides Chocolate)
1. Oysters. It sounds gross, but oysters are aphrodisiacs (a fancy word that means "will take your mind off of dinner and onto some other activities"). So if your girlfriend doesn't keep kosher, be sure to scribble "bivalves" on your shopping list.
2. Black beans. I know, they're like the most unromantic food on Earth, but supposedly St. Jerome warned his nuns not to eat them because they would break their vows and go boy-crazy. Consider buying your Valentine a can of Goya.
3. Asparagus. In France in the 1800's, they served brides and grooms three courses of asparagus on the night before their wedding to get them in the mood for marital bliss. Ugggh.
4. Figs. Used in ancient Greek love rituals (and that was even before folks started stuffing them in Newtons).
5. Ginseng. Supposedly has powers that make people want to touch each other. Just wash your hands first.
6. Basil. Basil warms the body, and the Haitians say that it comes from Erzulie, the goddess of love. Plus it tastes awesome on Meat Lover's Pizza.
7. Honey. In India, honey plays a big part in wedding rituals. And Attila the Hun drank so much honey after his wedding that he died. How romantic!
8. Avocadoes. Avocadoes are so sexy that ancient Aztec maidens weren't allowed to leave their house during avocado harvesting time. Present-day gals shouldn't take guacamole for granted.
9. Nuts. Nuts, especially almonds, are supposed to make women all lovey-dovey. In the Bible, Samson wooed Delilah with his nuts (er, you know what I mean).
10. Surf and Turf. Nothing particularly romantic about pairing up lobster and dead cow, but if you treat your girlfriend to a $70 menu item, she'll love you for at least a couple of weeks.
Monday, January 31
Thursday, January 27
5h@LL we d@ncE?
yesterday, had dga project meeting at noon. it's been so long since i watch a movie. after reading shall we dance synopsis, asked suliza to watch it on tuesday, but she politely reject it. so there is no one else to watch it so i decided to asked my sister. after the meeting, met up my sister to finally watch shall we dance. i think the show is worth the money 1. it has a good storyline, 2. it's so sweet and romantic (if only i have such a husband) 3. richard gere is so irresistible! *melts*
the dances are really nice, hoping to learn them one fine day. we sneaked in fries, burgers, sushi and then we bought nachos, jumbo hotdog and a large drink. oh yes, and we had a small coke free due to a lucky ang pow. what a glutton! all left at the end of the show was the burgers. we are too full to carry on eating. haha.
will be heading to east coast park later due to floorballers outing. hope it will be fun and enjoyable.
there's homework to be done, notes to revise but basically, i've been slacking and procrastinating. wait till the last minute where i'll panic and stressed out!
the dances are really nice, hoping to learn them one fine day. we sneaked in fries, burgers, sushi and then we bought nachos, jumbo hotdog and a large drink. oh yes, and we had a small coke free due to a lucky ang pow. what a glutton! all left at the end of the show was the burgers. we are too full to carry on eating. haha.
will be heading to east coast park later due to floorballers outing. hope it will be fun and enjoyable.
there's homework to be done, notes to revise but basically, i've been slacking and procrastinating. wait till the last minute where i'll panic and stressed out!
tHe 5uNr!5e...
on our journey back to singapore, i experienced a beautiful sunrise and i managed to snap some of it. it was simply breathtaking as this was sort of my first time witnessing it.
Wednesday, January 26
h@R! r@y@ h@j!...
last thursday, went over to malaysia to visit my grandma's kampung cause the grown-ups decided to celebrate hari raya haji over there. mama in family came on friday afternoon. for those who doesn't know, mama in is my god-mother, my mom's twin. it was fun, having to interact and communicate as a one big whole family. i mean all of us are busy with our own stuffs and have been neglecting each other, never really take the time off to know more about each other. i dreaded when it's in the afternoon as the atmosphere will change to become not warm, but hot. imagine you're in an oven, even two fans directly at you won't help.
so guys, please don't use stuffs that will effect the atmosphere, which causes the thinning of ozone layer and the rise of global warming. the future generations will suffer, do you think they deserve it? spend time thinking about it. done with my environmental awareness, back to what happen next.
went back on a sunday morning as i have a theory class at 0800hrs. my dad drove all the way to clementi only to realise that i'm not heading to ngee ann poly. it was partially my fault, i didn't say what class i'm having. sorry dad.
i didn't notice that geraldine, an ex classmate cum close friend of mine was in the same class with me, until i saw her for the next lesson. well geraldine, i hope you're doing fine and i miss the two of us "gossiping" (haha), miss those times we spent and miss the four of us hanging out together.
i was thinking whether to attend floorball on monday. i felt guilty and yes, i went. it was fun as usual and thank god, not much fitness. haha. but it was my worst training ever! i didn't mean it's the coach or the other players. the problem was me, i was playing like a shithead, my concentration wasn't there, keep making silly mistakes and i wouldn't wish that kind of me to happen again. felt shitty and talked to dad about the game on the way home. well, he does cheer me up. thanks dad!
tuesday, was really bored at home, watch mickey mouse twice upon a christmas. it was nice and enjoyable to watch cartoon. got a call from suliza and we decided to meet at jurong point as she need to buy pants for her activity tomorrow. she said i looked studious with my specs and my short hair. futhermore, she said i looked like my sisters and in. well, thanks ar. haha. saw my sister with her friend. her friend went off first. and both of us head home together. while lining up, that is when i realize i miss wearing st. margaret's aka the polka dots uniform. i felt good and proud when people kept looking at my uniform. the feeling is just undescriable.
went our again for my basic theory revision class. i was alone in the class with the instructor. it was quite useful as it helps me to remember some stuffs. basically, the instructor asked me 96 questions using powerpoint and from there i can gauge myself at where i stand. before going off, there's a girl who went in and i decided to stay again to go through the questions again. i hope to pass my basic theory that is on the 31st, a monday. *daydreaming* it will be great if i'm able to drive a car, being able to go shopping with suliza without taking public transport, without wasting time on them. not only on suliza, but on my family members, being able to drive my grandma to her destinated market, to go shopping with mom and the list goes on and on. with all these stuffs in mind, it propels me forward to achieve it. luck also has to play a part, so god, please help me out.
having a project meeting on wednesday. then if i'm lucky, i'll be meeting my sis to catch a movie.
Wednesday, January 19
b0R!n9
met nadiah in the morning and head off to school together. had IS web enrolment, the lecturer show us through on how to enrol, etc. then had to report for duty as today, 19, 20 and 22 january, ngee ann polytechnic is having an open house. the duty was from 10-2. me and a group of friends were in charge of plant cloning. basically it's leaf propogation, from a leaf, it will grow new shoots and the leaf will grow into a plant. each person can bring home 2 leaf cutting in two pots, free-of-charge! went to SIM to have lunch. which afterwards we head to ita class. learnt about microsoft access. mr phang announce out ita marks, the one on excel and surprisingly, i got an A. haha. before going out from school, return to the booth and take 4 leaf cuttings home. took 154 and went to the library to borrow about gardens. the books are references for my garden design (landscape design). landscape design presentation is in 3 more weeks. i need to make my work up to standard. if not, it will pulls down my marks. going to turn in early tonight.
m0nd@y, +u35D@y..
can you follow instructions? that is what i need to do in order to score well in my dga test. it's about graphic design, adobe illustrator 10. we were given a test paper filled with step by step procedure. it's just impossible to fail this test, it will tell you step 1, open this file, name it as blah, blah, blah then follow be step 2 and the list goes on and on. the test is about designing a cd cover. our final work must be similar to the one he showed to us. so, i guess everyone will be passing this test.
then in the evening had floorball training. really dread the warming up, but surprisingly, yesterday i can run. i don't feel that tired as the past runs. the attendance wasn't that good, a lot of people didn't turn up, some are sick while others has project to hand in. i like it when it gets closer and closer to 2000hrs as we will gonna have a game. yesterday, it was between the league players and the school team. even though, the league players scored a few number of goals, i think the school team has improved and will be improving. that's good, keep it up girls and please take care of your health!
i have the same hairstyle like my two other sisters and had comments about it. people was saying that i looked younger and cute. haha. only one disagree, that is suliza. too bad suliza, majority wins.
had lessons at the botanic gardens today. was really sleepy in class, kept yawning and i sat like a lazy girl, a person without a backbone. the lecturer showed us pictures of different kinds of models that we have to do in a few weeks to come. it remind me of those primary school days where you have projects using clay, etc. he returned us back our test paper, which we had to present our garden last lesson. it was marked 18. i assume it is out of 20. haha. he explained what he wanted from our garden and from there, it helps to spark out new ideas. while heading home, i was seriously hoping that i'll bump into someone. luck wasn't with me.
it's less than a month to valentine's day. will i have a date? i wonder.
then in the evening had floorball training. really dread the warming up, but surprisingly, yesterday i can run. i don't feel that tired as the past runs. the attendance wasn't that good, a lot of people didn't turn up, some are sick while others has project to hand in. i like it when it gets closer and closer to 2000hrs as we will gonna have a game. yesterday, it was between the league players and the school team. even though, the league players scored a few number of goals, i think the school team has improved and will be improving. that's good, keep it up girls and please take care of your health!
i have the same hairstyle like my two other sisters and had comments about it. people was saying that i looked younger and cute. haha. only one disagree, that is suliza. too bad suliza, majority wins.
had lessons at the botanic gardens today. was really sleepy in class, kept yawning and i sat like a lazy girl, a person without a backbone. the lecturer showed us pictures of different kinds of models that we have to do in a few weeks to come. it remind me of those primary school days where you have projects using clay, etc. he returned us back our test paper, which we had to present our garden last lesson. it was marked 18. i assume it is out of 20. haha. he explained what he wanted from our garden and from there, it helps to spark out new ideas. while heading home, i was seriously hoping that i'll bump into someone. luck wasn't with me.
it's less than a month to valentine's day. will i have a date? i wonder.
Monday, January 17
5m!Le5...
here i am sitting in front of the com and listening to air supply's collections on a monday morning. the songs are about love, be it people falling in love, being in love and falling out from love.
been staring at my landscape design homework and i just can't get my hands to draw. i'm thinking of ways to make my drawing an interesting one but i have no idea where to start.
well, i have to continue thinking later, make way for me to report the days i've been through and my views.
tomorrow going to trim my hair with my dearest pal. meeting her after she's done with school. school starts at 1500hrs as we are going to have dga test. not forgetting floorball training in the evening.
sun, went over my house in the evening to catch the match between singapore and indonesia. woo hoo! singapore won them, way to go lions! since then i'm obssessed with baihakki khaizan, the guy who wore number 6 on his jersey. he's a hunk and he's hot! having a huge crush on him. *smiles*
in the morning, i had my second basic theory lesson. which after that, i booked two basic practices and a basic theory evaluation. i can say that i've done quite well for the first practice even though i failed 4 times. the lowest i got was 82% which was 9 wrong answers out of 50 questions. it wasn't easy to pass as you need at least 90% to pass it. i noticed that the questions were in a random order. i was in a panic mode as i can't be failing it all the time. after the first session, i need to go down to print out a reporting slip which was required for the next practice. sat back at the same place as the venue was in the same classroom. thank god that the second practice i've passed the 4 booklets, all scoring >90%. 45 minutes later, i need to head down again and print out the reporting slip again for my evaluation. again, it was in the same classroom, sat at the same place. this time, i can't afford to make silly mistakes as it will determine me whether i can take my basic theory test. i was more confident this time compare to the previous two, this time around, i was ready. it took me about 15 minutes to finish it and it was time to hold my breath. thank god, i've passed scoring 98%. after which i informed the instructor which he did some stuffs on the com and stamped my book. went home and book the earliest test which is on the 31 jan. hopefully there isn't school as it was on a test week. *smiles*
sat, went out with my sister to buy presents for our friends. we bought the same thing. haha.
fri, slacked the whole day at home as there wasn't any school.
thurs, need to report at 11 as sakeenah and me have to take care of the floorball booth due to the polympics. went to sim to have our lunch then head off to class. had floorball and i was totally wasn't concentrating maybe because i was sleepy, yawn more than 5 times. i can't afford to make silly mistakes as it's a team game and because of one person, it will affect the whole team. i hope to be more alert the next time round.
wed, had to bring the vegetables waste as the class are making compost for plant nutrition and hydroponics. had lesson till 1700 and went home straight.
tue, had our landscape design test and class presentation. it was all right.
mon, had dga which lasted about 100 mins. had to wait patiently before floorball starts.
i guess i better go to sleep as it's 2 am in the morning.
been staring at my landscape design homework and i just can't get my hands to draw. i'm thinking of ways to make my drawing an interesting one but i have no idea where to start.
well, i have to continue thinking later, make way for me to report the days i've been through and my views.
tomorrow going to trim my hair with my dearest pal. meeting her after she's done with school. school starts at 1500hrs as we are going to have dga test. not forgetting floorball training in the evening.
sun, went over my house in the evening to catch the match between singapore and indonesia. woo hoo! singapore won them, way to go lions! since then i'm obssessed with baihakki khaizan, the guy who wore number 6 on his jersey. he's a hunk and he's hot! having a huge crush on him. *smiles*
in the morning, i had my second basic theory lesson. which after that, i booked two basic practices and a basic theory evaluation. i can say that i've done quite well for the first practice even though i failed 4 times. the lowest i got was 82% which was 9 wrong answers out of 50 questions. it wasn't easy to pass as you need at least 90% to pass it. i noticed that the questions were in a random order. i was in a panic mode as i can't be failing it all the time. after the first session, i need to go down to print out a reporting slip which was required for the next practice. sat back at the same place as the venue was in the same classroom. thank god that the second practice i've passed the 4 booklets, all scoring >90%. 45 minutes later, i need to head down again and print out the reporting slip again for my evaluation. again, it was in the same classroom, sat at the same place. this time, i can't afford to make silly mistakes as it will determine me whether i can take my basic theory test. i was more confident this time compare to the previous two, this time around, i was ready. it took me about 15 minutes to finish it and it was time to hold my breath. thank god, i've passed scoring 98%. after which i informed the instructor which he did some stuffs on the com and stamped my book. went home and book the earliest test which is on the 31 jan. hopefully there isn't school as it was on a test week. *smiles*
sat, went out with my sister to buy presents for our friends. we bought the same thing. haha.
fri, slacked the whole day at home as there wasn't any school.
thurs, need to report at 11 as sakeenah and me have to take care of the floorball booth due to the polympics. went to sim to have our lunch then head off to class. had floorball and i was totally wasn't concentrating maybe because i was sleepy, yawn more than 5 times. i can't afford to make silly mistakes as it's a team game and because of one person, it will affect the whole team. i hope to be more alert the next time round.
wed, had to bring the vegetables waste as the class are making compost for plant nutrition and hydroponics. had lesson till 1700 and went home straight.
tue, had our landscape design test and class presentation. it was all right.
mon, had dga which lasted about 100 mins. had to wait patiently before floorball starts.
i guess i better go to sleep as it's 2 am in the morning.
Friday, January 14
!'m 5+r0n9 +0 c@rRy 0n w!+h L!fe..
i'm sorry if i have cause trouble to you. sorry if i've been a bother to you. sorry if i have cause you inconvenience. i would like to say sorry and i really mean it. i know my words are futile. thank you for all the things you have done, to send me home, wait up for me, going through my unexpected moods, which at times i shouted. thanks again for the beautiful watch. thank you. i would like to make myself clear, i may appear hard on the outside but i am actually very senitive, a trait that i successfully hide from others. there are times that even i cannot control my temper. under such circumstances i shout and scream, more with frustraion at the situation than with anger at any particular person. if you assume that i shouted at you, you are definitely wrong. to me, all those 3 months was a pleasant dream which i wouldn't want to wake up from. but all things has an end. and after those 3 months of being together, nightmares started to take place. both of us weren't strong enough to overcome the nightmare and we had to give in. the next thing that i'm about to do is harsh. but this is just how things should go. i know i shouldn't assume, but now i'm assuming that the only candle glowing has been put off, and there isn't any light source to light it up again. i have made up my decision to let you go, to have nothing to do with you. you don't have to be concern about me or my family members. i'm just no one to you. i'm not found in your list of people. just erase me and those mistakes you commited, i forgive you. if we were to see each other on the streets, i'll take it that i didn't see you. i realise that i need to be strong and look up ahead rather than dwelling on the past which causes misery. i posted on my blog instead of sending to you because i want people to know that i'm through with you and that i'm heartless. you think you're the only one who's hurting? think again. good luck for your future. yesterday was our last conversation and we are over.
Monday, January 10
Sunday, January 9
p0R+!On 0f mY LiFe..
quite a number of stuffs has been happening for the past few days. i prefer being busy, having stuffs to do rather than doing nothing. i really try to be busy hoping that my mind would be distracted with other stuffs instead of him. but boy, i was so wrong, every day he will just be there in my mind. his smile and his face, it just enlighten me but at the same time, it makes me realise that he ain't here with me, he won't be with me. if only i could turn the clock around. i admit that this is my first time having difficulties getting over someone. i think only time can cure this heartache of mine. maybe god has bigger plans for me than i have for myself.
thursday, had oral communication. we were debating about some issues. the evaluator said that i'm being neutral, instead of arguing back, i just stated the positives stuffs. oh well, have to learn from my mistakes.
sports and wellness was ok, we had step-ups.
floorball, the juniors have a game with the league players. we did some silly mistakes which can be avoided. overall, the game was ok, not that good. i still need to improve in every game and have to correct my mistakes.
friday had environment science. it's been a long time since i saw dr koh. haha. he's so gentle yet cute.
had to be present at the hlm module award presentation. congrats to those who had put in their hard work!
went back with joanna, took 154 and on the traffic junction, it was red light and the bus has to stop. at a distant, i saw a guy of a familiar height and familiar build. it's him with a group of friends waiting to cross the road. my heart stopped pumping air for a while, it felt so good to see him again even though he didn't saw me. i guess they had just finished their friday prayers and heading back to school. is it fated or is it just a mere coincidence, a sequence of events that although accidental seems to have been planned or arranged? god, why should i see him? what are you trying to show? to show that he's doing fine without me? all the things that i tried to erase still lingers on my mind.
after seeing him for a few seconds, i made a decision to attend the national library sale at suntec. basically, to spent time on myself. to be a loner just for a while. the books were lesser compare to last year's. spent 90 mins to choose books. after the whole browsing, i bought 7 books totalling $14. bought 2 children storybooks so that i'm able to read for the kids.
at night, had kidsREAD. one volunteer has joined us. he's mr lee and there was one saturday session volunteer who came down to observe. to be a spy, to know how we conduct the class and etc. but i think me, shikin and mr lee conduct the class quite well, the kids seems to be enjoying themselves and at the same time learnt something. the theme was colours. they were really enthusiatic about telling their stories. it's quite difficult to conduct the class as the kids are so hyperactive, where they will just run around, play and etc. they are kids who is 4-5 years old, they are suppose to be like that. it will be hard for them to sit still. too bad, eeleen can't joined us as she's under maternity leave for a month. it's a girl, i bet she's cute just like the mommy.
saturday, went to meet suliza to register for the driving lessons. gosh, i can't believe it, in a few more months time, i'm able to drive a car. yay! it was crowded with people, i think cause it's a saturday.
then we're late for the mangrove transplanting/replanting at pasir ris park. we are suppose to meet at 1430 sharp at pasir ris mrt station. we didn't expect the driving registration takes a long time and we had to took cab to pasir ris which cost us $19. ate ice-cream, those scooping ice-cream. i really love those. nice taste and i'll never get enough of it. i ate 2 of it, thought of buying more but not enough hand to carry it. walk around and we discover that we had to get to carpark c while we are at carpark e. the landscape is nice. hope to go back there one day. there are swings which both of us wanted to take but we are running out of time. too bad. walk to the east and after crossing the brigde, we are kinda lost. called one of the volunteer, and said that someone will come and fetch us. there at the bridge, we wait patiently. then a man driving a caddy fetched us. people looked at us and smiled at us. haha. maybe they were thinking, how can two girls get lost? lost in a park? haha. as it was raining, we had to use garbage bags as a poncho. we looked pathetic in that. and we had to wear boots. haha. too bad, we didn't have pictures of us doing work and in that attire. we felt guilty as we were late and we had to trouble people. sorry guys especially grace. as it was drizzling, we couldn't do the transplanting and replanting. instead we had to pick up litters from the mangrove areas. oh boy, it was in a mess with litters all around. bottles, styrofoams, plastics, balls were lying all around. we had to pick it up and placed it in garbage bags. the place was dark and muddy. my boots got stucked a few times and i need someone to help me. haha. some of the water went inside my boots, it was very soggy. there was one of the area where the branch of the trees has thorns. i didn't notice it until my left arm was hooked by it. ouch! it pierced through my shirt and my skin. there is two tiny holes in my left arm and also on my leg. there was a lot of black gargabe bags filled with litters inside. spent 45 mins in the toilet. clean up and took pictures with suliza. haha. then went to eat mcdonalds with her. then home sweet home. reached home about 2130 and saw my baby cousin and cousins at home. how glad was i when i see them.
today, going to have my first basic theory lesson in the afternoon. looking forward to it. *smiles* finally i'm eighteen!
thursday, had oral communication. we were debating about some issues. the evaluator said that i'm being neutral, instead of arguing back, i just stated the positives stuffs. oh well, have to learn from my mistakes.
sports and wellness was ok, we had step-ups.
floorball, the juniors have a game with the league players. we did some silly mistakes which can be avoided. overall, the game was ok, not that good. i still need to improve in every game and have to correct my mistakes.
friday had environment science. it's been a long time since i saw dr koh. haha. he's so gentle yet cute.
had to be present at the hlm module award presentation. congrats to those who had put in their hard work!
went back with joanna, took 154 and on the traffic junction, it was red light and the bus has to stop. at a distant, i saw a guy of a familiar height and familiar build. it's him with a group of friends waiting to cross the road. my heart stopped pumping air for a while, it felt so good to see him again even though he didn't saw me. i guess they had just finished their friday prayers and heading back to school. is it fated or is it just a mere coincidence, a sequence of events that although accidental seems to have been planned or arranged? god, why should i see him? what are you trying to show? to show that he's doing fine without me? all the things that i tried to erase still lingers on my mind.
after seeing him for a few seconds, i made a decision to attend the national library sale at suntec. basically, to spent time on myself. to be a loner just for a while. the books were lesser compare to last year's. spent 90 mins to choose books. after the whole browsing, i bought 7 books totalling $14. bought 2 children storybooks so that i'm able to read for the kids.
at night, had kidsREAD. one volunteer has joined us. he's mr lee and there was one saturday session volunteer who came down to observe. to be a spy, to know how we conduct the class and etc. but i think me, shikin and mr lee conduct the class quite well, the kids seems to be enjoying themselves and at the same time learnt something. the theme was colours. they were really enthusiatic about telling their stories. it's quite difficult to conduct the class as the kids are so hyperactive, where they will just run around, play and etc. they are kids who is 4-5 years old, they are suppose to be like that. it will be hard for them to sit still. too bad, eeleen can't joined us as she's under maternity leave for a month. it's a girl, i bet she's cute just like the mommy.
saturday, went to meet suliza to register for the driving lessons. gosh, i can't believe it, in a few more months time, i'm able to drive a car. yay! it was crowded with people, i think cause it's a saturday.
then we're late for the mangrove transplanting/replanting at pasir ris park. we are suppose to meet at 1430 sharp at pasir ris mrt station. we didn't expect the driving registration takes a long time and we had to took cab to pasir ris which cost us $19. ate ice-cream, those scooping ice-cream. i really love those. nice taste and i'll never get enough of it. i ate 2 of it, thought of buying more but not enough hand to carry it. walk around and we discover that we had to get to carpark c while we are at carpark e. the landscape is nice. hope to go back there one day. there are swings which both of us wanted to take but we are running out of time. too bad. walk to the east and after crossing the brigde, we are kinda lost. called one of the volunteer, and said that someone will come and fetch us. there at the bridge, we wait patiently. then a man driving a caddy fetched us. people looked at us and smiled at us. haha. maybe they were thinking, how can two girls get lost? lost in a park? haha. as it was raining, we had to use garbage bags as a poncho. we looked pathetic in that. and we had to wear boots. haha. too bad, we didn't have pictures of us doing work and in that attire. we felt guilty as we were late and we had to trouble people. sorry guys especially grace. as it was drizzling, we couldn't do the transplanting and replanting. instead we had to pick up litters from the mangrove areas. oh boy, it was in a mess with litters all around. bottles, styrofoams, plastics, balls were lying all around. we had to pick it up and placed it in garbage bags. the place was dark and muddy. my boots got stucked a few times and i need someone to help me. haha. some of the water went inside my boots, it was very soggy. there was one of the area where the branch of the trees has thorns. i didn't notice it until my left arm was hooked by it. ouch! it pierced through my shirt and my skin. there is two tiny holes in my left arm and also on my leg. there was a lot of black gargabe bags filled with litters inside. spent 45 mins in the toilet. clean up and took pictures with suliza. haha. then went to eat mcdonalds with her. then home sweet home. reached home about 2130 and saw my baby cousin and cousins at home. how glad was i when i see them.
today, going to have my first basic theory lesson in the afternoon. looking forward to it. *smiles* finally i'm eighteen!
Wednesday, January 5
m00dy @nD 5+ufF5..
i apologize to those that had been victims of my mood swings these few days especially suliza, joanna, sakeenah, my sister and lots more.. i'm sorry. i seriously don't understand what i'm going through, give me time to search myself.. thanks for your understanding.. i've been irritated by everyone, by their actions and etc.. every little things seems to irk me.. it's like my head is full of stuffs that i can't think of.. i've been writing down things to be done, over and over again, hoping that i will ease my mind a little, but i was wrong.. some stuffs are still stuck on my mind.. it's like it's been etched, can't get rid of those stuffs..
school has been fine.. a routine where there are homeworks which are expected to be done.. had my ita (information technology applications) test today, well, can pass but can't get a distinction.. damn.
there's landscape design test next week and a presentation on our garden.. it's general questions about gardens *crossing my fingers* hopefully it's doable..
tomorrow there's oral communication, *smiles* time to talk, being able to talk in front of the class, having their attention and etc.. haha.. *grins evilly* it's a little different tomorrow, we're gonna have a debate.. cool! then there's sports and wellness followed ny floorball.. hope that i can play better.. trying my best to improve on it..
friday, there's hlm module prize presentation.. i heard it's only for 20 mins or something like that.. haha.. such a pity.. then will be heading off to suntec to choose storybooks for the kids in kidsREAD.. *grins* can't wait to see their faces! what a cheerful bunch of 4-5 year old kids.. at night, going to meet shikin for kidsREAD programme.. must start searching for new stickers to give them..
saturday, going to pasir ris with dearest suliza for mangrove transplanting/replanting organised by the green volunteers network.. time to get dirty and sweaty! haha.. before that going to bukit batok driving centre to register.. yay! i can't wait.. haha..
i was really stunned by what sakeenah and joanna had to say.. we were just hanging out, eating junk food when sakeenah speak her mind.. she said that ever since i'm alone, broke up with him, my dressing been slacky.. woah.. it's like i never put in time to choose the outfit for the next day.. maybe that's partially true.. geez.. need to update myself with the latest trend or something.. haha.. they said i've been moody.. yes, that's true.. thanks guys! thanks for speaking your mind.. *smiles* i never realize that i've changed.. haha..
i'm trying to make myself as busy as possible.. i'm trying my best to forget him.. i'm trying very hard to change the way i look at things, the way i think, the way i feel about stuffs.. i'm trying to feel more for others, placing myself in others positions..
god, help me to help myself.. here is my thought. this is my plead. god let your holy light shine on me. i wonder would you hear my prayers. i know i'm not worthy but i need your help. god shine your light, shine it this way, shining so i can see which way to take. my faith is in you to bring me through.
school has been fine.. a routine where there are homeworks which are expected to be done.. had my ita (information technology applications) test today, well, can pass but can't get a distinction.. damn.
there's landscape design test next week and a presentation on our garden.. it's general questions about gardens *crossing my fingers* hopefully it's doable..
tomorrow there's oral communication, *smiles* time to talk, being able to talk in front of the class, having their attention and etc.. haha.. *grins evilly* it's a little different tomorrow, we're gonna have a debate.. cool! then there's sports and wellness followed ny floorball.. hope that i can play better.. trying my best to improve on it..
friday, there's hlm module prize presentation.. i heard it's only for 20 mins or something like that.. haha.. such a pity.. then will be heading off to suntec to choose storybooks for the kids in kidsREAD.. *grins* can't wait to see their faces! what a cheerful bunch of 4-5 year old kids.. at night, going to meet shikin for kidsREAD programme.. must start searching for new stickers to give them..
saturday, going to pasir ris with dearest suliza for mangrove transplanting/replanting organised by the green volunteers network.. time to get dirty and sweaty! haha.. before that going to bukit batok driving centre to register.. yay! i can't wait.. haha..
i was really stunned by what sakeenah and joanna had to say.. we were just hanging out, eating junk food when sakeenah speak her mind.. she said that ever since i'm alone, broke up with him, my dressing been slacky.. woah.. it's like i never put in time to choose the outfit for the next day.. maybe that's partially true.. geez.. need to update myself with the latest trend or something.. haha.. they said i've been moody.. yes, that's true.. thanks guys! thanks for speaking your mind.. *smiles* i never realize that i've changed.. haha..
i'm trying to make myself as busy as possible.. i'm trying my best to forget him.. i'm trying very hard to change the way i look at things, the way i think, the way i feel about stuffs.. i'm trying to feel more for others, placing myself in others positions..
god, help me to help myself.. here is my thought. this is my plead. god let your holy light shine on me. i wonder would you hear my prayers. i know i'm not worthy but i need your help. god shine your light, shine it this way, shining so i can see which way to take. my faith is in you to bring me through.
Saturday, January 1
h@ppY nEw yE@R...
have a wonderful new year guys! i must say 2004 is a year where we must not take our loved ones for granted.. we can always learnt something from our past, that is why there's history.. it's something that we can realize more about ourselves.. every year, we must be thankful to god that we manage to get the year pass.. every day is an experiment for us.. there some reactions which turns out to be bad and some which turns out to be a good.. it's just you cope with it.. i must say that 2004 has been a challenging year for me.. relationships failed but thankfully the grades that i get for my o's were deserving.. year 2004 is a year that i've been hurt badly.. i learnt to trust myself and have faith in myself.. not only in me, but in god too.. HE is always there watching me making my own move, making me to become more independent.. even though HE is not there literally to guide me through, somehow i can feel his presence, giving me signs.. i realized that every single one of us is not satisfied.. think about it.. it's always hard for us to accept other's flaws.. you always try your best to improve on others.. while doing that, stop for a moment and think.. are you being fair.. by changing others, you are not letting them to be themselves.. by trying to change others, do you know how they feel in the process? do they feel hurt? do they like it? why not have a robots instead, those without feelings which you can make it perfect? it's really not easy for you to change.. you should just be grateful to those you loved.. no use changing them as rebel would be their first reactions.. just think if you want to change, it should be true from your heart.. you shouldn't change for others.. god gives you a brain, an organ which you can use to think for yourself.. i just hope that 2005 will be year of less nagging... i just hope they trust in me and know that i can take care of myself.. i'm just sick of the nagging and to have stuffs your way.. i need my own space, sorry that i couldn't be the person that they want me to be.. please, the only thing i ask from you is please accept me for who i am.. not the person you want me to be.. i know what i want to be and i will give in my best to be that person.. i believe no one loves to be a nobody.. nobody loves to be nag at, nobody loves doing thing they are supposed to do.. year 2004 is a year which i learnt about love.. a four letter word which had a big impact on me.. a word that can almost drives me crazy.. having someone to love you is just a great feeling, a feeling that you want to freeze it.. something that you wouldn't lose it.. but feelings do change.. *sigh* this is life.. nothing is perfect.. god, i'm just thankful that i'm able to experience it.. thanks to those who loved me.. hope you are just doing fine in life.. wish you great success in the years to come! 2004 is when i worked.. it's ain't easy to earn money.. you have to cope with customers, colleagues.. i just hope that i'll find a job that i love doing it.. something that i wouldn't complain too much.. i hope i'll have more to learn from 2005.. a year which i am able to be proud of myself.. i'll make sure i achieve something..
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